Is this community a safe place for me?

[Memorie_BE]

Hello, my name is Melodie. And I have 2 questions, both relating to the title of this post.

My first question is: Is this community a safe place for me as a skeptic?
Basically, I have been question what I have been told my entire life and love exploring ideas that most people find ridiculous and/or impossible. I believe everything that doesn't completely interfere with the basics of what we know (gravity, bacteria, science) are entirely possible since they are considered unfalsifiable and only validated more by the idea's existence, though I don't strafe too far into the skepticism rabbit hole, challenging our existence completely, as I know that can drive you to insanity (Rene Descartes had the same idea). Because of this philosophy of mine, I set myself to understand as many different occultists and religions as I know that the majority of them are strong contenders of what is true. I explore theistic Satanism, Wicca, Greek mythology, Norse mythology and other Pagan religions (I try to stay away from certain monotheistic religions, however, as I know how much people like to rewrite their history and that they're usually infested with not the greatest people). So, I'm wondering if this is a safe place to explore and understand. I am in no way trying to mediate, I am only here to understand, and I believe that that is one of my sole purposes in this life.

My second question is: Is this community a safe place for me as a trans girl?
I first want to make this clear; I know for an absolute fact that I am trans and have known for around 3 years (give or take). I have experimented in many ways trying to be comfortable with myself for a very long time and always having that same ill feeling with no eval. I honestly wish I could re-roll the dice as, well, being trans kinda blows. So yeah, just wanted to make it clear that this is something I've known and challenged for a while and know that this is the only path where I can be truly happy and comfortable with myself, so I don't really want to see anyone say that I'll regret it or something because I know for a fact that I wont. Finishing my tangent there, I just want to know if this is a safe place for me to ask questions and understand everything here without feeling uncomfortable and nervous about how people perceive me. I know that it's inevitable that there will be people here that will make me uncomfortable, but I just want to know if I can just learn and vibe here as a girl.

That's all really. Thank you ^^

 

[Serbon]

Maybe Brother Meteor would help you, since he has realized this and getting rid of it.

Meteor is biologically a female

 

[Megistomedes]

Maybe Brother Meteor would help you, since he has realized this and getting rid of it.

Meteor is biologically a female

He was speaking about he has penis and why he wanted to be woman is because some woman from his past lives got murdered and he wanted to make her live inside himself by casting some transformational spell or something like this as far as I remember.


Maybe you can help this brother. Whether you are biologically male or not, you can show some guidance I think.

 

[RockSeed13]

Maybe Brother Meteor would help you, since he has realized this and getting rid of it.

Meteor is biologically a female

Technically she has an XXY chromosome, she has klinefelter syndrome.

 

[Serbon]

Maybe Brother Meteor would help you, since he has realized this and getting rid of it.

Meteor is biologically a female

He was speaking about he has penis and why he wanted to be woman is because some woman from his past lives got murdered and he wanted to make her live inside himself by casting some transformational spell or something like this as far as I remember.


Maybe you can help this brother. Whether you are biologically male or not, you can show some guidance I think.

Didn't Meteor say that he/she felt that he/she "grew a dick astrally"

 

[Megistomedes]

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I'll help the two of you out with your misunderstandings.

I know I look like a woman and all, but I was born mostly male. I even still have a dick for now, although it doesn't exactly act like one.
I may have two X chromosomes, but I also have a Y chromosome, and when it comes down to it, that's the determining factor.

Thanks to 2 years of meditation, I was able to overcome my feelings of shame about my body and mind alike. But that doesn't mean I don't still prefer the female role I've assumed in regards to other people for the past 6 years. I look forward to officially becoming my fiancé's wife, and I have not the slightest bit of interest in detransitioning. Even if I did, my friends would totally freak out about it: it's becoming increasingly obvious how much they hate transgender people, although I don't mind since they don't see me that way.

In fact, I still intend to have surgery, most likely next year; it depends on how the waiting list progresses. If anything, getting over my shame about my genitalia and experimenting with it made it possible for me to go through with it without any regrets. I was able to experience things that most men and women never will, and that's a memory I'll cherish forever. However, whether I like my genitalia or not is ultimately a separate topic from my decision to have surgery. There have always been many reasons for it besides the negative feelings which I've resolved with meditation. People don't need to understand that for the outcome to be the way it will.

I've decided not to report about it in the future either, as it's nobody's business. The Gods won't tell you either since it's private.

Since people just want to believe that what they know is the truth, I'll tell a joke. You know how some people prefer imitation meat? Because it contains less cholesterol, and you don't have to kill animals to make it. You can think of me as something along those lines.

Of course, in the end, I don't feel like an imitation woman. As if I'd care anymore about irrelevant things like that. It should be obvious what the result of my actions is; the result of the sheer amount of energy that built up. People can avert their eyes if they want, but what I meddled with is not something light. It's not like everything is my fault, but a lot of what happened is the consequences of my own actions. And those consequences are real. How do I put it? People change, and I've been changing since before I was born.

It's not as if people's beliefs about me define what I am, because I have a physical body. I'll be sure to treasure it, even if it changes.

But I'm glad I meditated about it. Many of the issues I'd blamed on my body turned out to be solvable just by changing my mindset.

Okay, sorry. I haven't read full of your discussion with others, just a part of it. Sorry if I said something offending.

 

[Memorie_BE]

Alright, so what I'm getting at is that this place is completely neutral and that that aspect of things don't matter here. That makes sense. I guess that from now on, I should keep this personal part of my life to myself here, as I know that a lot of people here would go against what I believe in about gender identity and dysphoria. I do, however, ask that it's possible for others not to use this post to address me as male, as that would make me very uncomfortable. I think referring to me without a gender for some would be a fair compensation (You can use 'it' with me if you disagree with the term 'they' as singular). Not trying to force ideologies on anyone, just trying to come to a fair compensation.

Anyways, happy to be here. Happy learning.

 

[Aquarius]

Alright, so what I'm getting at is that this place is completely neutral and that that aspect of things don't matter here. That makes sense. I guess that from now on, I should keep this personal part of my life to myself here, as I know that a lot of people here would go against what I believe in about gender identity and dysphoria. I do, however, ask that it's possible for others not to use this post to address me as male, as that would make me very uncomfortable. I think referring to me without a gender for some would be a fair compensation (You can use 'it' with me if you disagree with the term 'they' as singular). Not trying to force ideologies on anyone, just trying to come to a fair compensation.

Anyways, happy to be here. Happy learning.

You're a man, and we are gonna address you as a man. This is a forum of Truth, and by calling you a woman it would go against everything we believe in.

 

[Memorie_BE]

Alright, so what I'm getting at is that this place is completely neutral and that that aspect of things don't matter here. That makes sense. I guess that from now on, I should keep this personal part of my life to myself here, as I know that a lot of people here would go against what I believe in about gender identity and dysphoria. I do, however, ask that it's possible for others not to use this post to address me as male, as that would make me very uncomfortable. I think referring to me without a gender for some would be a fair compensation (You can use 'it' with me if you disagree with the term 'they' as singular). Not trying to force ideologies on anyone, just trying to come to a fair compensation.

Anyways, happy to be here. Happy learning.

You're a man, and we are gonna address you as a man. This is a forum of Truth, and by calling you a woman it would go against everything we believe in.

That's your opinion and I would prefer that you wouldn't push that onto me.

 

[Head Guardian Blitzkreig]

Alright, so what I'm getting at is that this place is completely neutral and that that aspect of things don't matter here. That makes sense. I guess that from now on, I should keep this personal part of my life to myself here, as I know that a lot of people here would go against what I believe in about gender identity and dysphoria. I do, however, ask that it's possible for others not to use this post to address me as male, as that would make me very uncomfortable. I think referring to me without a gender for some would be a fair compensation (You can use 'it' with me if you disagree with the term 'they' as singular). Not trying to force ideologies on anyone, just trying to come to a fair compensation.

Anyways, happy to be here. Happy learning.

Just do not give up on your commitment to advancing your soul. Beyond controversial topics like what should be done about gender dysphoria, there is also controversy elsewhere. For us to realize the truth about any topic, we first need to advance ourselves. In this way, sometimes aggressive debate is counterproductive, as we could be operating under false pretenses.

Another counterproductive manifestation of this debate is that which results in emotional harm and disillusionment. Because JOS is in a unique position here, with no other substitute for Satanism or spiritual growth, if people leave here then they become literally screwed. This may sound arrogant, but in time you will realize the tangible success JOS brings.

Therefore, we have to be careful not to inflict so much emotional harm to someone, as a result of debates or anger, that they don't feel welcome here. On the flip side, we also have to increase our resolve to never leave this path, regardless of what sort of unpleasant experiences come our way.

In regards to any major difficulties you are experiencing, not limited to just gender dysphoria, you should ask the Gods what steps you should take to best advance yourself. They will always support and love you, and they understand who you are and why you may feel certain ways. At the same time, their guidance is golden and always leads to victory, if we apply it seriously.

 

[tabby]

Often we seek the validation, acceptance, and security of others when we are unable to accept ourselves or provide ourselves security. When we feel that way, we feel very vulnerable to be ourselves among others. Feeling safe in a community, one like JoS, is not based on if others like you, but if you like yourself. If you don't, and you seek the approval of others, doesn't matter where you go, you won't feel safe if others can't accept you and that underlying fear will always haunt your thoughts among those that do accept you, wondering if you allow certain traits or quirks out in the open - will you be shunned and outlawed?

No one needs the acceptance of others to gate keep if we are allowed to exist in a place of learning.

JoS is full of people from every corner of the zodiac. This place won't hurt you, even if others might cause you to feel hurt. If you want to feel safe, accept who you are and your unique traits, and avoid relying on others to accept you. You can feel safe anywhere, so long as you accept yourself and can stand proud of who you are.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G_nuV_m_H70

 

[Aquarius]

Alright, so what I'm getting at is that this place is completely neutral and that that aspect of things don't matter here. That makes sense. I guess that from now on, I should keep this personal part of my life to myself here, as I know that a lot of people here would go against what I believe in about gender identity and dysphoria. I do, however, ask that it's possible for others not to use this post to address me as male, as that would make me very uncomfortable. I think referring to me without a gender for some would be a fair compensation (You can use 'it' with me if you disagree with the term 'they' as singular). Not trying to force ideologies on anyone, just trying to come to a fair compensation.

Anyways, happy to be here. Happy learning.

You're a man, and we are gonna address you as a man. This is a forum of Truth, and by calling you a woman it would go against everything we believe in.

That's your opinion and I would prefer that you wouldn't push that onto me.

And is yours a fact or an opinion? You asking to be called a woman when you're a man means you're pushing your opinion too.

 

[Ol argedco luciftias]

It is interesting, or maybe more ridiculous, that somebody would come to a place that is entirely devoted to Truth, and Satan which directly means Truth in Sanskrit, and they try to force everybody to go along with something that is completely and infinitely opposed to any truth.

It really shows what a clown the person is.

 

[Memorie_BE]

Okay, I want to get one thing completely straight.

I'm not forcing anyone to bide by my rules or change their ways, I am only asking for people to respect my boundaries.
Truth is, I have sever anxiety and one of the main things that triggers it is when people call me a man. This conflict alone was enough to make me lie in bed for 12 hours straight for 3 consecutive days, and not in a very healthy way. People tell me to meditate, but meditation is a lot more difficult when people are actively trying to trigger my anxiety when I specifically told them that something makes me uncomfortable. This isn't about what you think is the truth and what you think is right, this is about not doing a very specific thing that damages me mentally. You can reference a dog without saying its colour, you can reference me without saying what you think my sex is. Again, I couldn't care less about what you think of me, but for the love of Satan and all Daemons of Elysium, just respect my boundaries.

TL;DR: Just don't gender me.

 

[Aquarius]

This conflict alone was enough to make me lie in bed for 12 hours straight for 3 consecutive days, and not in a very healthy way.

This is really terrible and you have to grow out of it, because how can you even be part of a society when you're like this? The truth is that hard times are coming ahead, and people like you are the first to perish during cataclisms, but fear not as Satan and thr Gods protect their disciples, you still have to do something about your situation though, because it's more than just fucked up.

 

[Ol argedco luciftias]

I have sever anxiety

This anxiety problem is something that will need to be healed and removed for you to have a comfortable life. This is something that we can help you with. Many people here have had anxiety, and it has been cured in many people before.

I am guessing you have a lot of elemental air energy, and it is difficult to control your thoughts. This is something that can be fixed by using the Akasha/Quintessence to balance your elements. It is also necessary to observe your thoughts and see whenever a negative thought comes up. Then it is possible to remove these thoughts, and force yourself to switch to thinking about something else instead. It will be difficult at first because now you have the habit of having negative thoughts, but if you are careful with this and do this consistently, you will create a new habit of having positive thoughts. It will probably take a couple weeks or maybe around a month to change your habits to positive thoughts. But after this, you will not have the negative thoughts anymore.

This is something that I have personally done. And other people have done the same thing. It does work perfectly well. But it requires to actually do the work and make it happen. And also you should do another working to be accepting of yourself.

 

[Memorie_BE]

This conflict alone was enough to make me lie in bed for 12 hours straight for 3 consecutive days, and not in a very healthy way.

This is really terrible and you have to grow out of it, because how can you even be part of a society when you're like this? The truth is that hard times are coming ahead, and people like you are the first to perish during cataclisms, but fear not as Satan and thr Gods protect their disciples, you still have to do something about your situation though, because it's more than just fucked up.

That's true. I'm trying to grow thicker skin, but that's difficult for me. I'm sure I'll get better with time though.

 

[Head Guardian Blitzkreig]

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You could have accomplished the same goal of your message without graphically describing the death and destruction of this person. This could've been done by stating along the lines of "It is very hard for people to get past all characteristics of their gender. Although people may not say anything to you, they subconsciously will perceive you as still masculine. Because this problem is rooted mentally, any physical solutions will not alleviate your suffering, which may potentially get worse as it remains unaddressed."

Yet, for you to extensively write out a dismal and depressing prophecy is only going to sadden the person, not conjure feelings of actions. Beyond that, I am not even sure if you were trying to be constructive, given your conclusion, yet I am giving you the benefit of the doubt.

This person already described themselves as incredibly sensitive to this topic, and in general, so why did you decide to "go for the kill" so to speak? If you want them to advance past this, then they need to meditate, so that is where they should be encouraged.

I know some people who are incredibly sensitive, and they will take your message very deeply into themselves. Sensitive people do not need to be first "broken" down to hear your message. They are already receptive to what you say, including good or bad things. Therefore, what you wrote here could be incredibly hurtful to its recipient, and not in any "good" way.