ktrv
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- Sep 3, 2023
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So i joined about almost two years ago and did the dedication ritual.
I will give a short backstory so you could understand the situation better.
Two years ago, I was in the worst place I could’ve been(I was a very big xrist follower)
I was looking for ways to sell my soul.On some random fake “magick spells” website i found about JOS and decided to give it a try so i could “get famous and rich fast” and did the dedication ritual as didn’t read a lot in the site just some things. After sometime reading, I understood that there is no such thing as “selling my soul” and i wanted to quit being a Satanist so i could find another way to “get rich fast”,but in the other hand i felt different and wanted to stay. Finally, I decided to stay and embrace Lord Satan as my Father and God so but always felt guilty as i joined him for the wrong resons.I tried some rituals in the JOS and felt the presence of something while doing it.I was scared very much as my whole life i was told that Satan “is scary” Demons “are bad”and etc.Also before i joined i had two encounters with at the time I thought were Demons who while in half sleep woke me up with either screams or voices(i’m getting goosebumps while writing this)and at the time i used xian prayer and they stoped the first time but the second time was different as before that night when i was “attacked” i contacted a witch of some kind and for a Love spell she asked me for my Name and date of Birth.That night i heard voices and i know i wasn’t dreaming as while the voices where talking in my head i was looking at my phone to confirm i wasn’t dreaming. After I joined Satan i never had any problems or anything similar(as i was dedicated and was protected even if i didin’t know that at the time) The first year being a Satanist went with no progress as i was lazy still fighting with my self about what i truly want.But then one night before going to sleep i asked Satan to give me a sign and woke up in the middle of the night and seen in the air like when there is a fire and the air is moving and just heard some kind of a laugh i was happy and went back to sleep.
Long story short i started to work more and be a better SS member.
but still to this day, I feel bad about the reason I joined and lord Satan did so much for me i would cry right know when i think about the him and what he did for me.
I’m sorry if the story is long as it is important to me.
If you know to explain some parts of the story, why did it happen? Feel free to do it as it is much appreciated.
To all my Brothers and Sisters HAIL SATAN!
I will give a short backstory so you could understand the situation better.
Two years ago, I was in the worst place I could’ve been(I was a very big xrist follower)
I was looking for ways to sell my soul.On some random fake “magick spells” website i found about JOS and decided to give it a try so i could “get famous and rich fast” and did the dedication ritual as didn’t read a lot in the site just some things. After sometime reading, I understood that there is no such thing as “selling my soul” and i wanted to quit being a Satanist so i could find another way to “get rich fast”,but in the other hand i felt different and wanted to stay. Finally, I decided to stay and embrace Lord Satan as my Father and God so but always felt guilty as i joined him for the wrong resons.I tried some rituals in the JOS and felt the presence of something while doing it.I was scared very much as my whole life i was told that Satan “is scary” Demons “are bad”and etc.Also before i joined i had two encounters with at the time I thought were Demons who while in half sleep woke me up with either screams or voices(i’m getting goosebumps while writing this)and at the time i used xian prayer and they stoped the first time but the second time was different as before that night when i was “attacked” i contacted a witch of some kind and for a Love spell she asked me for my Name and date of Birth.That night i heard voices and i know i wasn’t dreaming as while the voices where talking in my head i was looking at my phone to confirm i wasn’t dreaming. After I joined Satan i never had any problems or anything similar(as i was dedicated and was protected even if i didin’t know that at the time) The first year being a Satanist went with no progress as i was lazy still fighting with my self about what i truly want.But then one night before going to sleep i asked Satan to give me a sign and woke up in the middle of the night and seen in the air like when there is a fire and the air is moving and just heard some kind of a laugh i was happy and went back to sleep.
Long story short i started to work more and be a better SS member.
but still to this day, I feel bad about the reason I joined and lord Satan did so much for me i would cry right know when i think about the him and what he did for me.
I’m sorry if the story is long as it is important to me.
If you know to explain some parts of the story, why did it happen? Feel free to do it as it is much appreciated.
To all my Brothers and Sisters HAIL SATAN!