Why is it that the people that you seem to spend the most time thinking about and trying to talk to or keep in contact with (i.e. fake friends etc) don't retaliate or seem to care about you??
The people who seem to care about you and would do anything for you (such as family, random strangers, kind people etc) you take for granted and sometimes don't even bother to say thanks to??
As a satanist and also a person I'm very kind and most people tell me am lovely etc and also attractive
(am not bragging but I've been told this)
I unfortunately seem to draw all sorts of people to myself (including psy vamps, fake people, annoying people who are nice but still annoying and irritating guys (old, ugly, young, unwanted etc) I do attract some unwanted attention for e.g. random people come up to me to talk to me and want to be friends but then about 90% when you finally get to know them you realize they were just trying to get into your pants- the guys and most of the girls just turn out to be fake or bitchy or not true friends..
Well the point am getting at is that am genuine and 100% what you see is what you get. Everytime i go through life there's people that come and go, some without warning; others well you kind of got the hint afterwards when they started ignoring you and not replying your messages on bbm or the phone or not talking to you online although you're on their friends list and simply too busy in their lives and other friends to even remember you or care.
Well the thing is sometimes am too polite and take guys' numbers esp guys who have done something for me like walk me home or given me a lift etc but then they call and call and finally when i've had enough i just tell them to stop or when i get mad i tell them to piss off ( its mostly a particular race of guys but am not gonna mention it here.) Ok it was a kind gesture but does that mean you have to call a 100 times??? It's like they've walked you home and now they want a date from you etc although you're clearly not interested and told them loads of times.
And also i made friends with this girl at uni mainly cos i felt kinda sorry for her. It just happened..we sat together in lectures next to each other when i was late. She was really different and looked like a guy and dressed like a guy but she was very nerdy and tomboyish and she was also gay (i didn't know this till later on) but i just didn't enjoy the friendship that much cos she was also boring so why did i stay??
At the moment the only good friends i have in the uk and am aware of are a gay guy living in the north, the tomboy i just told you about, a grown married man (who keeps coming to my house to see me and i used to work with him as well in carework; and he called me up one time cos he wanted to have a chat- don't ask..?, a girl i went to school with in africa and another girl whom i met out of a group of other girls and is basically the only one who keeps in touch. There was a rift between her and the other girls and basically all this bitchiness came up and they turned against her and now they don't talk anymore and they also don't talk to me anymore don't know why but not surprised tbh..most girls r bitchy anyway..had many experiences with bitchy girls which is why i end up meeting annoying guy friends who want to get into my knickers although i keep telling them am not interested- oh god why??? LOL! )
HOW CAN I KEEP THEM AWAY????? :'( (cries)
Also all the other people were too full of themselves during my time at uni ..the people that i wasted my credit calling and sending messages to weren't as bothered to retaliate or even come and visit me but the people i cared less about were those i got stuck with, either cos they had no friends or in the case of a guy had a crush on me etc..Most of the other bitchy girls just hang round with their other friends...
I wana know why 90% of people i attract to myself and choose to become friends with me actually piss me off, but those i wanna be friends with and chill out with don't care..
ALSO AM SURE MANY LADIES WOULD RELATE TO THIS -WHY IS IT THAT THE GUY THAT YOU DO LIKE AND FIND ATTRACTIVE TURNS OUT TO BE THE BIGGEST ASSH*LE, DOUCHEBAG, JERK ETC AND USES YOU AND DUMPS YOU TO GO BACK TO HIS EX ETC , BUT THE GUY U FIND UNATTRACTIVE ETC OR IS WITH COS YOU FEEL SORRY FOR ETC IS THE ONE THAT SEEMS TO CARE OR TELL YOU THEY LOVE YOU..??? HMMM
CAN SOMEONE PLEASE EXPLAIN THIS TO ME AND TELL ME IF IT'S A LAW OF ATTRACTION/ PHYSICS OR JUST SOME WEIRD CURSE THING??
The people who seem to care about you and would do anything for you (such as family, random strangers, kind people etc) you take for granted and sometimes don't even bother to say thanks to??
As a satanist and also a person I'm very kind and most people tell me am lovely etc and also attractive
(am not bragging but I've been told this)
I unfortunately seem to draw all sorts of people to myself (including psy vamps, fake people, annoying people who are nice but still annoying and irritating guys (old, ugly, young, unwanted etc) I do attract some unwanted attention for e.g. random people come up to me to talk to me and want to be friends but then about 90% when you finally get to know them you realize they were just trying to get into your pants- the guys and most of the girls just turn out to be fake or bitchy or not true friends..
Well the point am getting at is that am genuine and 100% what you see is what you get. Everytime i go through life there's people that come and go, some without warning; others well you kind of got the hint afterwards when they started ignoring you and not replying your messages on bbm or the phone or not talking to you online although you're on their friends list and simply too busy in their lives and other friends to even remember you or care.
Well the thing is sometimes am too polite and take guys' numbers esp guys who have done something for me like walk me home or given me a lift etc but then they call and call and finally when i've had enough i just tell them to stop or when i get mad i tell them to piss off ( its mostly a particular race of guys but am not gonna mention it here.) Ok it was a kind gesture but does that mean you have to call a 100 times??? It's like they've walked you home and now they want a date from you etc although you're clearly not interested and told them loads of times.
And also i made friends with this girl at uni mainly cos i felt kinda sorry for her. It just happened..we sat together in lectures next to each other when i was late. She was really different and looked like a guy and dressed like a guy but she was very nerdy and tomboyish and she was also gay (i didn't know this till later on) but i just didn't enjoy the friendship that much cos she was also boring so why did i stay??
At the moment the only good friends i have in the uk and am aware of are a gay guy living in the north, the tomboy i just told you about, a grown married man (who keeps coming to my house to see me and i used to work with him as well in carework; and he called me up one time cos he wanted to have a chat- don't ask..?, a girl i went to school with in africa and another girl whom i met out of a group of other girls and is basically the only one who keeps in touch. There was a rift between her and the other girls and basically all this bitchiness came up and they turned against her and now they don't talk anymore and they also don't talk to me anymore don't know why but not surprised tbh..most girls r bitchy anyway..had many experiences with bitchy girls which is why i end up meeting annoying guy friends who want to get into my knickers although i keep telling them am not interested- oh god why??? LOL! )
HOW CAN I KEEP THEM AWAY????? :'( (cries)
Also all the other people were too full of themselves during my time at uni ..the people that i wasted my credit calling and sending messages to weren't as bothered to retaliate or even come and visit me but the people i cared less about were those i got stuck with, either cos they had no friends or in the case of a guy had a crush on me etc..Most of the other bitchy girls just hang round with their other friends...
I wana know why 90% of people i attract to myself and choose to become friends with me actually piss me off, but those i wanna be friends with and chill out with don't care..
ALSO AM SURE MANY LADIES WOULD RELATE TO THIS -WHY IS IT THAT THE GUY THAT YOU DO LIKE AND FIND ATTRACTIVE TURNS OUT TO BE THE BIGGEST ASSH*LE, DOUCHEBAG, JERK ETC AND USES YOU AND DUMPS YOU TO GO BACK TO HIS EX ETC , BUT THE GUY U FIND UNATTRACTIVE ETC OR IS WITH COS YOU FEEL SORRY FOR ETC IS THE ONE THAT SEEMS TO CARE OR TELL YOU THEY LOVE YOU..??? HMMM
CAN SOMEONE PLEASE EXPLAIN THIS TO ME AND TELL ME IF IT'S A LAW OF ATTRACTION/ PHYSICS OR JUST SOME WEIRD CURSE THING??
