If I'm jewish...

[Morfran]

This is by no means a provocative post. This is by no means trolling, guys, I really respect you.

These are just some thoughts and feelings that I would like to vent here. I dared to devote myself a month ago. I feel like a jew all the time, I'm not even sure if my initiation was accepted. I wanted to do this 3 years ago, but everything was delayed. I don't have any bright external jewish signs, I also know that it seems like there were no jews in my family tree. But I have an unhealthy craving for jewish things like the islamic koran and all that shit, and I've always drawn my motivation for RTR from the koran. I have always loved evil. Thanks to this innate sympathy, I came to Satanism, and later found JoS. I used to hate islam because I thought it was evil to hate it, it was cool, I enjoyed it. I hate it even now, but my old sympathy for evil has come back to me, and now I am like this...

I have used some islamic practices in my life, creating my own sub-religion, where, for example, ablution is performed before RTR and some other borrowed dogmas. I used it more for self-adjustment, and also because I can't live without limiting dogma. Of course, every day I insulted jehovah and the angels. There are many more such disgusting things in my life. And this is not trolling, I am completely sincere. Too sincere for a lying reptile? In any case, guys, whether I'm a mentally ill geek or a genetic jew, I will fight for your cause and then kill myself if I live to see it. My RTRS are here for you, I hope they will be effective, and I wish you a speedy victory.

* Online translator

 

[Eihwaz]

Just grow up... this is how life is. Just stop caring about it, probably is just self-sabotage so you don't need to do the job and can feel as a victim all the time.

In the ancient initiatory rites there was life treatening danger, you have to overcome fear.

 

[Ghost in the Machine]

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You need to clean and free your soul intensely. A gentile can act like a jew just from having immense levels of deep garbage in their soul and tying too much with enemy energy and crap. I speak from experience coming from an xian upbringing and all.

You really need to work hard to clean and free your soul from the enemy's filth like I had to. And you need to severely force yourself to fight against such temptations and break free from such interests whether you like it or not, because believe me you're not going to like the idea of making such changes for yourself.

It's going to suck and you're going to not want to do it, it's going to feel like a freedom being ripped away from you but I assure you it's not the kind of 'freedom' the gods encourage. They were relentlessly very stern with me to change myself drastically in my mid years. In the end I'm unbelievably grateful that I forced myself to do so even when I hated the idea of it, and I'm extremely appreciative of them showing me the real rights from wrongs, it was precisely like being a child having to learn how the world works all over again.

Trust me when I say once you break free you will be absolutely disgusted in the things you like now to the very core of your bones. Dealing with any regrets, guilt and shame afterwords is a whole other ballgame to work on, but that's just part of bettering yourself and advancing, it gets better.

 

[darkmonkey666]

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You need to clean and free your soul intensely. A gentile can act like a jew just from having immense levels of deep garbage in their soul and tying too much with enemy energy and crap. I speak from experience coming from an xian upbringing and all.

You really need to work hard to clean and free your soul from the enemy's filth like I had to. And you need to severely force yourself to fight against such temptations and break free from such interests whether you like it or not, because believe me you're not going to like the idea of making such changes for yourself.

It's going to suck and you're going to not want to do it, it's going to feel like a freedom being ripped away from you but I assure you it's not the kind of 'freedom' the gods encourage. They were relentlessly very stern with me to change myself drastically in my mid years. In the end I'm unbelievably grateful that I forced myself to do so even when I hated the idea of it, and I'm extremely appreciative of them showing me the real rights from wrongs, it was precisely like being a child having to learn how the world works all over again.

Trust me when I say once you break free you will be absolutely disgusted in the things you like now to the very core of your bones. Dealing with any regrets, guilt and shame afterwords is a whole other ballgame to work on, but that's just part of bettering yourself and advancing, it gets better.

I second this. While I never was to point of acting like a Jew or anything I grew up in a very strong xtian household it was much harder than I thought it would be to do so. I also notice how that programming had made it difficult to break free from drugs fully for awhile and I did some other dumb things.

It really kind of is hard one of the first steps should be the final rtr several times a day and cleansing your aura/soul after doing the returning the curses thing.

Munka or a ansuz/uruz rune is also helpful Aquarius and Pisces moon is the next best Time for this. You could create an affirmation to be free of enemy programming or Islamic/xtian programming. Do it for 40 days.

Wunjo can be helpful in healing psychological issues.

Just work on things as they come along and that is good advice what Ghost in The Machine said.

 

[Wayofthegods]

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You need to clean and free your soul intensely. A gentile can act like a jew just from having immense levels of deep garbage in their soul and tying too much with enemy energy and crap. I speak from experience coming from an xian upbringing and all.

You really need to work hard to clean and free your soul from the enemy's filth like I had to. And you need to severely force yourself to fight against such temptations and break free from such interests whether you like it or not, because believe me you're not going to like the idea of making such changes for yourself.

It's going to suck and you're going to not want to do it, it's going to feel like a freedom being ripped away from you but I assure you it's not the kind of 'freedom' the gods encourage. They were relentlessly very stern with me to change myself drastically in my mid years. In the end I'm unbelievably grateful that I forced myself to do so even when I hated the idea of it, and I'm extremely appreciative of them showing me the real rights from wrongs, it was precisely like being a child having to learn how the world works all over again.

Trust me when I say once you break free you will be absolutely disgusted in the things you like now to the very core of your bones. Dealing with any regrets, guilt and shame afterwords is a whole other ballgame to work on, but that's just part of bettering yourself and advancing, it gets better.

Hey guys I feel like a jew all the time and love evil.



...nah you're probably fine. I'm sure theres nothing weird goin on there....

 

[darkmonkey666]

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You need to clean and free your soul intensely. A gentile can act like a jew just from having immense levels of deep garbage in their soul and tying too much with enemy energy and crap. I speak from experience coming from an xian upbringing and all.

You really need to work hard to clean and free your soul from the enemy's filth like I had to. And you need to severely force yourself to fight against such temptations and break free from such interests whether you like it or not, because believe me you're not going to like the idea of making such changes for yourself.

It's going to suck and you're going to not want to do it, it's going to feel like a freedom being ripped away from you but I assure you it's not the kind of 'freedom' the gods encourage. They were relentlessly very stern with me to change myself drastically in my mid years. In the end I'm unbelievably grateful that I forced myself to do so even when I hated the idea of it, and I'm extremely appreciative of them showing me the real rights from wrongs, it was precisely like being a child having to learn how the world works all over again.

Trust me when I say once you break free you will be absolutely disgusted in the things you like now to the very core of your bones. Dealing with any regrets, guilt and shame afterwords is a whole other ballgame to work on, but that's just part of bettering yourself and advancing, it gets better.

Hey guys I feel like a jew all the time and love evil.



...nah you're probably fine. I'm sure theres nothing weird goin on there....

This person could also have stuff in Scorpio. I think this gives a general tendency to be attracted to dark or even possibly evil things. I have stuff including Pluto both in Scorpio and the 8th house. In my personal experience this causes me to like dark things like for example Marilyn Manson like music or Horror movies etc.

Again I never was like oh I am so dark and evil or all of that and wanting to worship the devil in the enemy way. That is dumb but a person with this will like dark things and maybe have strong traits of being intelligent and knowing naturally psychological manipulation.

I only did that though when I was a little kid I would play 2 people against someone etc. I know their tricks but I am not Jew and I certainly don’t love evil in fact I can be too disgusted by certain people and judge mental against people I feel are evil or with the enemy sometimes.

Doesn’t mean I still don’t like dark themes and I confess that is what got me into Satanism to begin with but my goal starting out was not to want to worship the xtian devil in fact I wanted out of that and I wanted it to be wrong that is why I was a little fearful of this at first but wanting to look at it cause I liked dark themes. I quickly realized it wasn’t what this was about and joined in once I realized it was good and fit my goals.