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[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], Gus Hinson wrote:
I feel like I should reply to this on behalf of people who were at where this brother/sister was: self-hatred and being unmotivated.
This plagued me in the few months before I chose to follow Satan. It started with acknowledging that I exhibited some of the symptoms of Asperger's Syndrome. This progressed into me feeling completely socially inept, not able to know when people were joking, etc. Eventually I began to hate myself for my own thoughts. I would try to think of something to amuse myself, then feel shameful at how "dumb" it was to me. I gave myself absolutely no chance to do anything, paralyzed by the fear of standing still. I was too weak of heart to do meditations, I felt worthless before the Gods, I wanted to end it all because I thought myself too much of a liability to the Powers of Hell. I could not have been more wrong.
Only a few days after I performed the dedication ritual, I felt alive again. I talked to people instead of being a robot, I smiled and felt happy all the time. And I quickly built charisma as well, something I've always struggled with. People actually wanted to talk to me, my acne cleared up (I'm 15), and I started to enjoy other people's company. My relationships with my family became much better, and the few friends I had actually felt like friends, not just people I'd played video games with a few times.
**The following is only a story I cite because I want to quasi-prove that this is true**
I was very introverted. I rarely talked to anyone, and I was almost always shunned when I tried. But this year (10th grade) was different, because, still a xian, I opened myself up to spirituality. I learned to appreciate nature and human contact and emotions--things I'd always hidden from in favor of video games. Still, I didn't talk to anyone. I was always doing some math problem or reading something instead of socializing. But about halfway through this semester, I began talking to a girl. She turned out to be a senior, and was, in my opinion, very attractive and pretty. We talked for a while, and eventually our conversations slowed down and stopped.Â
My story picks up last night: I spoke to her again at this xian youth "movie night" outreach, which I ignore by sitting in the back room and doodling or playing games. I was playing a game, and she started playing. I taught her the basics of the game, and she picked it up quickly. We would've played it more but the movie started and she left to go watch it.
I thought, since there was a dance coming up, why not ask her? One of her friends told me that she already had a date, but I decided to ask her anyway. I set up an in-game world (Minecraft) to romantically and hilariously invite her to come with me. It took me about an hour to complete. When the movie was over, everyone gathered around at my laptop and watched.Â
Everyone laughed their asses off and she was dazzled--the complete opposite of what I expected, which was for them to dismiss me as an autistic idiot. She was so impressed, in fact, that she promised to go to this year's Prom with me.
**END OF STORY**
The point of this is that I went from being the most socially awkward and clueless to performing a ridiculously charismatic feat. Obviously with how things like this are watered down with how bad the kikes have made society, this doesn't have as much meaning. But it was definitely shocking to me, because I'd been empowering and cleaning my aura regularly for about a week or two. (I'm not trying to claim that I have any legitimate knowledge or wisdom about this, I just feel like my two cents might be worth looking at because the experiences seemed fairly legitimate)
So don't ever feel weak or worthless. Like C Y said, clean and empower your aura of protection. Considering I felt this way until I came under the protection of Satan, it's probably just kike thoughtforms or angels trying to bring you down. This is a powerful ensnarement and I would not be surprised if the enemy began to use this more often. Whenever you begin to feel like this, reject the sadness with all your willpower. Scream "at" it and command it to leave. I find that music, especially pieces that resemble the intensity of Behemoth, help me build a feeling of conviction and power.
'"Give us the flesh!"
"Give us the will!" I command
Dumuzi Lord
godhead immaculate!
Thou art the Sun!
toward the light feel no shame
Ia Asag!
Forever thou shalt remain!'
HAIL SATAN!
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From: C Y
To:
[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Sent: Thursday, January 24, 2013 9:06 PM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Re: Is there a way to destroy a soul?
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Hi, have you been doing your meditations and cleaning your aura? Make sure your aura of protection is up to date [do every day] and also clean it three or more times a day.
By just spamming the link of the JOS website or exposing Christianity you are already helping. Think of creative ways of promoting SS. You are not worthless brother/sister. You can also do a ritual in your astral temple or a little working using runes and affirmation to awaken the gentiles or destroy our enemies.
Hail Satan!
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[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "kieithnightmare0" wrote:
Like completely and totally destroy a person's soul? I ask because during my "depressed" moments, when I feel absolutely worthless to the Gods, I do have thoughts of suicide,but never act on them BECAUSE I want to help. I want to be of vale. and I don't want to just drift aimlessly on the astral if I were to do it. Anyway, back to the subject. Sometimes I just get so sad I wish that I would just completely disappear. I don't want to commit suicide because I don't want to disappoint Father Satan and the Gods. but at the same time, I feel so useless that I wish I didn't exist. and I also have a problem that is keeping me from advancing (It causes depression in me), so I unfortunately get this a lot. I do vibrate the rune Wunjo, but it usually makes me neutral to the problem I am currently having and it doesn't last very long. (I'm still practicing vibrating runes so I don't always get the amount of energy I need from them)
I'm not asking this question so I could "destroy my soul" because like I said,I have thoughts of ending it all, but I would never act on them. I was just curious if there really was a way to do so. If there is, thats pretty scary.
HAIL FATHER SATAN!!!!!!!
I'm still socially awkward around people. I don't really intend to make any friends any time soon at school. I'm sorta on the unapproachable side lol But i do put up my aura of protection and clean my aura. And i have felt energy from Satan or the Gods a couple of times (not sure who, but it was very calming) thanks again!
