I don't know what to do..

Practice void meditation.
We don't pray to Satan, but we can always talk to him when we need to.
He won't get angry at you, unless you spread those horrible lies about him and everyone in Hell and support the enemy.
Use what you have, Satan understands. Not everyone had everything when they did the dedication ritual. Some people had to improvise.

I feel like I'm stuck. I'm new to this, and I've read a few things from templeofzeus.orgI've also printed a few things to read at home..
I've been wanting to dedicate to Father, but..I feel like I'm not worthy enough. There's always something in my way, something interrupting. I can't meditate, I can barely pray to Father.. And I fear that he'll get angry with me if I don't do these things.
I wish to dedicate, but I don't have the proper candles to use.. I have an all-black outfit to wear, but..I don't have the candles. Do I really need the candles? It says in templeofzeus.org that I should have candles..
Someone please help?