I'm new, and I wanted to say hello and get to know some of you.

[thepoet92]

Hello. I'm new to Satanism, although it feels like I've been prone to it for years. I live in a Christian-strong religious family that looks down on Satanism. Yet I myself look down on Christianity.

Ever since I was small I tried to be a Christian like my family urged me to be, yet I always had questions that no one could answer. They always told me to have faith, yet I could not have faith in something that only fed me lies.. or so that is the way I felt.

I suppose you could call me 'evil' in the terms and sense of the meaning of the word. And for a long time I always thought Satan and the Demons were 'evil' as well. However, recently (for years) I've always looked to Satan as the truth and good of life. I once tried to perform a Satanic ritual to give my soul to Satan, yet I was interupted by my parents. I suffered much criticism and other punishment by them, and was told to never dabble in Satanism ever again. Yet no matter what they say, my heart and mind drift back ever more strongly to Satan.

About months or weeks before my Satanic ritual I had a sort of dream. I woke up at about 3-6am, I'm not entirely sure what the time was because I couldn't open my eyes long enough to see. I woke myself up because in my mind I was chanting something, "Time to bring about the other one." or something along those lines. I had a major headache that made my head tingle and made me feel extremely dizzy. I kept picturing two women in my mind as I kept chanting and I believe that I was chanting to bring about a third woman. I was afraid as I was still young, and so I began praying.. although I'm ashamed to admit that. I remember falling back to sleep after about 10 minutes of this going on. I'm not sure what happened.. or if has a hidden meaning.

Anyways.. I read on AngelFire.com that if you can't perform a Satanic ritual that you can imagine a temple to Satan in your mind and invite him to bless your temple, thus giving a temporary offering of you soul. I tried this, however I'm not sure if it worked.. or if I'm doing it right.

Also, my parents are still suspicious of my actions and I'm taking a large risk by sumbitting this message.. however I am willing to take that risk to proclaim Satan as the true god, and give him my soul, heart and mind fully. Any advice anyone could give me about anything, or even information would be greatly appreciated. Thank you.

 

[doom1n1gloom]

First of all, the Astral Temple dedication is just as valid as doing it in the physical realm. Of course it is preferable to do it in the physical world to show a better meaning of respect. However, creating an Astral Temple takes a bit of time. You need to make a solid and detailed structure in your mind, and once you reach a point, youll never forget the features of the temple, thus allowing its existence. Carry out the ritual as you would normally: It should be quite obvious whether youve succeeded or not. Also, to prevent your parents from finding out youve used these sites, assuming the problem is browser history, download the program CCleaner. Its fast, easy, and doesnt leave a trace for anyone under the rank of hacker.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "thepoet92" <thepoet92@... wrote:

Hello. I'm new to Satanism, although it feels like I've been prone to it for years. I live in a Christian-strong religious family that looks down on Satanism. Yet I myself look down on Christianity.

Ever since I was small I tried to be a Christian like my family urged me to be, yet I always had questions that no one could answer. They always told me to have faith, yet I could not have faith in something that only fed me lies.. or so that is the way I felt.

I suppose you could call me 'evil' in the terms and sense of the meaning of the word. And for a long time I always thought Satan and the Demons were 'evil' as well. However, recently (for years) I've always looked to Satan as the truth and good of life. I once tried to perform a Satanic ritual to give my soul to Satan, yet I was interupted by my parents. I suffered much criticism and other punishment by them, and was told to never dabble in Satanism ever again. Yet no matter what they say, my heart and mind drift back ever more strongly to Satan.

About months or weeks before my Satanic ritual I had a sort of dream. I woke up at about 3-6am, I'm not entirely sure what the time was because I couldn't open my eyes long enough to see. I woke myself up because in my mind I was chanting something, "Time to bring about the other one." or something along those lines. I had a major headache that made my head tingle and made me feel extremely dizzy. I kept picturing two women in my mind as I kept chanting and I believe that I was chanting to bring about a third woman. I was afraid as I was still young, and so I began praying.. although I'm ashamed to admit that. I remember falling back to sleep after about 10 minutes of this going on. I'm not sure what happened.. or if has a hidden meaning.

Anyways.. I read on AngelFire.com that if you can't perform a Satanic ritual that you can imagine a temple to Satan in your mind and invite him to bless your temple, thus giving a temporary offering of you soul. I tried this, however I'm not sure if it worked.. or if I'm doing it right.

Also, my parents are still suspicious of my actions and I'm taking a large risk by sumbitting this message.. however I am willing to take that risk to proclaim Satan as the true god, and give him my soul, heart and mind fully. Any advice anyone could give me about anything, or even information would be greatly appreciated. Thank you.