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Hey I'm got schizotypal which is personality disorder (if you want to know more look it up it too long to explain). Iv had mental problems all my life my mum drank alcohol when she was pregnant with me and she did drugs and alcohol trough out my childhood and she was very abusive and iv been self harming since i was 8 and now i pretty much hate and are scared of people and being alive.
I came across this group a thew years ago looking for something to help me cope with my life and when I found this it was perfect it was like a knew and loved everything on the JoS I dedicated my soul and started meditating straight away and I never felt better But after a thew months my personality got worse and I didn't want anything to do with other people I was pretty much scared to other people and didn't want anything with to do with any one I was happy on my own and my very powerful imagination which made anything I wanted and needed and I was happy there but I still loved father Satan and His wonderful demons so I kept with them and carried in believing, meditating and working in my chakras and by now I pretty much hated people and I was actually planning on using all my power to hurt people the way I was hurt but after some time my family were worried and told doctors and they told me that all the spiritual satanism, astral and seeing stuff I was doing was part of my over active schizotypal imagination And that it's normal for my imagination to do that because of my schizotypal and I was reading a post for much earlier that people with mental illness and personalty disorders are bad and crazy and don't do or want spiritual satanism like normal minded people im sorry if This sound horrible but im just curious now why is it bad when people with mental problems do this stuff and what effects dose it have? I thinks it good in a way cause it helps me see what others can't and my over active imagination makes it much easier to visualise and picture things
Well thanks for reading this I really apreciate it
Hail Satan and all the Demons of Hell
XxXx
I came across this group a thew years ago looking for something to help me cope with my life and when I found this it was perfect it was like a knew and loved everything on the JoS I dedicated my soul and started meditating straight away and I never felt better But after a thew months my personality got worse and I didn't want anything to do with other people I was pretty much scared to other people and didn't want anything with to do with any one I was happy on my own and my very powerful imagination which made anything I wanted and needed and I was happy there but I still loved father Satan and His wonderful demons so I kept with them and carried in believing, meditating and working in my chakras and by now I pretty much hated people and I was actually planning on using all my power to hurt people the way I was hurt but after some time my family were worried and told doctors and they told me that all the spiritual satanism, astral and seeing stuff I was doing was part of my over active schizotypal imagination And that it's normal for my imagination to do that because of my schizotypal and I was reading a post for much earlier that people with mental illness and personalty disorders are bad and crazy and don't do or want spiritual satanism like normal minded people im sorry if This sound horrible but im just curious now why is it bad when people with mental problems do this stuff and what effects dose it have? I thinks it good in a way cause it helps me see what others can't and my over active imagination makes it much easier to visualise and picture things
Well thanks for reading this I really apreciate it
Hail Satan and all the Demons of Hell
XxXx
