Is bad if i was incative and i don't was a part of beltane? i should be part of that even if i don't had good knowledge and i only start my 40 days mediations?
I doent know why but you are a very special person. Your questions sometimes make me laugh and reminds me a lot of myself in ways.
And i doen't know how to awnser your question. Haha
Don't worry about it. You're just starting your journey. Just concentrate on your progress.
Check the Complete SS Calendar for 2021. So you can know when it is a Satanic Holiday and look up for info. about what to do on that specific day.
The link in which you can find the Complete SS Calendar in your own language:
https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=5&t=49621