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Carvik , man.
You're now talking with a guy which has most of his planets in an Air sing, I am not gonna go into details about my personal details obviously but I have some good information for yourself.
First and most important before jumping into other things I want to share the most 'important' aspects of what I am about to say. Although it's been some writing as you can still see by reading this , maybe I am being friendly or a jerk or both.
Some advices and sharing's for you, consider this your lucky day, everyone's lucky day as this information is quite crucial and very helpful and I am not saying this to blabla or whatever, I am very happy to help , as the God's themselves helped me, I feel this pure and deep desire to share some of their Grace , in all of you Brothers and Sisters.
Advices:
- Always remember , no matter what happens or what do you , fails ,breakdowns , obstacle's , limitations , things, the universe , things will always happens and the concept of "failure" is inevitable , as Saturn is the most important planet in astrology , and this is with a reason as Saturn rules the reason in itself.
So don't even think about failure, that will occur but do not let that be a excuse while you can grow as powerful as the Sun and become what we are supposed to be come, our Higher and most developed Self. Pain will also arrive in the process of transformation but do not let this scare you either , this is a normal process , focus on what truly matter.
- You said you are and your life is defined by the air element but have you also check that in your astrology natal chart? Do your chart, find more about yourself and your own path , this is the highest form ever to truly discover who you are and what to become, what are your best talents and powers and your weaknesses also.
- Note somewhere your experiences of how you truly felt when you were meditating and how life was back then, did you had more then what you currently have? And by this I mean to more things then just material such as your own wellbeing in the first place.
-Find a factor , a reason , something to motivate you and mostly to keep pushing towards what you want, but sometimes we don't really know what we want and that's okay but then think rational and logical although we speak about spiritual stuff one should always remember that mind is important as well and void meditation is a good way of controlling our own minds , from many personal experiences and a lot of studying from many practices and exercises and void meditation give me best results in obtaining more vivid and lucid dreams and not just this but many many other advantages even if we do share some let's say information's about our own experiences we wouldn't be truly able to fully understand and even believe some of them.
I will end this message with a following true story and I will do my best from now on to be more active and help and together we get stronger , it's good to have a EGO and truly believe something , deeply but we should also relax and breath and listen to each other and truly listen not just pretending to or just 10% giving effort to understand some things due to some reason as One might had some traumas or thinks he knows all and had been trough all possible shit, this kind of person are just fated to fail more then everyone else , remember that success means to fail 9 times but stand back up 10 times same goes for everything else not just meditating.
Myself honestly personally I am some trough shit and bad things as well but we gotta wake up and remember what was once important and still is and we know this deep within no matter of how many excuses we gonna give for our incapability to meditate on that moment or every day beein the case.
One should also remember that if you do decide to meditate for a long term with constant effort , daily , no fucking around and stuff and then you all of the sudden quit and turn into more even toxic habits then of which you already had or have or new ones and so on ,because the soul itself will try to make some kind of artificial effect of what true power means and to this I refer to one's capacity to absorb and use the energy, anyways. So what are you feeling is normal although you said that you're experienced a sudden change of mod and mentality and this can be due many reasons: As the one I've just said , enemies, other entities , bad energies around and also sometimes ourselves can be actually our biggest enemies in most cases.
As and ending quote I truly wish you all of the best and success in everything you do and desire. May the God's be with you for an eternity.
Be blessed , never lose faith and believe in the God's and mostly and not lastly in YOURSELF. If you lose fait in yourself then you stand to lose nearly and most definitely probably everything.