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Is this even possible? Does it even make sense?

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I'm a bit confused about something, it's some days now that I feel different. I always knew that I'm gay and I accepted it a long time ago, the problem know is that I feel attraction with girls too :shock: It's so weird I do not know how this is possible, I have to say that I never had sex, in general, let alone with a girl and I'm not a teen, I'm on my twenties, so I honestly do not know how this is possible any idea? Is it because of cleaning? This is so weird...

#20
luissaid:
Darksage666said:

while it’s possible that you are bi sexual, this might just be coming from your lack of sex. Other members on here have stated that they have thought about the same thing when they weren’t getting any sex but when they started doing it, they knew who they were attracted to. but bi sexual is a thing.

you probably just need to get laid. do a working for it

I think you are 100% right with this. I noticed the same these days. I just feel horny too much every day even if I masturbate and I think i just need sex to not feel this way. After this quarantine, I'll do a working.

Aldricksaid:
luissaid:

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i’ve had success there with mars square. used it to attract a sex partner it worked. Give it a go with the mars square or the runes.

#21
Ghost in the Machinesaid:
luissaid:

I do like clean-shaved pretty face types of guys too and I do like muscular bodies as much as more "skinnier" bodies (I don't mean really skinny just not super muscular and more round). I do like even a very muscular guy but I just prefer a bit more "pretty" guys.

Sounds like I'm your man. Just don't quite got those abs yet...

Teasing (with no chance, sorry) aside, I've been curious about something and wondered if you shared the same viewpoint out of curiousity, because I don't know of any other opportunity to ask this.

Honestly, the similar attracts each other seems the most normal thing to me, now I don't mean this just on a physical level but more on a mental level. If we like and do almost the same things then, of course, we will be more interested in each other, I honestly don't think we could have a good relationship we someone if we are 100% different.

I'm not clean shaved, I do look younger than my age (and everyone always points it out) but I have quite some hairs on my body lol I do shave tho u.u :lol:
So technically I'm not that similar to what i want :lol: but almost lol

#22
luissaid:
Ghost in the Machinesaid:

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Honestly, the similar attracts each other seems the most normal thing to me, now I don't mean this just on a physical level but more on a mental level. If we like and do almost the same things then, of course, we will be more interested in each other, I honestly don't think we could have a good relationship we someone if we are 100% different.

I'm not clean shaved, I do look younger than my age (and everyone always points it out) but I have quite some hairs on my body lol I do shave tho u.u :lol:
So technically I'm not that similar to what i want :lol: but almost lol

I'm glad I'm not the only one who thinks this. Though I stress in 'similarities' not exactness, I obviously wouldn't marry a clone of myself either in looks or in personality, that just feels wrong even in concept... not sure why though, maybe it's the whole avoidance and repulsion of things like incest, being way too exact in ourselves could imply a blood relation, of which we obviously by nature avoid. I think that's definitely why.

I also notice that my ideal partners are usually just a tad more 'dominant' than me, in that they share my sternness and such but maybe just express it a bit more, being a switch though means it doesn't entirely matter in the long-run. Some sort of grounded factor I think, so I don't want a partner exactly like me of course, but again it's just that 'likeness' factor. And hah, I shave body hair too occasionally, just can't be bothered for the most part, it's usually only when I start looking like a werewolf. Don't like having facial hair on myself either, though I seem at odds with it sometimes. Nothing wrong with it.

#23
Ghost in the Machinesaid:
luissaid:
Ghost in the Machinesaid:

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Honestly, the similar attracts each other seems the most normal thing to me, now I don't mean this just on a physical level but more on a mental level. If we like and do almost the same things then, of course, we will be more interested in each other, I honestly don't think we could have a good relationship we someone if we are 100% different.

I'm not clean shaved, I do look younger than my age (and everyone always points it out) but I have quite some hairs on my body lol I do shave tho u.u :lol:
So technically I'm not that similar to what i want :lol: but almost lol

I'm glad I'm not the only one who thinks this. Though I stress in 'similarities' not exactness, I obviously wouldn't marry a clone of myself either in looks or in personality, that just feels wrong even in concept... not sure why though, maybe it's the whole avoidance and repulsion of things like incest, being way too exact in ourselves could imply a blood relation, of which we obviously by nature avoid. I think that's definitely why.

I also notice that my ideal partners are usually just a tad more 'dominant' than me, in that they share my sternness and such but maybe just express it a bit more, being a switch though means it doesn't entirely matter in the long-run. Some sort of grounded factor I think, so I don't want a partner exactly like me of course, but again it's just that 'likeness' factor. And hah, I shave body hair too occasionally, just can't be bothered for the most part, it's usually only when I start looking like a werewolf. Don't like having facial hair on myself either, though I seem at odds with it sometimes. Nothing wrong with it.

I agree, not exactly a copy that would be weird. I feel like couples where they just have little in common they just don't work out in the long run.
The hair thing, I just don't like too much but it's not a turn-off or anything but if I had to choose I would definitely like a pretty guy and not with a lot of hair, even with a beard is fine but not too much. I do still like other types of guys I just prefer this type bit more. On me, I have almost too much especially on the legs and I wish i had less lol

Darksage666said:
luissaid:
Darksage666said:

while it’s possible that you are bi sexual, this might just be coming from your lack of sex. Other members on here have stated that they have thought about the same thing when they weren’t getting any sex but when they started doing it, they knew who they were attracted to. but bi sexual is a thing.

you probably just need to get laid. do a working for it

I think you are 100% right with this. I noticed the same these days. I just feel horny too much every day even if I masturbate and I think i just need sex to not feel this way. After this quarantine, I'll do a working.

Aldricksaid:

i’ve had success there with mars square. used it to attract a sex partner it worked. Give it a go with the mars square or the runes.

I'll definitely try it.

#24
Ghost in the Machinesaid:
luissaid:

Ok if anyone is worried I do not feel "attraction" on girls anymore. I honestly don't know what the heck happened to me these days. Maybe some weird hung-ups going away? It was like I was attracted more but then not really and right now I don't feel anything, I honestly don't understand lol

This is a drawing to the feminine aspect in manifestation of the desire to 'merge' with it in the spiritual and emotional sense, it's not a hang-up nor is it a bad thing, it's actually quite positive. I am also homosexual, have been all my life for as long as I can remember and wouldn't think to ever be attracted to girls.

However whenever I'm in tune with the female aspect of spirituality, either I'm focusing on it, working with energies related to it or working with my upper feminine chakras, etc, I'll feel very distinctly drawn to the female form, their characteristics, their feminine qualities and interests, etc. This often goes straight to the desire of even wanting to have sex with a female instead of a male.

I’m a straight female and this has happened with attraction to women for me during meditations and invocations. I’ve been truly attracted to about two girls ever, so maybe I’m bisexual, but not really. It’s not the same as with males either, it’s weaker and just different in general. I don’t drool over them or REALLY want to go crazy.

#25
Sundarasaid:
Ghost in the Machinesaid:
luissaid:

Ok if anyone is worried I do not feel "attraction" on girls anymore. I honestly don't know what the heck happened to me these days. Maybe some weird hung-ups going away? It was like I was attracted more but then not really and right now I don't feel anything, I honestly don't understand lol

This is a drawing to the feminine aspect in manifestation of the desire to 'merge' with it in the spiritual and emotional sense, it's not a hang-up nor is it a bad thing, it's actually quite positive. I am also homosexual, have been all my life for as long as I can remember and wouldn't think to ever be attracted to girls.

However whenever I'm in tune with the female aspect of spirituality, either I'm focusing on it, working with energies related to it or working with my upper feminine chakras, etc, I'll feel very distinctly drawn to the female form, their characteristics, their feminine qualities and interests, etc. This often goes straight to the desire of even wanting to have sex with a female instead of a male.

I’m a straight female and this has happened with attraction to women for me during meditations and invocations. I’ve been truly attracted to about two girls ever, so maybe I’m bisexual, but not really. It’s not the same as with males either, it’s weaker and just different in general. I don’t drool over them or REALLY want to go crazy.

This is a weird thing, maybe it has to do with cleaning some dross of our souls, who knows. For me not having sex does play a huge role in this. Having sex is important, in a normal world we would have prostitutes even for gays.

#26
luissaid:
Sundarasaid:
Ghost in the Machinesaid:

This is a drawing to the feminine aspect in manifestation of the desire to 'merge' with it in the spiritual and emotional sense, it's not a hang-up nor is it a bad thing, it's actually quite positive. I am also homosexual, have been all my life for as long as I can remember and wouldn't think to ever be attracted to girls.

However whenever I'm in tune with the female aspect of spirituality, either I'm focusing on it, working with energies related to it or working with my upper feminine chakras, etc, I'll feel very distinctly drawn to the female form, their characteristics, their feminine qualities and interests, etc. This often goes straight to the desire of even wanting to have sex with a female instead of a male.

It is by no means the same kind of attraction as the one we have for the same sex though, it's just a drawing to the feminine side of the soul, feminine energies and just general feminine forms of nature of which we're seeking to merge with via a spiritual/emotional connection with woman despite our sexual orientation. It's the urge of the 'two halves make a whole' shindig and this can happen with lesbians too who tune into the male side of spirituality and masculine aspects.

I’m a straight female and this has happened with attraction to women for me during meditations and invocations. I’ve been truly attracted to about two girls ever, so maybe I’m bisexual, but not really. It’s not the same as with males either, it’s weaker and just different in general. I don’t drool over them or REALLY want to go crazy.

This is a weird thing, maybe it has to do with cleaning some dross of our souls, who knows. For me not having sex does play a huge role in this. Having sex is important, in a normal world we would have prostitutes even for gays.

Yep sex is definitely important, when I experienced this I wasn’t going through a complete dry spell but there were some issues in the relationship I had. Oh well. Who cares I guess, sometimes I wish I were more attracted to girls even. Sometimes not.

#27
luissaid:
Sundarasaid:
Ghost in the Machinesaid:

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I’m a straight female and this has happened with attraction to women for me during meditations and invocations. I’ve been truly attracted to about two girls ever, so maybe I’m bisexual, but not really. It’s not the same as with males either, it’s weaker and just different in general. I don’t drool over them or REALLY want to go crazy.

This is a weird thing, maybe it has to do with cleaning some dross of our souls, who knows. For me not having sex does play a huge role in this. Having sex is important, in a normal world we would have prostitutes even for gays.

In my experience when this happens to me, I usually find I'm lacking in feminine energies. When our souls are lacking something it needs (or at least this is how it is for me) it will 'crave' it like a hunger or thirst and you may subconsciously seek to obtain it in some form or other.

Suddenly desiring females or a closeness with woman (or men for lesbians) could be a craving from that 'hunger' to get what we need, to attain that connection, that 'consumption' of that energy that we're lacking in.

When it comes to this merging of the female and male spiritual aspects of which is one of our spiritual goals in advancement, then deep down we're all a little bisexual. Why not try an experiment and I can prove this to you...

Take it seriously and focus on the gender aspect you deem yourself not attracted to. So the female aspect for gays and the male aspect for lesbians. Really feel, take in, focus and tune your attention to that spiritual gender aspect of the universe and our souls. Focus on it's characteristics, think about and tune into things guys stereotypically like or things girls stereotypically like, feel this resonate as the spiritual aspect, traits and characteristics of that gender. Focus on the upper chakras and their indigo beauty for the female aspect, or focus on the lower chakras and their red fiery forcefulness of the male aspect.

Do this for several minutes, really take it in, and you will start to find a strange interest/attraction to that gender even though it's not of your sexual preference, trust me. It has to do with spiritual connection and finding balance with the two aspects.

#28
luissaid:

I'm a bit confused about something, it's some days now that I feel different. I always knew that I'm gay and I accepted it a long time ago, the problem know is that I feel attraction with girls too :shock: It's so weird I do not know how this is possible, I have to say that I never had sex, in general, let alone with a girl and I'm not a teen, I'm on my twenties, so I honestly do not know how this is possible any idea? Is it because of cleaning? This is so weird...

It's basically natural to be a man and wanting girls. No need to get deeply psychological here. Wanting girls is the obvious and natural, especially so as girls have to do with procreation.

If you had some experiences maybe this would help you feel better as the mind on it's own can make constant loops.

#29

On this topic I've felt something like this for awhile too, though more recently stronger than before. I don't entirely know where I stand, other than I'm attracted to femininity. This could all tie into the heart and collective soul of Humanity too, as we free ourselves and Humanity everyone benefits and the bindings are cast off.

And as a Heterosexual man it really feels weird, even though I've always had a hint of attraction to men. And this isn't taking into account recent revelations I've had about myself and why I am the way I am.

But off topic of this slightly, it is also telling in a way to see a number of us (vocal) Zevists are either bisexual or homosexual. This of course tying into the idea of the 3rd sex being the guardians of Humanity.

#30
HP. Zevios Metathronossaid:
luissaid:

I'm a bit confused about something, it's some days now that I feel different. I always knew that I'm gay and I accepted it a long time ago, the problem know is that I feel attraction with girls too :shock: It's so weird I do not know how this is possible, I have to say that I never had sex, in general, let alone with a girl and I'm not a teen, I'm on my twenties, so I honestly do not know how this is possible any idea? Is it because of cleaning? This is so weird...

It's basically natural to be a man and wanting girls. No need to get deeply psychological here. Wanting girls is the obvious and natural, especially so as girls have to do with procreation.

If you had some experiences maybe this would help you feel better as the mind on it's own can make constant loops.

Well this happened for a few days where i thought i liked girls, as of right now i don't feel anything. I honestly feel like it's because i don't have sex. Do we need to have sex? I almost feel like I'm too horny all the time and no matter how much i masturbate it doesn't stop. It's kinda annoying.

#31
This is the targeted message.
luissaid:

Well this happened for a few days where i thought i liked girls, as of right now i don't feel anything. I honestly feel like it's because i don't have sex. Do we need to have sex? I almost feel like I'm too horny all the time and no matter how much i masturbate it doesn't stop. It's kinda annoying.

In short yes we emotionally and spiritually desire a sexual connection through real sex with real partners but this probably doesn't account for every individual.

On the matter of libido, our second/sacral chakra is the chakra that makes us feel aroused. When it is stimulated with energy this is what prompts the 'horniness'. When you climax and the energy in the sacral chakra is not fully released, it stays in the chakra and keeps it stimulated, so you'll feel aroused again soon after because there's still lots of energy in the sacral chakra and you didn't release all of it. So you kind of end up in a semi-aroused state perpetually.

What you can do either upon climax or just casually at any time is you can move this energy from the sacral chakra to empower a different chakra, preferably all the way up to your 6th chakra and place the energy there. Just focus intensely on the sacral chakra and draw the energy upwards to your 6th chakra, in my experience you'll generally want to gather all of the sexual energy that may potentially settle at the base chakra as well, so just all of the sexual energy in your lower chakras below the solar chakra.

I too naturally have a very high libido and it used to distract me from my meditations until I got some guidance from Satan after asking him for help, of which was then clarified further by Stormblood in a thread I made. I was able to edge myself to climax but before climax I forcefully moved all of the sexual energy up to my 6th chakra, and the entire urge was gone completely. I didn't even achieve climax and was able to stop entirely without any further arousal or even the need to finish, it was just done and gone.

You should try this yourself, it will help.

#32
HP. Zevios Metathronossaid:
luissaid:

I'm a bit confused about something, it's some days now that I feel different. I always knew that I'm gay and I accepted it a long time ago, the problem know is that I feel attraction with girls too :shock: It's so weird I do not know how this is possible, I have to say that I never had sex, in general, let alone with a girl and I'm not a teen, I'm on my twenties, so I honestly do not know how this is possible any idea? Is it because of cleaning? This is so weird...

It's basically natural to be a man and wanting girls. No need to get deeply psychological here. Wanting girls is the obvious and natural, especially so as girls have to do with procreation.

If you had some experiences maybe this would help you feel better as the mind on it's own can make constant loops.

you mean I as a man whos gay as far as I can tell but not immediately aroused by nude bodies can get aroused by woman :mrgreen: :mrgreen: