nephthys_
New member
- Joined
- Sep 20, 2020
- Messages
- 15
Here I am again, looking for some help. I always went with the idea that in Satanism there's no "tutors", and I fully believe that's the right way, as this is our spiritual journey and our efforts against the xian and zionist world.
But sometimes I feel so utterly lost in this ocean of information, be that pure and the truth I seek or lies from the mass media.
There's so many questions I have that I wish to find an answer to, and for the past 3, going into 4 years since I dedicated, I felt less and less knowledgeable by the day. It's true, I've had days completely wasted, days I slipped off of my daily meditations and I own it. I've had moments I was ashamed of my own actions, as I promised myself I'll give what matters the most more time every day. And even after all this time, I haven't got too far off because of my negligence.
But I believe I can do I. No other way out of this continuous circle of tolerance and torpidity. Yesterday I've even tried to start the opening of my 3rd eye once again.
I tried some yoga exercises that I found on the JoS website and came out of them more exhausted than when I started. I thought maybe slow things down a bit next time. I don't know my limits yet and I don't know what to expect. If my own body doesn't guide me, how am I supposed to understand?
This and that, but what confuses me the most was always the information you can find on the internet. Let's say I look up something related to the Ancient Egypt (one of my favourite things, yet I know so little about the subject), all I find is lies, lies and more lies. There's little to no place for me to learn what's right. And so I kindly ask for anyone who has the time and wishes to lend me a hand, to give me some trustworthy websites or books or anything that could possibly make me know more about the little things. Stuff that you would look back and say you wished you learned sooner. I know this is a lot, I've kept this draft for more than 4 months now, unsure of whether or not to post it on here. Again, I'm sorry for the length of this thing, and I'm also sorry for any "confusing" wording i might have used but I'm really really stuck in a place where I believe only another can pick me up from. I will remain forever obliged to whoever helps me.
P.S there's much more to say but I feel that this is already overwhelming enough, I'll leave other thoughts for a different time :?
Thanks in advance!
Hail Satan!
Hail the Gods of Hell!
Hail Hitler!
But sometimes I feel so utterly lost in this ocean of information, be that pure and the truth I seek or lies from the mass media.
There's so many questions I have that I wish to find an answer to, and for the past 3, going into 4 years since I dedicated, I felt less and less knowledgeable by the day. It's true, I've had days completely wasted, days I slipped off of my daily meditations and I own it. I've had moments I was ashamed of my own actions, as I promised myself I'll give what matters the most more time every day. And even after all this time, I haven't got too far off because of my negligence.
But I believe I can do I. No other way out of this continuous circle of tolerance and torpidity. Yesterday I've even tried to start the opening of my 3rd eye once again.
I tried some yoga exercises that I found on the JoS website and came out of them more exhausted than when I started. I thought maybe slow things down a bit next time. I don't know my limits yet and I don't know what to expect. If my own body doesn't guide me, how am I supposed to understand?
This and that, but what confuses me the most was always the information you can find on the internet. Let's say I look up something related to the Ancient Egypt (one of my favourite things, yet I know so little about the subject), all I find is lies, lies and more lies. There's little to no place for me to learn what's right. And so I kindly ask for anyone who has the time and wishes to lend me a hand, to give me some trustworthy websites or books or anything that could possibly make me know more about the little things. Stuff that you would look back and say you wished you learned sooner. I know this is a lot, I've kept this draft for more than 4 months now, unsure of whether or not to post it on here. Again, I'm sorry for the length of this thing, and I'm also sorry for any "confusing" wording i might have used but I'm really really stuck in a place where I believe only another can pick me up from. I will remain forever obliged to whoever helps me.
P.S there's much more to say but I feel that this is already overwhelming enough, I'll leave other thoughts for a different time :?
Thanks in advance!
Hail Satan!
Hail the Gods of Hell!
Hail Hitler!