I say goodbye to the forum.
Unfortunately, my problems have not been solved - in fact, the situation is worse - and I have neither the energy nor the time to keep trying.
Thanks for the helpful and constructive comments from everyone - special mention to Henu the Great and Blitzkreig. I hope I have contributed something to the forum with a few posts. You all keep fighting and keep improving, it is great what you are doing.
I say goodbye to the forum.
Unfortunately, my problems have not been solved - in fact, the situation is worse - and I have neither the energy nor the time to keep trying.
Thanks for the helpful and constructive comments from everyone - special mention to Henu the Great and Blitzkreig. I hope I have contributed something to the forum with a few posts. You all keep fighting and keep improving, it is great what you are doing.
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So what is your reason right now why you still have not done the kundalini yoga? If you think Henu said it was dangerous, that was a mistake and a misunderstanding. It is not dangerous and you know this now. It has been multiple days. Have you not had a single 10 minutes of time in all of these days to try this?
You said all of the things you have done, and every one of them are things that use energy. You have done nothing that produces energy, but you have been doing things to use up the little amount that you had. So it was absolutely certain that you would end up drained how you are now. I have told you something that you can do in only 10 minutes that will produce the largest amount of energy within you where your whole body will be shaking and buzzing from the energy. This will fix your problem.
So why do you refuse to try it? Nobody is ever going to help you if you refuse to spend 10 minutes to help yourself. And you must have at least 10 minutes of time, you must have hours of time every day if you don't go to work.
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So what is your reason right now why you still have not done the kundalini yoga? If you think Henu said it was dangerous, that was a mistake and a misunderstanding. It is not dangerous and you know this now. It has been multiple days. Have you not had a single 10 minutes of time in all of these days to try this?
You said all of the things you have done, and every one of them are things that use energy. You have done nothing that produces energy, but you have been doing things to use up the little amount that you had. So it was absolutely certain that you would end up drained how you are now. I have told you something that you can do in only 10 minutes that will produce the largest amount of energy within you where your whole body will be shaking and buzzing from the energy. This will fix your problem.
So why do you refuse to try it? Nobody is ever going to help you if you refuse to spend 10 minutes to help yourself. And you must have at least 10 minutes of time, you must have hours of time every day if you don't go to work.
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"The success of any working depends upon the strength and power of the operator's mind, aura, mental concentration and his/her ability to sense and direct energy. This comes through power meditation. How diligently and consistently one applies one's self to a program of power meditation will determine how powerful one's workings are. People who are new are encouraged to start out with white and grey magick, as black magick requires more knowledge and skill. Some people are born with a gift for this, but for others, this comes in time."
Magick works just fine. When we meet failure, such as in your case, it is important to address the issue in order to solve it. In your case, it is the lack of self-empowerment and necessary spiritual progression. Using energy to manifest desires without raising a proper amount of energy proves failure, and a total depletion of ones own life force. Energy takes the easy way out.
Power meditation works to empower ones soul and raises the life force. It is the core discipline that elevates and advances us in all respects. Power meditation needs to be done consistently, every single day. Inconsistency with power meditation leads and causes ones energy levels to fluctuate, preventing the energies to build themselves up. One day you will feel depleted, weak and as a result, failure.
When one is consistent with power meditation such as chakra work, power breaths, Yoga, one will tear down layers of dross and limitation, both in mind and soul. This unfolds a stronger version of yourself that becomes free from oppressive influences. Again, this takes time as most people have a lot of cleaning and deprogramming to do. In the long run, this will prove success. It takes a lot of hard and consistent work, it takes dedication. It is a lifestyle.
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Quote from Pythia:
"The success of any working depends upon the strength and power of the operator's mind, aura, mental concentration and his/her ability to sense and direct energy. This comes through power meditation. How diligently and consistently one applies one's self to a program of power meditation will determine how powerful one's workings are. People who are new are encouraged to start out with white and grey magick, as black magick requires more knowledge and skill. Some people are born with a gift for this, but for others, this comes in time."
Magick works just fine. When we meet failure, such as in your case, it is important to address the issue in order to solve it. In your case, it is the lack of self-empowerment and necessary spiritual progression. Using energy to manifest desires without raising a proper amount of energy proves failure, and a total depletion of ones own life force. Energy takes the easy way out.
Power meditation works to empower ones soul and raises the life force. It is the core discipline that elevates and advances us in all respects. Power meditation needs to be done consistently, every single day. Inconsistency with power meditation leads and causes ones energy levels to fluctuate, preventing the energies to build themselves up. One day you will feel depleted, weak and as a result, failure.
When one is consistent with power meditation such as chakra work, power breaths, Yoga, one will tear down layers of dross and limitation, both in mind and soul. This unfolds a stronger version of yourself that becomes free from oppressive influences. Again, this takes time as most people have a lot of cleaning and deprogramming to do. In the long run, this will prove success. It takes a lot of hard and consistent work, it takes dedication. It is a lifestyle.
I am very happy that this is as so, as this takes dedication. This takes improvement, looking truly to oneself and others. It takes healing it takes knowledge. I wouldn't want you nor anyone else magic to work, when the mind is such state, when the outcome of this can be disastrous. Luckily the Universe has laws and the human psyche has too.
I'm glad you're enjoying yourself. If you are feeling a little better, then it made sense that I created this topic.
I am very happy too. I can't wait to watch helplessly as my loved ones and I sink into total hopelessness.
If you love your loved ones, you do not let ignorance into your life in this way. If you pity yourself you do not let yourself down in this way. If you don't want a "belief religion" you do not care about hope, which is only a harmonized state of being.
So miss me with this victimization by which not even a plant shivers.
Like you are all of many. To state the obvious and necessary reality, spending a few months with cumulated time less than you spend a day at your work, without any real study and discriminant capacity of experience and mental sharpness, with the pressure of life and imagined hope, delusions, with the enemy dross at the door and inside the self, with depreciating existence and vision, you are not in the capacity to exercise your judgement onto the ToZ, not even on yourself.
It is not shocking that people are on this level, I know and it is seen. It is that of your ignorance turning into arrogance based on nothing. It is the reactions that arise that are despised from this, as this is only the squirming ignorance from inside the self.
Past Yogis stayed in meditation for hours on end, just to open a chakra. Others were put to hard labor to crush their ego (mentioned on ToZ somewhere). Many of us here have spent lifetimes to where we can consciously take this path and continue.
Comparing these states is not just, I know. The desire to become and attain, and the survival of atrophy. But it is here for you to see a contrast, the weight of the effort. The guideline, the direction to your mind.
But you, you have done the greatest weight lifting, I know. You have lied that you spent 87 days on runes and all of this meditation and nothing happened. I know. You have wasted your 15 minutes a day for 80 days. Only 3 months? You therefore have a reality check, yes.
All of the life doing nothing yet when comes something of true sacredness and substance, it is a problem.
Wealth and money of all things, was your purpose, without any power, without a chakra opened. Given the keys to the power - slowly retracting into the shell of arrogance, ignorance, helplessness, cry and doom.
In the same manner I'm happy a monkey isn't put on a airline mission to carry passengers from a country A to country B, I'm happy that this mindset has no spiritual power as it is antithetic to the core of advancement. (The audacity of me, imagine).
And about the part of enjoying life, I'm not sorry that I am enjoying life. I will regardless if the tomorrow death comes to everyone I love. Regardless of the harshest and strangest events and disturbing, painful existences, I will enjoy life and be happy. Ask yourself why, not me.
The hardest part of this path is not anything else but succeeding the first steps. Then you walk, run, fly on the path, ultimately becoming the enemy of ignorance and becoming the holder and promise of truth.
You decidedly not wanting to do what was told, not even a ten minute Kundalini Basic Spinal exercises, is defining of you. What you think, what you do, is defining of you. If you hold suffering, suffering is defining of you. If you do not act, inaction is defining of you.
So why are you upset that you, your life is defined in this way?
At what point do you decide, that what defines you should be truth and not lies.
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I am very happy that this is as so, as this takes dedication. This takes improvement, looking truly to oneself and others. It takes healing it takes knowledge. I wouldn't want you nor anyone else magic to work, when the mind is such state, when the outcome of this can be disastrous. Luckily the Universe has laws and the human psyche has too.
I'm glad you're enjoying yourself. If you are feeling a little better, then it made sense that I created this topic.
I am very happy too. I can't wait to watch helplessly as my loved ones and I sink into total hopelessness.
If you love your loved ones, you do not let ignorance into your life in this way. If you pity yourself you do not let yourself down in this way. If you don't want a "belief religion" you do not care about hope, which is only a harmonized state of being.
So miss me with this victimization by which not even a plant shivers.
Like you are all of many. To state the obvious and necessary reality, spending a few months with cumulated time less than you spend a day at your work, without any real study and discriminant capacity of experience and mental sharpness, with the pressure of life and imagined hope, delusions, with the enemy dross at the door and inside the self, with depreciating existence and vision, you are not in the capacity to exercise your judgement onto the ToZ, not even on yourself.
It is not shocking that people are on this level, I know and it is seen. It is that of your ignorance turning into arrogance based on nothing. It is the reactions that arise that are despised from this, as this is only the squirming ignorance from inside the self.
Past Yogis stayed in meditation for hours on end, just to open a chakra. Others were put to hard labor to crush their ego (mentioned on ToZ somewhere). Many of us here have spent lifetimes to where we can consciously take this path and continue.
Comparing these states is not just, I know. The desire to become and attain, and the survival of atrophy. But it is here for you to see a contrast, the weight of the effort. The guideline, the direction to your mind.
But you, you have done the greatest weight lifting, I know. You have lied that you spent 87 days on runes and all of this meditation and nothing happened. I know. You have wasted your 15 minutes a day for 80 days. Only 3 months? You therefore have a reality check, yes.
All of the life doing nothing yet when comes something of true sacredness and substance, it is a problem.
Wealth and money of all things, was your purpose, without any power, without a chakra opened. Given the keys to the power - slowly retracting into the shell of arrogance, ignorance, helplessness, cry and doom.
In the same manner I'm happy a monkey isn't put on a airline mission to carry passengers from a country A to country B, I'm happy that this mindset has no spiritual power as it is antithetic to the core of advancement. (The audacity of me, imagine).
And about the part of enjoying life, I'm not sorry that I am enjoying life. I will regardless if the tomorrow death comes to everyone I love. Regardless of the harshest and strangest events and disturbing, painful existences, I will enjoy life and be happy. Ask yourself why, not me.
The hardest part of this path is not anything else but succeeding the first steps. Then you walk, run, fly on the path, ultimately becoming the enemy of ignorance and becoming the holder and promise of truth.
You decidedly not wanting to do what was told, not even a ten minute Kundalini Basic Spinal exercises, is defining of you. What you think, what you do, is defining of you. If you hold suffering, suffering is defining of you. If you do not act, inaction is defining of you.
So why are you upset that you, your life is defined in this way?
At what point do you decide, that what defines you should be truth and not lies.
You have lied that you spent 87 days on runes and all of this meditation and nothing happened.
I do not understand. What did I lie about? 87 days is almost 3 months, yes. I wrote it all, you can read the text of my confirmation in the new members topic. There I wrote down when I started the job and why I started then, etc. On day 88 I found out that I was again not hired for two jobs. That day I stopped the rune work. What is the point of lying about it?
And don't you see what a trap you have set for yourself? Think about it: I know I wrote the truth. How can I believe in your advanced spiritual abilities if you can't even feel so much? If the Gods do not tell you that I have really completed the 87 days?
Calling me a liar is an easy way to end the discussion, and a win-win for all readers of the topic. But you are communicating with me, and betraying your lack of spiritual ability right in front of me. Of course, only I know that, but that's the point for me. You think I'm happy about that? You think I needed this?
Wealth and money of all things, was your purpose, without any power, without a chakra opened.
That was not my intention. If you read my posts carefully, you would know. Even the text of the affirmation was structured according to Blitzkreig's advice, i.e. it was not only about wealth, but also about opportunities. And the goal was to be able to develop my prepping, for the people I love and in the best way for me. The money and the opportunities were all just tools for the prepping I needed most right now.
Of course, it is easier not to read my posts. And after I explaining the same thing to others in the same thread, you write again that all I wanted was money and riches to satisfy my desires and that I am like a monkey. When I even included development in the text of my confirmation.
And I know I can repeat the same explanations as many times as I like. And I can link to my posts, which anyone can read. After you, someone will come along again who doesn't pay attention to what they read, and will repeat your superficial sentences.
I would therefore like to end the debate. I sincerely appreciate you trying to help me. And I apologize for being rude to you. Continue on your spiritual journey according to your faith and to the best of your ability.
You have lied that you spent 87 days on runes and all of this meditation and nothing happened.
I do not understand. What did I lie about? 87 days is almost 3 months, yes. I wrote it all, you can read the text of my confirmation in the new members topic. There I wrote down when I started the job and why I started then, etc. On day 88 I found out that I was again not hired for two jobs. That day I stopped the rune work. What is the point of lying about it?
And don't you see what a trap you have set for yourself? Think about it: I know I wrote the truth. How can I believe in your advanced spiritual abilities if you can't even feel so much? If the Gods do not tell you that I have really completed the 87 days?
Calling me a liar is an easy way to end the discussion, and a win-win for all readers of the topic. But you are communicating with me, and betraying your lack of spiritual ability right in front of me. Of course, only I know that, but that's the point for me. You think I'm happy about that? You think I needed this?
Wealth and money of all things, was your purpose, without any power, without a chakra opened.
That was not my intention. If you read my posts carefully, you would know. Even the text of the affirmation was structured according to Blitzkreig's advice, i.e. it was not only about wealth, but also about opportunities. And the goal was to be able to develop my prepping, for the people I love and in the best way for me. The money and the opportunities were all just tools for the prepping I needed most right now.
Of course, it is easier not to read my posts. And after I explaining the same thing to others in the same thread, you write again that all I wanted was money and riches to satisfy my desires and that I am like a monkey. When I even included development in the text of my confirmation.
And I know I can repeat the same explanations as many times as I like. And I can link to my posts, which anyone can read. After you, someone will come along again who doesn't pay attention to what they read, and will repeat your superficial sentences.
I would therefore like to end the debate. I sincerely appreciate you trying to help me. And I apologize for being rude to you. Continue on your spiritual journey according to your faith and to the best of your ability.
You have lied that you spent 87 days on runes and all of this meditation and nothing happened.
I do not understand. What did I lie about? 87 days is almost 3 months, yes. I wrote it all, you can read the text of my confirmation in the new members topic. There I wrote down when I started the job and why I started then, etc. On day 88 I found out that I was again not hired for two jobs. That day I stopped the rune work. What is the point of lying about it?
And don't you see what a trap you have set for yourself? Think about it: I know I wrote the truth. How can I believe in your advanced spiritual abilities if you can't even feel so much? If the Gods do not tell you that I have really completed the 87 days?
The Gods didn't not tell me that, that is the reasonable conclusion I get to after your replies.
Yes you lied that nothing happened. You lied also to yourself by the manner you approached your meditation and the 40 days PDF.
I have thought hard about this, and even the most spiritual ineptitude can be rendered null in about 2 months.
One will feel something in a few weeks. At least an innocent but clear shiver.
Tell me, how many vibrations, meditations have you done for your chakras.
Tell me how much Pranayama have you done.
How much Yoga.
You lied by making it look like you have done the greatest effort in the world and the Gods have not helped you, and you don't want a belief religion.
This isn't inquisition, but it is only to make you understand and to stop lying to yourself that you have done something.
If a tank comes my way, and I lift a stick from a tree to beat it, I will definitely die. And no I won't say to the other soldiers that I tried.
All of my post are inviting you to advance and are explanatory reasons for everything you wrote.
In regards to me and my advancement, if all people would believe that I am a senior beginner, it would be right and true.
Also, I do not bow down to victimisation and ego traps, as my purpose is to give sacrilege and not let stupidity of the level "I spent three months ToZ is not real for me bye".
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You have lied that you spent 87 days on runes and all of this meditation and nothing happened.
I do not understand. What did I lie about? 87 days is almost 3 months, yes. I wrote it all, you can read the text of my confirmation in the new members topic. There I wrote down when I started the job and why I started then, etc. On day 88 I found out that I was again not hired for two jobs. That day I stopped the rune work. What is the point of lying about it?
And don't you see what a trap you have set for yourself? Think about it: I know I wrote the truth. How can I believe in your advanced spiritual abilities if you can't even feel so much? If the Gods do not tell you that I have really completed the 87 days?
The Gods didn't not tell me that, that is the reasonable conclusion I get to after your replies.
Yes you lied that nothing happened. You lied also to yourself by the manner you approached your meditation and the 40 days PDF.
I have thought hard about this, and even the most spiritual ineptitude can be rendered null in about 2 months.
One will feel something in a few weeks. At least an innocent but clear shiver.
Tell me, how many vibrations, meditations have you done for your chakras.
Tell me how much Pranayama have you done.
How much Yoga.
You lied by making it look like you have done the greatest effort in the world and the Gods have not helped you, and you don't want a belief religion.
This isn't inquisition, but it is only to make you understand and to stop lying to yourself that you have done something.
If a tank comes my way, and I lift a stick from a tree to beat it, I will definitely die. And no I won't say to the other soldiers that I tried.
All of my post are inviting you to advance and are explanatory reasons for everything you wrote.
In regards to me and my advancement, if all people would believe that I am a senior beginner, it would be right and true.
Also, I do not bow down to victimisation and ego traps, as my purpose is to give sacrilege and not let stupidity of the level "I spent three months ToZ is not real for me bye".
If I design you a 40 day programme, within the limits of an hour a day routine, would you do it?
As to not waste time writing it for nothing.
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If I design you a 40 day programme, within the limits of an hour a day routine, would you do it?
As to not waste time writing it for nothing.
I keep iterating this:
Magick will NOT - I repeat - NOT work if you hate yourself and if you have guilt. Self hatred and guilt is the enemy of magick. You will sabotage every single working. Every member must work on their psychological issues or problems with lifetimes of christian brainwashing AND think clearly about what they want to manifest before they expect magick to do big things.
In addition, if you are in a routine for 22 years of adulthood and 13 years of constant employment, then expect Fehu to break you out of this easily, this will not happen. Runic work will in fact put you through the wringer to shake you out of something that took two decades to crystallize.
We can't offer easy solutions as most of us are not in this situation nor do we have the same karmic problems as you. Some members here would find putting the bottle down or doing a law exam the hardest thing on earth, whereas you found it a cakewalk. But that same member would never work at the same job for 13 years, so it's apples and oranges.
By the sounds of things it doesn't even seem like your chakras have opened so I'm not sure what to think here.
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I keep iterating this:
Magick will NOT - I repeat - NOT work if you hate yourself and if you have guilt. Self hatred and guilt is the enemy of magick. You will sabotage every single working. Every member must work on their psychological issues or problems with lifetimes of christian brainwashing AND think clearly about what they want to manifest before they expect magick to do big things.
In addition, if you are in a routine for 22 years of adulthood and 13 years of constant employment, then expect Fehu to break you out of this easily, this will not happen. Runic work will in fact put you through the wringer to shake you out of something that took two decades to crystallize.
We can't offer easy solutions as most of us are not in this situation nor do we have the same karmic problems as you. Some members here would find putting the bottle down or doing a law exam the hardest thing on earth, whereas you found it a cakewalk. But that same member would never work at the same job for 13 years, so it's apples and oranges.
By the sounds of things it doesn't even seem like your chakras have opened so I'm not sure what to think here.
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Because I hate myself. And because maybe I don't want to live anymore. But there are one or two people and animals that make me want to live.
I am no longer interested in spirituality. And I apologize for being rude to you. I apologize to the all.
Look, nobody wants for you to suffer here, but people are letting their frustrations show.
Magic is not always easy for a beginner, but excessive criticism or cynicism can kill one's magic, as well.
Your situation was difficult because you wanted to gain opportunities through your magic, but this is also not an easy goal to achieve. Yet, I advised you to do it anyway, believing it is better to try than to do nothing about your problems.
However, you cannot take any failure at this to mean that all magic or spirituality is null and void. This is an unfortunate consequence of not giving enough time to beginner activities, where you can build up your confidence.
I can definitely understand your pain and frustration, but I also want you to know that I think you are getting stuck on certain details, which then creates cynicism. Given your high intellectual abilities, I am guessing that this is coming from a Virgo influence within your natal chart. It can also come from any earth placements, in a general sense.
No, I do not expect you to suddenly change any behavior overnight, but I do hope that you do not make the very damaging decision to abandon all attempts at helping your soul through energy work.
Although it may not seem like it, everyone else here is trying to prevent the same thing as well. This is because nobody wants to see you potentially hurt yourself even more. That is why people are starting to get frustrated and angry, because this actually a very serious situation.
Anyway, I hope the best for you.
Because I hate myself. And because maybe I don't want to live anymore. But there are one or two people and animals that make me want to live.
I am no longer interested in spirituality. And I apologize for being rude to you. I apologize to the all.
Look, nobody wants for you to suffer here, but people are letting their frustrations show.
Magic is not always easy for a beginner, but excessive criticism or cynicism can kill one's magic, as well.
Your situation was difficult because you wanted to gain opportunities through your magic, but this is also not an easy goal to achieve. Yet, I advised you to do it anyway, believing it is better to try than to do nothing about your problems.
However, you cannot take any failure at this to mean that all magic or spirituality is null and void. This is an unfortunate consequence of not giving enough time to beginner activities, where you can build up your confidence.
I can definitely understand your pain and frustration, but I also want you to know that I think you are getting stuck on certain details, which then creates cynicism. Given your high intellectual abilities, I am guessing that this is coming from a Virgo influence within your natal chart. It can also come from any earth placements, in a general sense.
No, I do not expect you to suddenly change any behavior overnight, but I do hope that you do not make the very damaging decision to abandon all attempts at helping your soul through energy work.
Although it may not seem like it, everyone else here is trying to prevent the same thing as well. This is because nobody wants to see you potentially hurt yourself even more. That is why people are starting to get frustrated and angry, because this actually a very serious situation.
Anyway, I hope the best for you.
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It may be hard to believe, but I appreciate your reply.
The formula is simple. I don't like myself, because I have ruined the "A" side of my life with my bad decisions. (Based on the average age of Hungarian men, I am already on the "B" side.)
And I don't like my current life situation, which is a consequence of side "A". There is little joy in it.
So my past and present is not very fantastic. And the future is not promising. My personal situation is extremely complicated, as I described at the beginning of this topic in point 4. Therefore I am probably facing a lonely life and celibacy. If by some extraordinary chance I do manage to find a partner, I will no longer have children, so this branch of the family will die out with me.
I know law, but I can no longer pass the professional exams, so my options in the legal field are very limited. But I don't know any other profession and I'm not young anymore. My best option at the moment is to find a job in a public office. If not as a lawyer, then in a graduate clerical job. Unfortunately, a graduate job in the public sector doesn't pay much more than what I earn in my current job, which requires 8 years of primary school...
On my public sector salary, I could not even afford an average 1.5 room rent in my city. So if by some chance I manage to get a graduate job, I would still have to live in my parents' house. A poorly maintained, 1 room, total 3 premises miniature apartment with my cat. (Where I have to go to the toilet to clean the aura.) And the design of the house is such that I don't have much privacy. But never mind, because my apartment is so small and overcrowded that I can't have guest in it.
But all this about public sector salaries is just wishful thinking, because as you know, in the 1.5 years since I graduated, I have not been hired for any job. So every month I budget how I can manage not to run out of money completely by the end of the month. And I am disgusted with my current job.
Of course, I'm trying my best to escape forward. I'm working, and I have two active job applications in at the moment. Even though I have a constant ringing in my ears, which alcohol used to be able to eliminate, I no go back to drinking. (Although it is true that it is becoming more and more difficult for me to live an ascetic life. I've also given up coffee, I have no social life at all, so there's not much enjoyment in my life.)
This time I won't go into details: the situation in Hungary and the whole of Eastern Central-Europe is tragic, but my profession does not allow me to work in Western Europe.
You can see from the above that for me, this life doesn't have much good in it anymore. Strengthening my soul will not change that. If Zevism is true, I might have a new opportunity in my next life. If Zevism is not true, then this is the only life I have that I have ruined. Frankly, I don't care which version is the reality. It doesn't matter, because I can't get certainty either by intellectual deduction or personal experience. In one case, it is completely unnecessary to meditate/yoga for an hour or more a day for the rest of my life. In the other case, I might have a chance to start building spiritually in my next life at a normal time, when I'm young, and not on the ruins of a screwed up life.
Even on a simple physical level, I find it difficult to maintain this life without falling completely to shit. I can't fit spiritual work in. I can't feel anything, I can't concentrate, I can only do the exercises bored and empty. I have no faith and no hope in anything. I am unable to see or feel the subtle signs that point the way in spiritual practices. I get no answer from Satan, I cannot find my Guardian Daemon. And I think many of you here would be surprised if I did the Kundalini program and felt nothing. But it is very likely that I would not feel anything. At most, shortness of breath and nerve stimulation. This brings us back to the religious belief: either I believe that shortness of breath and nerve stimulation is some kind of "spiritual energy", or I don't. But as I said, I'm not interested in that anymore. I'm only interested in what I can still physically get out of the "B" side of my life, what I can build out of shit. At best, I'll continue the spiritual work in my next life.
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(...)
It may be hard to believe, but I appreciate your reply.
The formula is simple. I don't like myself, because I have ruined the "A" side of my life with my bad decisions. (Based on the average age of Hungarian men, I am already on the "B" side.)
And I don't like my current life situation, which is a consequence of side "A". There is little joy in it.
So my past and present is not very fantastic. And the future is not promising. My personal situation is extremely complicated, as I described at the beginning of this topic in point 4. Therefore I am probably facing a lonely life and celibacy. If by some extraordinary chance I do manage to find a partner, I will no longer have children, so this branch of the family will die out with me.
I know law, but I can no longer pass the professional exams, so my options in the legal field are very limited. But I don't know any other profession and I'm not young anymore. My best option at the moment is to find a job in a public office. If not as a lawyer, then in a graduate clerical job. Unfortunately, a graduate job in the public sector doesn't pay much more than what I earn in my current job, which requires 8 years of primary school...
On my public sector salary, I could not even afford an average 1.5 room rent in my city. So if by some chance I manage to get a graduate job, I would still have to live in my parents' house. A poorly maintained, 1 room, total 3 premises miniature apartment with my cat. (Where I have to go to the toilet to clean the aura.) And the design of the house is such that I don't have much privacy. But never mind, because my apartment is so small and overcrowded that I can't have guest in it.
But all this about public sector salaries is just wishful thinking, because as you know, in the 1.5 years since I graduated, I have not been hired for any job. So every month I budget how I can manage not to run out of money completely by the end of the month. And I am disgusted with my current job.
Of course, I'm trying my best to escape forward. I'm working, and I have two active job applications in at the moment. Even though I have a constant ringing in my ears, which alcohol used to be able to eliminate, I no go back to drinking. (Although it is true that it is becoming more and more difficult for me to live an ascetic life. I've also given up coffee, I have no social life at all, so there's not much enjoyment in my life.)
This time I won't go into details: the situation in Hungary and the whole of Eastern Central-Europe is tragic, but my profession does not allow me to work in Western Europe.
You can see from the above that for me, this life doesn't have much good in it anymore. Strengthening my soul will not change that. If Zevism is true, I might have a new opportunity in my next life. If Zevism is not true, then this is the only life I have that I have ruined. Frankly, I don't care which version is the reality. It doesn't matter, because I can't get certainty either by intellectual deduction or personal experience. In one case, it is completely unnecessary to meditate/yoga for an hour or more a day for the rest of my life. In the other case, I might have a chance to start building spiritually in my next life at a normal time, when I'm young, and not on the ruins of a screwed up life.
Even on a simple physical level, I find it difficult to maintain this life without falling completely to shit. I can't fit spiritual work in. I can't feel anything, I can't concentrate, I can only do the exercises bored and empty. I have no faith and no hope in anything. I am unable to see or feel the subtle signs that point the way in spiritual practices. I get no answer from Satan, I cannot find my Guardian Daemon. And I think many of you here would be surprised if I did the Kundalini program and felt nothing. But it is very likely that I would not feel anything. At most, shortness of breath and nerve stimulation. This brings us back to the religious belief: either I believe that shortness of breath and nerve stimulation is some kind of "spiritual energy", or I don't. But as I said, I'm not interested in that anymore. I'm only interested in what I can still physically get out of the "B" side of my life, what I can build out of shit. At best, I'll continue the spiritual work in my next life.
My personal situation is extremely complicated, as I described at the beginning of this topic in point 4.
Clarification: points 4-5.
My personal situation is extremely complicated, as I described at the beginning of this topic in point 4.
Clarification: points 4-5.
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YAWN
We have heard the same a dozen times before.
None of us have extraordinarily easy life. Some have luxury, which is the result of hard earned work.
Quit your whining, do something to make yourself have a better outlook and circumstances, but for goodness sake stop begging for our pity with your story. You are not the only one. The world is full of suffering. You have an extraordinary chance to make something out of your life, even extending to future incarnations and most of your effort goes to self pity. Shame, such a shame...
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...
YAWN
We have heard the same a dozen times before.
None of us have extraordinarily easy life. Some have luxury, which is the result of hard earned work.
Quit your whining, do something to make yourself have a better outlook and circumstances, but for goodness sake stop begging for our pity with your story. You are not the only one. The world is full of suffering. You have an extraordinary chance to make something out of your life, even extending to future incarnations and most of your effort goes to self pity. Shame, such a shame...
...
YAWNWe have heard the same a dozen times before.
"The search for happiness is one of the chief sources of unhappiness." - Eric Hoffer
...
YAWNWe have heard the same a dozen times before.
"The search for happiness is one of the chief sources of unhappiness." - Eric Hoffer
At most, shortness of breath and nerve stimulation
I used to have this too and it was very frustrating, almost as if something was wrong with me. Then I discovered that it was because I was super tense, in the sense that my body was always super tense, almost like in fight or flight mode, and there was no relaxation in my mind.
Try and relax your body and mind, seek harmony in your mind. Also remember, mental harmony is a habit, and is something to always have even if you feel like you should not have it because of your bad financial situation.
I am reaching towards a green apple.
At most, shortness of breath and nerve stimulation
I used to have this too and it was very frustrating, almost as if something was wrong with me. Then I discovered that it was because I was super tense, in the sense that my body was always super tense, almost like in fight or flight mode, and there was no relaxation in my mind.
Try and relax your body and mind, seek harmony in your mind. Also remember, mental harmony is a habit, and is something to always have even if you feel like you should not have it because of your bad financial situation.
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YAWN
1. I do not understand you. Blitzkreig wrote to me and I replied to him. Why did you write to me now? I wrote a reply to you recently, but you did not reply:
https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=75726&p=399674#p399674
2. Cobra could have easily handled my deletion 4 months ago when I requested my deletion. Then you shouldn't be reading me now. Although you don't have to, because you can choose not to read what I write.
3.
Thanks for taking time to describe the situation. (...) All in all the situation is dire and complex, yet, some methods would alleviate your woes in short to medium term and others long term to future life/lives (freeing of the soul workings, cleaning your chakras and aura, protection meditations and Spiritual Cleansing rituals). If anything, lessening future suffering would be a wise option instead of totally giving up.
I quote this only because of all the accusations you have been making against me lately. Interestingly, you praised my honesty then and now you write YAWN. And tell me, would your bracketed rabbit's tail list be a great solution to my "dire and complex" situation?
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YAWN
1. I do not understand you. Blitzkreig wrote to me and I replied to him. Why did you write to me now? I wrote a reply to you recently, but you did not reply:
https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=3&t=75726&p=399674#p399674
2. Cobra could have easily handled my deletion 4 months ago when I requested my deletion. Then you shouldn't be reading me now. Although you don't have to, because you can choose not to read what I write.
3.
Thanks for taking time to describe the situation. (...) All in all the situation is dire and complex, yet, some methods would alleviate your woes in short to medium term and others long term to future life/lives (freeing of the soul workings, cleaning your chakras and aura, protection meditations and Spiritual Cleansing rituals). If anything, lessening future suffering would be a wise option instead of totally giving up.
I quote this only because of all the accusations you have been making against me lately. Interestingly, you praised my honesty then and now you write YAWN. And tell me, would your bracketed rabbit's tail list be a great solution to my "dire and complex" situation?
At most, shortness of breath and nerve stimulation
I used to have this too and it was very frustrating, almost as if something was wrong with me. Then I discovered that it was because I was super tense, in the sense that my body was always super tense, almost like in fight or flight mode, and there was no relaxation in my mind.
Try and relax your body and mind, seek harmony in your mind. Also remember, mental harmony is a habit, and is something to always have even if you feel like you should not have it because of your bad financial situation.
This is a key point, especially because Dark Lawyer mentioned tinnitus, which can come from kidney yin deficiency or inflammation. All of this would make someone tense or stressed out.
While the Kundalini yoga should make you feel better in an energizing fashion, if you are dealing with a lack of yin or cooling in the body, then it may be too heating. There is a difference between the positive fire created by kundalini yoga and the negative fire that is inflammation, but it might be hard to distinguish when they occur together.
Pressing either kidney 3 or large intestine 11 for long enough would help the body cool down. Plenty of times I have held these points and literally sighed out of relaxation.
Similar to this point, I think Dark Lawyer should instead focus on the more tangible side of our path. Instead of doing yoga for spiritual powers, why not do it for its ability to make you feel good and happy? Do hatha yoga and also try the various pranayama exercises.
People want him to keep meditating because it would improve his situation, but he has lost confidence in the astral manipulation of our path. Instead, he should focus on the tangible and physical side, which gives immediate feedback, but would also improve his overall situation, due to having higher energy.
At most, shortness of breath and nerve stimulation
I used to have this too and it was very frustrating, almost as if something was wrong with me. Then I discovered that it was because I was super tense, in the sense that my body was always super tense, almost like in fight or flight mode, and there was no relaxation in my mind.
Try and relax your body and mind, seek harmony in your mind. Also remember, mental harmony is a habit, and is something to always have even if you feel like you should not have it because of your bad financial situation.
This is a key point, especially because Dark Lawyer mentioned tinnitus, which can come from kidney yin deficiency or inflammation. All of this would make someone tense or stressed out.
While the Kundalini yoga should make you feel better in an energizing fashion, if you are dealing with a lack of yin or cooling in the body, then it may be too heating. There is a difference between the positive fire created by kundalini yoga and the negative fire that is inflammation, but it might be hard to distinguish when they occur together.
Pressing either kidney 3 or large intestine 11 for long enough would help the body cool down. Plenty of times I have held these points and literally sighed out of relaxation.
Similar to this point, I think Dark Lawyer should instead focus on the more tangible side of our path. Instead of doing yoga for spiritual powers, why not do it for its ability to make you feel good and happy? Do hatha yoga and also try the various pranayama exercises.
People want him to keep meditating because it would improve his situation, but he has lost confidence in the astral manipulation of our path. Instead, he should focus on the tangible and physical side, which gives immediate feedback, but would also improve his overall situation, due to having higher energy.
Some members here would find putting the bottle down or doing a law exam the hardest thing on earth, whereas you found it a cakewalk.
It was not a cakewalk for me in the least. It was two hard fights and there were a lot of rounds in both of them. 8-) Only NakedPluto thinks that I "all of the life doing nothing". But NP sometimes argues with his own ideas, and I don't want to disturb him. :roll:
By the sounds of things it doesn't even seem like your chakras have opened so I'm not sure what to think here.
I'm also not sure what to think here. In this topic, I have accurately quoted the list of results promised by Cobra for the 40th day of the 40-day programme.
I made it clear that after 47 days I felt almost none of the promised results. This has been ignored by everyone in this topic. Instead, I got insulting reactions about me being a liar, being on the intellectual level of a monkey, that I had achieved nothing in my life, that I was a troll, fuck myself, I'm retarded, and that I should be physically beaten. Sorry, but this style has a sectarian feel.
And of course, the reason I wrote about not feeling the promised results of the 40-day program is because I was so fucking happy to have done the meditation program for 47 days with no results, in addition to my 12-hour job. I wrote about this because I'm a liar and a retard, and the joy for me is when I'm working without results.
You're probably right, and I really don't have my chakras open. Either because there is no such thing as a chakra, or because the 40-day program doesn't work, or because I am unfit for spirituality. I honestly no longer care which of the three is the real answer. If I do, I'll have to find out for myself, because there is no communication on this topic here. Which is interesting because Cobra just wrote the other day that there are no forbidden topics on this forum. There are indeed no forbidden topics, only those that result mothering.
Some members here would find putting the bottle down or doing a law exam the hardest thing on earth, whereas you found it a cakewalk.
It was not a cakewalk for me in the least. It was two hard fights and there were a lot of rounds in both of them. 8-) Only NakedPluto thinks that I "all of the life doing nothing". But NP sometimes argues with his own ideas, and I don't want to disturb him. :roll:
By the sounds of things it doesn't even seem like your chakras have opened so I'm not sure what to think here.
I'm also not sure what to think here. In this topic, I have accurately quoted the list of results promised by Cobra for the 40th day of the 40-day programme.
I made it clear that after 47 days I felt almost none of the promised results. This has been ignored by everyone in this topic. Instead, I got insulting reactions about me being a liar, being on the intellectual level of a monkey, that I had achieved nothing in my life, that I was a troll, fuck myself, I'm retarded, and that I should be physically beaten. Sorry, but this style has a sectarian feel.
And of course, the reason I wrote about not feeling the promised results of the 40-day program is because I was so fucking happy to have done the meditation program for 47 days with no results, in addition to my 12-hour job. I wrote about this because I'm a liar and a retard, and the joy for me is when I'm working without results.
You're probably right, and I really don't have my chakras open. Either because there is no such thing as a chakra, or because the 40-day program doesn't work, or because I am unfit for spirituality. I honestly no longer care which of the three is the real answer. If I do, I'll have to find out for myself, because there is no communication on this topic here. Which is interesting because Cobra just wrote the other day that there are no forbidden topics on this forum. There are indeed no forbidden topics, only those that result mothering.
"The search for happiness is one of the chief sources of unhappiness." - Eric Hoffer
I agree. However, to realize that, a certain search has to be done, I would say.
To supercharge your magickal experience: Hera's Guidance
For beginners: A Beginner's Guide
"The search for happiness is one of the chief sources of unhappiness." - Eric Hoffer
I agree. However, to realize that, a certain search has to be done, I would say.
[...]
Here we have members who have a horrible past and yet now they are there having a fulfilling life. The important thing is to turn the page. Feeling pity for the past does no one any good, what is the purpose of being continually in this state? The past is the past, peel off the label and start life again, no matter if you are 40 years old.
Watch this short video:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qX9FSZJu448
[...]
Here we have members who have a horrible past and yet now they are there having a fulfilling life. The important thing is to turn the page. Feeling pity for the past does no one any good, what is the purpose of being continually in this state? The past is the past, peel off the label and start life again, no matter if you are 40 years old.
Watch this short video:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qX9FSZJu448
I made it clear that after 47 days I felt almost none of the promised results. This has been ignored by everyone in this topic. Instead, I got insulting reactions about me being a liar, being on the intellectual level of a monkey, that I had achieved nothing in my life, that I was a troll, fuck myself, I'm retarded, and that I should be physically beaten. Sorry, but this style has a sectarian feel.
And of course, the reason I wrote about not feeling the promised results of the 40-day program is because I was so fucking happy to have done the meditation program for 47 days with no results, in addition to my 12-hour job. I wrote about this because I'm a liar and a retard, and the joy for me is when I'm working without results.
You're probably right, and I really don't have my chakras open. Either because there is no such thing as a chakra, or because the 40-day program doesn't work, or because I am unfit for spirituality. I honestly no longer care which of the three is the real answer. If I do, I'll have to find out for myself, because there is no communication on this topic here. Which is interesting because Cobra just wrote the other day that there are no forbidden topics on this forum. There are indeed no forbidden topics, only those that result mothering.
People get angry, and maybe they don't know how to help you, but they still want to. So, they may try to "force" you to do what they want through the use of insults or other harsh language.
Overall, the main problem I see is just that you are being way too hard on yourself, and external criticism is not going to help this. However, please also understand that the 40 day program is only the beginning. It is to be continued and expanded upon as you continue along your advancement path.
It took me perhaps 6 months of consistent practice to start to feel like I was confidently "doing something" with energy and magic. About every 6 months after that is how long it takes for me to feel like I have made decent progress and advanced to the "next level".
If you are missing this initial period to develop confidence and competency, then it is not surprising why you feel how you currently do.
Remember that our astral senses have been cursed and degenerated, therefore some faith in our magic is required until we can develop the ability to sense the evidence of our work. If you don't believe me here, then focus 1 hour of work solely on astral sight and you will see it start to open up, even if partially.
This situation is very similar to how people may struggle to get results in the gym as a beginner, but it is even harder because you cannot easily measure it. Imagine if you had to actually train your eyes to see your muscles at the same time as trying to train the muscle itself.
It is certainly not easy, but it is definitely doable if you give it a chance. I know you are frustrated, but I know you don't think everyone here is simply crazy, either. Because a lot of people have directly experienced results from magic, that is why they are aggressively trying to convince you now.
I made it clear that after 47 days I felt almost none of the promised results. This has been ignored by everyone in this topic. Instead, I got insulting reactions about me being a liar, being on the intellectual level of a monkey, that I had achieved nothing in my life, that I was a troll, fuck myself, I'm retarded, and that I should be physically beaten. Sorry, but this style has a sectarian feel.
And of course, the reason I wrote about not feeling the promised results of the 40-day program is because I was so fucking happy to have done the meditation program for 47 days with no results, in addition to my 12-hour job. I wrote about this because I'm a liar and a retard, and the joy for me is when I'm working without results.
You're probably right, and I really don't have my chakras open. Either because there is no such thing as a chakra, or because the 40-day program doesn't work, or because I am unfit for spirituality. I honestly no longer care which of the three is the real answer. If I do, I'll have to find out for myself, because there is no communication on this topic here. Which is interesting because Cobra just wrote the other day that there are no forbidden topics on this forum. There are indeed no forbidden topics, only those that result mothering.
People get angry, and maybe they don't know how to help you, but they still want to. So, they may try to "force" you to do what they want through the use of insults or other harsh language.
Overall, the main problem I see is just that you are being way too hard on yourself, and external criticism is not going to help this. However, please also understand that the 40 day program is only the beginning. It is to be continued and expanded upon as you continue along your advancement path.
It took me perhaps 6 months of consistent practice to start to feel like I was confidently "doing something" with energy and magic. About every 6 months after that is how long it takes for me to feel like I have made decent progress and advanced to the "next level".
If you are missing this initial period to develop confidence and competency, then it is not surprising why you feel how you currently do.
Remember that our astral senses have been cursed and degenerated, therefore some faith in our magic is required until we can develop the ability to sense the evidence of our work. If you don't believe me here, then focus 1 hour of work solely on astral sight and you will see it start to open up, even if partially.
This situation is very similar to how people may struggle to get results in the gym as a beginner, but it is even harder because you cannot easily measure it. Imagine if you had to actually train your eyes to see your muscles at the same time as trying to train the muscle itself.
It is certainly not easy, but it is definitely doable if you give it a chance. I know you are frustrated, but I know you don't think everyone here is simply crazy, either. Because a lot of people have directly experienced results from magic, that is why they are aggressively trying to convince you now.
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