I'm sorry I left.

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I was mislead by an angel into leaving who pretended to be a Pagan Goddess. I have since dealt with that entity and it is gone now. I saw a post made by Larissa666 about me on AncientForums.

I was told to leave and I regret it. I used to use the username DescipleoftheGods until I got tired of that one and wanted to change it to something more girly. I am a Trans woman who has been struggling to make my way with my life. My parents just won't accept it no matter what I do.

I am lesbian too which I have not told them about because they would never understand. I have been dealing with my parents thinking I have problems since I was little. I cannot convince them any different. Every time the enemy could make me look insane they cheated pretending to be me with black magick to put on a show to make me look insane and get me stuck in the hospital.

I do not know what to do anymore. I have to get away from them but do not have enough money to do that. Because I could not find a job I get an SSI check which still isn't enough to go anywhere with. I have had success with the Mer Ka Bah into changing myself but the enemy hates me and tries to stop my progress as hard as they can every time I get somewhere.

I have been doing a money work for a little bit now I'm sure it will work. The psychiatric drugs(poison) I get stuck on cause me to gain weight and screw me up but my parents don't seem to care. I have explained this to my parents but they still do not serm to care. I just do not know what to do anymore. Every time I get off of the the psyciatric drugs(poison) the enemy cheats pretending to be me with black magick to force it again through hospitilization.

I just want to find a way out but don't know what to do. Again, I'm sorry for leaving everyone. I saw a post by someone that Lady Astaroth watches over Trans people. I really, really want a way out of this.

 

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Omg! The same shit happens to me too! The enemy attacks me full throttle when I am off my psychiatric drugs... so, so I know where you're coming from. I have SSI, too. The enemy does the same shit to me.

My mother wants to join Father, but she hasn't yet. She has plenty of time to do so, so I am beginning to doubt her.

I feel bad for anyone else who lives with a Christian family. After what happened to me with those enemies when I tried from going from christianity to Judaism my mom and I stopped believing in the Nazarene completely and I hated the three abrahamic religions ever since. I tried Islam, too. So, I know first hand how destructive those three programs are. I got abused spiritually by the entities in them...REALLY BADLY. My mom watched, she now can't bring herself to believe in the abrahamic god anymore.

I have an IQ better than that of 133 yet I can be do naive at times. I jumped from religion to religion. Buddhism, Hinduism, Celtic religion, voodoo, different pagan faiths, the list goes on. I found my answers to my questions in Spiritual Sstanism. I was once a Laveyian satanist before as well. No matter what, everything lead me back to Satan.

I'm sorry that you're going through this. Father will give you strength, he always have given me strength.

Your parents may care more than you think, since they may make you take your meds. My mother makes me take mine, but I want off of them. I told her that it's enemy spirits, but insists for me to take my medication. Damn society thinks I'm schizophrenic and bipolar. I may be bipolar, but I'm not schizophrenic. I hear and see the gods...and the enemy.

Your parents dont understand you. Perhaps because they don't want to understand. Or they do, but they don't know how to go about it.

My answer is to you... relax. That is what I learned. You'll get what you want. Ignore the enemy to the best of your abilities and perform your magick.

The enemy hates me because I'm learning to be laid back, but when it comes to FIGHTING... I intend to hit them HARD.

I always flip the enemy off when I'm alone and they come to me. I use sarcasm and wit against them...and then do the RTR like a boss.

Keep in mind that the gods are there. Always. They are there. Always there. That in of itself brings comfort to me.

Love and hugs

Hail Satan

 

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"Sighs" If you knew the truth about psychiatric drugs(poison) then you know what an awful time I have gone through.

What I have noticed is that the psychiatric drugs(poison) seems to mess up my progress with Transgendering which makes me really really sad ?

I have never actually told them I am Trans because I don't think they'll ever accept it. I have tried doing certain things to hint at it when they don't really say anything. I'm so sad and fed up with trying to get them to notice me. This girl gives up.

It's beyond wanting to just leave anymore, I need to leave or this will never end. I've begged Father Satan and Lady Astaroth for help I cried soo soo soooo much last night begging Lady Astaroth for help. I get the feeling she heard me. I am just so sad and looking for answers out of this sillyness I have tried everything I know to try ?

I have always been taught to try doing things on your own before asking for help From Father Satan or one of His Demons but I am in a super bad situation and out of answers
Thank you for taking the time to write me. I am actually a very lonely lesbian looking for another girl to spend my life with and make really happy and give my life to. I have felt like this for a really looong time but kept it hidden because I was so afraid of what my parents would say or do.

I have already given my life heart and Soul and all that I am to Father Satan and I continue to do what I can. My parents really aren't open to Father Satan or Spiritual Satanism I did try something once and it really didn't work out. So I quit that.
I just need to find my own place to stay away from them because it seems they will never change their minds which I don't really care about that much anymore really at all.

I am almost completely done with trying to talk to anyone about anything that has to do with my private life or what Religion I follow. I'll tell you again what I have been shown by my Guardian. The enemy tries to bother me to the point of reacting to what is going on around me and then, my parents are almost forced to see what I do and how I react(the attemps to make me react are even worse than a person would usually go through because they use black magick to try and make it worse, more harassing and something I don't like to try and make me react.)

It's soo unfair and is pretty much cheating. It makes me really happy to finally see someone else who has gone through what I have gone through. so relieved. I have thought to myself so many times that no one has hone through what I have gone through because I have never seen any person say anything about things like I have gone through. And I finally meet someone(you *giggles*) who is going through the same things I am.

My parents seem to care but trust me when I say I AM treated a looooot differently when I don't take that poison. The last time it stopped my parents actually were kicking me out without actually thinking about it that hard. I just gave up after that. I still love them but to live MY life as a Spiritual Satanist Trans Woman and a lesbian truly think it's best that I go sooner than later. I just need some money and then I can really just go and be free to live my life how I want.

Enough is enough, I really am tired of what I have to go throygh and the enemy and its complete insanity. I highly doubt you're bi-polar either because these issues which have different names actually happen because of spiritual imbalances and can be gotten rid of with power meditation. For me it was just like a fog for a couple of years and then everything totally cleared and I really began to see the truth and everything.

I have Father Satan I believe some of Father Satan's Demons and My Guardian to thank for getting out of this mess. Now I just feel like I need to go and live MY own life and eventually find another girl to give myself to. I really am super excited about finding a job though.. finally *sighs* I know This is really reeeally long but I just wanted to get it out and talk about it so bad.

Thank you soooo much for writing me. It really means a lot to me. *hugs* ?

 

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I also am a transsexual like yourself and feel your pain,because I have gone through so much mess in my life...for the longest I contemplated suicide and self destructing but my guardian showed me that life will be better and finally I asked father satan lucifer for help and finally found the person I have always wanted..all I'm saying is hang in there sister because if I a transsexual lesbian can find the one for me and life becomes brighter then you can as well ?  Stay strong and have faith in yourself and one day you'll see that you have the power of molding your reality and manifesting your desires