Christopher1
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I was praying to Enki/Satan the other day about protecting me and giving me more friends and I think it worked as I did come across people on the internet randomly with my nerdy interests and this happens very rarely.
Also I went to sleep last night (I don't have a girlfriend and am shy - btw am male 18 years old) and there was 2 girls. I remember that I did have sex with one and it did feel real, it's strange as I forced the sex onto her as I am aware of my lust addiction and in the past have been trying to control it since I don't have any girlfriend or any partner and feel like a pervert - but if this dream was a sign of anything?
I get afraid that I will be judged in an afterlife for this sexual intercourse if it was real as I still think of books like the book of the dead that warned us against lust.
So what do you think?
There too was another girl who I became very friendly with and I did not become obsessed with lust on her as I did with the other.
I don't know if these are just figments of my imagination or mean something?
thanks and has anyone else had experience like this?
Hail /m\
Also I went to sleep last night (I don't have a girlfriend and am shy - btw am male 18 years old) and there was 2 girls. I remember that I did have sex with one and it did feel real, it's strange as I forced the sex onto her as I am aware of my lust addiction and in the past have been trying to control it since I don't have any girlfriend or any partner and feel like a pervert - but if this dream was a sign of anything?
I get afraid that I will be judged in an afterlife for this sexual intercourse if it was real as I still think of books like the book of the dead that warned us against lust.
So what do you think?
There too was another girl who I became very friendly with and I did not become obsessed with lust on her as I did with the other.
I don't know if these are just figments of my imagination or mean something?
thanks and has anyone else had experience like this?
Hail /m\