Well, as i said before I am keeping a journal of my experiences and am going to share them on here, so here it is.
6/20/2010
Last night, around nine or ten, I walked out of my room and into the kitchen to grab a water and something to eat, as I walked out i shut the door. as i was walking back suddenly the door opened, i paused, i thought to myself that i closed the door, and if i didnt the breeze from the AC would have shut the door rather than open it more. I stood there and I began to feel cold although it is summer. I eventually walked over but the closer i got, the colder and darker it got. thats when i became frightened, so i said to myself "I am strong with father and you cannot take that away" repeadedly and then i started to hear whispers and i couldnt make out what they were saying, i belive one of them said "go". I have always heard someone in my head before making a decision, eventually i began to i was skitzophrenic but that soon passed. They always tell me to do something a different way, sometimes i listen and sometimes i don't beause I am not sure who it is. The things the voices say are usually to make the "harder" decision, in other words "don't do it the easy way, do it the hard way". I could never make out whether they are friendly or not.
Every night when i went to bed i would always feel a cold, chilling breeze blowing in my face. It was not the AC becuase it was not constant, it was as if it were someones breath. Every time I would look away from where i felt it, it seemed to get more rapid. Some nights I just ignored it (probably because i was too tired to pay attention to it) but one night, there was more of them. From what i remember there was breath coming from the usual spot (my bedside) and the other, right above me. that night I also say shadows and heard noises that i couldnt make out. I have always felt that there was someone watching me, wether it be a gaurdian spirit or just some strange entity stalking me. This "breathing" eventually stopped when I starded doing more frequent meditation.
Today has been so far normal, which is a good thing. last night i cleaned my aura and did so this morning, I'm going to start doing them before i go to bed, and when i wake up in the morining. I thank the JOS website for all the information they have provided me with. I belive that cleansing my aura has helped me in some way, today has so far been the first day i have gone without any strange activity going on. I must be going now, there is a bad storm out side and i don't want the power to go out then me have to retype this whole entry.
6/20/2010
Last night, around nine or ten, I walked out of my room and into the kitchen to grab a water and something to eat, as I walked out i shut the door. as i was walking back suddenly the door opened, i paused, i thought to myself that i closed the door, and if i didnt the breeze from the AC would have shut the door rather than open it more. I stood there and I began to feel cold although it is summer. I eventually walked over but the closer i got, the colder and darker it got. thats when i became frightened, so i said to myself "I am strong with father and you cannot take that away" repeadedly and then i started to hear whispers and i couldnt make out what they were saying, i belive one of them said "go". I have always heard someone in my head before making a decision, eventually i began to i was skitzophrenic but that soon passed. They always tell me to do something a different way, sometimes i listen and sometimes i don't beause I am not sure who it is. The things the voices say are usually to make the "harder" decision, in other words "don't do it the easy way, do it the hard way". I could never make out whether they are friendly or not.
Every night when i went to bed i would always feel a cold, chilling breeze blowing in my face. It was not the AC becuase it was not constant, it was as if it were someones breath. Every time I would look away from where i felt it, it seemed to get more rapid. Some nights I just ignored it (probably because i was too tired to pay attention to it) but one night, there was more of them. From what i remember there was breath coming from the usual spot (my bedside) and the other, right above me. that night I also say shadows and heard noises that i couldnt make out. I have always felt that there was someone watching me, wether it be a gaurdian spirit or just some strange entity stalking me. This "breathing" eventually stopped when I starded doing more frequent meditation.
Today has been so far normal, which is a good thing. last night i cleaned my aura and did so this morning, I'm going to start doing them before i go to bed, and when i wake up in the morining. I thank the JOS website for all the information they have provided me with. I belive that cleansing my aura has helped me in some way, today has so far been the first day i have gone without any strange activity going on. I must be going now, there is a bad storm out side and i don't want the power to go out then me have to retype this whole entry.
