I lack desire in my life. I have always been this way even though I never came from a strong RHP background. But all my life, I've never been strongly motivated and passionate about anything. My spare time is largely filled with momentary pleasures, playing a game, sex, food etc. I've never had a strong longing or goal to fulfill. Even as a child my dreams came and went with no real intensity. When it comes to power meditations I find myself stopping and starting a lot.
I don't know the reason for it but it seems as though there isn't many things in life which truly excite or inspire me and I feel as though because of it I don't know what to do with myself and that I am going nowhere. I am still quite young.
If anyone has any advice to offer please do, it would be most appreciated.
HAIL SATAN!!

