Keep being drawn to Malphas? A little help?

[B1992]

I'm not a satanist. I used to dabble in it as a kid and used to frequent the Jos website and Yahoo forums. But I'm a young adult now and not involved in that anymore. When I was young I did it to rebel and because I thought it was cool. I never even really heard of or knew who Malphas was. But I keep running into, posts about him, mention of his name online, etc. I looked him up on jos to see if he was a real demon. I at first misspelled his name but came upon him. At first I thought it was spelled malphos or something similar to that I've forgotten now. But anyway. Ever since then I keep thinking of him I'm still not sure who he is or much about him. And I truly don't know why I keep feeling a, need to find out. And strong feeling of being drawn in.
I'm a little afraid. Please don't be mad at me about my ignorance but I'm not a satanist so this is weird and different and I'm a bit unsure. This is why I'm posting. I don't know what to do? .. You guys are Satanists so any advice will be appreciated .

 

[B1992]

Well hopefully me being drawn in was by something wishing me well and not entities trying to decive me, like you mentioned. But I'll research and read into things via J.o.s website.
And see where it leads. I guess I felt lost.. I didn't know what to do but that gives me insight. It's weird feeling strongly drawn in.. I wasn't even doing anything a long the lines of Satanism or reading about it or thinking about it. Just one day I was watching TV and the name malphas popped up in my head, so I decided to look up and research about it. And then soon after as I said I kept coming across things related to him And it all led me here.

 

[darkmonkey666]

Well hopefully me being drawn in was by something wishing me well and not entities trying to decive me, like you mentioned. But I'll research and read into things via J.o.s website.
And see where it leads. I guess I felt lost.. I didn't know what to do but that gives me insight. It's weird feeling strongly drawn in.. I wasn't even doing anything a long the lines of Satanism or reading about it or thinking about it. Just one day I was watching TV and the name malphas popped up in my head, so I decided to look up and research about it. And then soon after as I said I kept coming across things related to him And it all led me here.

Sometimes we have had relationships with the Gods in past lives or one or them was our Gaurdian. Also sometimes the Gods like someone and see they have potential and want them here that is probably how a lot of us found this site actually. So I don't think it was someone deciving you if it resulted in you being here and interested in the Jos site. It may actually be Malphas.

But I wouldn't worry too much they will never pressure you or try to force anything on you. Only dedicate when or if you are ready too if you feel this is the path for you but it's your choice you don't have to do anything. Also it is not something that is just done out of rebellion it is a serious path. I think doing research though will do you good. Maybe meditation a little if you want to try it but don't do the Ritual or spiritual warfare or call upon the Demons if you are not going to dedicate and just want to dabble or try it out that is what the above poster meant. That is what can lead to decieving entities coming in or really bad attacks however I don't think your decieved here or that you were doing that so no worries.

Good luck.