I need help and guidance

[sonya2006]

I was interested in spiritual Satanism and loved Satan and did the commitment ritual and felt a vibration in my body and only listened to silence and a voice from my body. This was two years ago or more after that I kept looking for any guidance and found someone who told me to do meditations and I was even seeing energy and light without the need to imagine and I felt many things but he was making me believe many things, he was making me break and distracted and be under more pressure. One day he told me that I would cross a wall and be in the other world. This actually happened and I spoke and they spoke to me there and on that day when I slept I woke up to a strong blowing sound like an explosion and pressure on my shoulders and knees and high heat in my body. I went back to sleep and dreamed many things that were all real and I felt someone kissing me and I felt someone hugging me and I saw his hand it was like a shadow and I felt and heard his strong breathing and his heat. This continued for days and then he disappeared and I went to the wall many times and I was talking to one of them there constantly and he was telling me things and he did not do them with other things that this person did It made me very frustrated and I moved away from the matter. I tried to summon a demon and I did not succeed. Even in the star temple, a demon came and told me that he is the demon I am trying to summon. I am very frustrated, especially since I loved the demon very much and I want to reach something on his path and I want to be free from my family because they hinder me in everything. I cannot progress in anything because of them and they are bad to a degree you cannot imagine. They are Muslims, so I wanted to succeed in telepathy to be freed. I wanted to succeed in being freed from them so that I can move forward. Please, I need your help. I decided to erase my old experience with Satanism and start over.

 

[DreamWolf]

Hey there, I hope this message still finds you on time...

As someone with no authority on real knowledge I can only repeat the things suggested to me, hoping that, being my sentiment on proper course of action for a solution too, it may help you...

Doing the meditations and reading/listening to the sermons are what gives us major comprehension and ability to improve and solve things as we advance on the path... It's probably a good idea to ask questions here that are parts, related to ways to solve things, of the path we undertake...

There are many extremely knowledgeable people here, I do feel that one way or another, real good, proper guidance can be found...

Sounds to me like you have some pretty nifty astral skills goin on over there, stuff many only dream of achieving... I noticed a couple times how spirits "dwell in walls"... As in, literally I'd become suddenly aware of a spirit just always being inside the wall next to the bed or a spot I sit a lot at aye ahaha... Fascinating experience, one of the two times it occured, the dude looked so bristled when I noticed him bahaha! (As in, seeing things in my mind, picking up in that manner... That was in our old home and I still get a kick out of the memory, I wonder if he came along with us to this new home we just moved into ahaha, and if the other dude from the previous place we'd been living at came along too ahaha... Both seemed to be vampire type spirits, at least it felt like that was their vibes... I was glad to have picked up on both of em... )

I hope you're still around and advancing in a satisfactory manner in thine journey! Even if not, don't beat yourself up, Father Satan is merciful beyond measure, we all have our own pacings, I wish you boundless tides of glorious blessings over there!