Mediation struggles

[Tahuti]

Mediation is something been struggle with. Struggle to incorporate into my days. know even a 5 minute session is advancing. know need it, know it’s a big part of Zevism. I actually love it just be packing my days as live amongst the big city in the civilized society of today modernity. I know I can cut time from something to put it there though. That’s the same mentality I’ve been having for years. “ ima cut some time from somewhere in put it elsewhere “ that way have time to due it. “ time” … my mediation be very soothing. As I am a single person. Actively avoid the people’s drama and been that way for years. So when it comes to me I’m just me. I can just worry about the current. *Closing eyes.* sees black the black turns light black then the black starts shaping alike how the stuff in a lava lamp does. ( never own a lava lamp) then that passes quickly. Then it’s alike a zooming zinging tinging pinging sound is enhanced. Then can pick up about any visual that comes to mind guess if my mind thinking something it visually reflect into the darkness. But my preference is to stay in the dark. As the darkness is more peaceful becomes can feel the waves. I believe that’s what it feel like to do it right can feel the waves. Another thing is it’s easy to fall asleep if already tired when mediating I think that’s my thing gotta try to incorporate it daily when are not already tired from out and about. Such as work. Employment is so draining working labor comes with many unsaid never before said things. Out in the public. Working labour for the currency and the currency comes from the civilization system and the workplace is a big player of the civilization system it’s just so much…. Then under that people…. People’s systems. Authority, rules, their guidance, their wills. So although would love a simple life simple day. But had a complicated past that was held back and held myself back in so many aspects feel like always have to catch up from afar back. The end. The writing. The guess story. End as I expressed. But your welcome to comment or feedback. As it’s not really the end just the end of the introduction presentation of expression. ( seeking to wrap this in a post in maybe come back to it later definite about past present future) this post happen to be a step towards that. ( I know it’s very important to get it in daily) I guess that’s why coasters so bad because for years didn’t even think about mediation in fact whole younger years didn’t think about it. That’s what I mean behind. At least feel like are behind. Yet behinds don’t matter. The now matters more.

 

[Tahuti]

Here’s another thing unable to roll the r’s stop me from even wanting to vibrate the enchantments during gods rituals… not necessarily stopped me… it wasn’t to I heard the pronounce example during doing a ritual that had recently been intercepted into the system where can here a pronunciation of the enchantment. Before I was doing it without vibration by basically saying the enchantment 10x. Now I learned how to roll the R’s thanks to the audio example therefore I believe I’m doing rituals correctly now as now I know I wasn’t doing them correctly. And still i may still not be fully correct, but. “Progress”

Thinks about it- that. Was doing it wrong for years despite I think it always was a vibrate label upon the enchant for the god ritual somehow someway had ignited the vibrate and did it plainly 10x. Not only that was off a little on some god names.

This lesson now makes me think elsewhere. Where else did I was a little off…. Everywhere possibly. So taking to correct steps makes a big difference vs not incorrect. Though intention was to do it yet was wrong a little. Therefore again, once again, thinks to the past. Where was wrong where didn’t fully take in the lesson…. Possibly everywhere. There again, therefore. “Ongoing learning”
Thankfully now i learned to look for examples pay attention too the example a bit more than always trying to be the example.

 

[Tahuti]

*Meditation*

*Meditation Stuggles*

Typos excuse the typos. There’s no edit. Stuff like that.. mediation is something whole different than meditation. Mediation is when taking on behalf of an organization such as media employees due for the media. Meditation is aum a trip inward into the mind body soul / spiritual inception.

Maybe the auto correct on smart phone screw thing up before I seen while night typing..,

 

[Tahuti]

“Mediate” ^ just off a little….

Currently on the midst of the 40 day god rituals plus just being a Person the the civilization world. Work, home, bills. Foods. Media. Online. Exercises. And just trying to stay fresh and focused daily. Z”