I feel this is what i need, what i really want.

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lately my life has been in the shit hole. i feel like i need to be guided. i use to be a believer of god but what has he ever done for me?? would he really let me go through this shit if he really cared? id like to know what are the joys of being under satans protection. i know for this i have to recite the prayer and write my name in blood for him. this will last my whole life. id just like to know from those who have done it. has ur life gotten better? is it worth it?? everyone keeps saying "ur stupid for thinking he can save u" or "there just trying to decieve you to get ur soul and then u will be screwed" i know satan exists. i know his demons are real. i just want to talk to someone who has done this and knows more than i do about this.