Welcome to our New Forums!

Our forums have been upgraded and expanded!

I don't get it...

solarsonia666

New member
Joined
Jun 8, 2012
Messages
15
A friend helped me get back on my feet, and I made spiritual progress.

I had been doing the 40-day MUNKA working, doing protection every day, doing cleaning every day, link severing... overall felt completely great and like myself again. I even opened my Third eye, and partially opened the crown chakra. This was over the course of 6 or so days.

Then, 2 days ago, I woke up and... didn't really feel spiritual. I said to fuck with it, and went and did my protection and cleaning anyhow.

As the day went by though, I just started to feel... negative. Like how I did before I started back up meditating.
It got progressively worse, despite doing a protection+deflection ritual, attempting to clean out my energy and empower... it just kept getting worse.

My heart started to hurt (like somebody was trying to rip it out), head started to hurt, and before I knew it I was back to being depressed, suicidal, and felt like I was drowning emotionally.

As the night went on, my mind started to break again. I attacked my roommate against my will, and was in complete agony from him trying to banish whatever it was.

I don't think it ever left, and I haven't felt any better since; I feel like I'm broken, and part of me wonders if it's even me typing this up. I'm stable, but on the verge of collapse at any moment... and I know this sounds, odd, but my nervous system hurts... sometimes it feels like it's trying to rip itself out.

I want to be fixed... or fix myself.
I'm tired of being like this, for years... what do I do?
 
Keep meditating. Keep strong!What you have written sounds like an attack, which happened to me, at the time I picked myself up and started a good meditation program and was making progress.It could also be your self-doubt creeping back in. Have trust in yourself, in your meditations and in your workings. If you are doing something incorrect, your GD will bring your attention to it.

From: solarsonia666 <solarsonia666@...
To: JoyofSatan666@yahoogroups.com
Sent: Thursday, August 29, 2013 5:54:00 AM
Subject: [JoyofSatan666] I don't get it...

  A friend helped me get back on my feet, and I made spiritual progress.

I had been doing the 40-day MUNKA working, doing protection every day, doing cleaning every day, link severing... overall felt completely great and like myself again. I even opened my Third eye, and partially opened the crown chakra. This was over the course of 6 or so days.

Then, 2 days ago, I woke up and... didn't really feel spiritual. I said to fuck with it, and went and did my protection and cleaning anyhow.

As the day went by though, I just started to feel... negative. Like how I did before I started back up meditating.
It got progressively worse, despite doing a protection+deflection ritual, attempting to clean out my energy and empower... it just kept getting worse.

My heart started to hurt (like somebody was trying to rip it out), head started to hurt, and before I knew it I was back to being depressed, suicidal, and felt like I was drowning emotionally.

As the night went on, my mind started to break again. I attacked my roommate against my will, and was in complete agony from him trying to banish whatever it was.

I don't think it ever left, and I haven't felt any better since; I feel like I'm broken, and part of me wonders if it's even me typing this up. I'm stable, but on the verge of collapse at any moment... and I know this sounds, odd, but my nervous system hurts... sometimes it feels like it's trying to rip itself out.

I want to be fixed... or fix myself.
I'm tired of being like this, for years... what do I do?



 
Its clear whats happening. The enemy want you to stop from progressing, so they take advantage of your weaknesses and you start feeling this way. The only way is to battle through it and keep consistant.

Do you not notice that as you progressivly meditated less and less, you grew worse and worse. Use the great feeling of when you were meditating at a peak to drive you onwards.

It will pass if you keep persistant.

-En Haradren Amlug.

--- In [url=mailto:JoyofSatan666@yahoogroups.com]JoyofSatan666@yahoogroups.com[/url], "solarsonia666" <solarsonia666@... wrote:

A friend helped me get back on my feet, and I made spiritual progress.

I had been doing the 40-day MUNKA working, doing protection every day, doing cleaning every day, link severing... overall felt completely great and like myself again. I even opened my Third eye, and partially opened the crown chakra. This was over the course of 6 or so days.

Then, 2 days ago, I woke up and... didn't really feel spiritual. I said to fuck with it, and went and did my protection and cleaning anyhow.

As the day went by though, I just started to feel... negative. Like how I did before I started back up meditating.
It got progressively worse, despite doing a protection+deflection ritual, attempting to clean out my energy and empower... it just kept getting worse.

My heart started to hurt (like somebody was trying to rip it out), head started to hurt, and before I knew it I was back to being depressed, suicidal, and felt like I was drowning emotionally.

As the night went on, my mind started to break again. I attacked my roommate against my will, and was in complete agony from him trying to banish whatever it was.

I don't think it ever left, and I haven't felt any better since; I feel like I'm broken, and part of me wonders if it's even me typing this up. I'm stable, but on the verge of collapse at any moment... and I know this sounds, odd, but my nervous system hurts... sometimes it feels like it's trying to rip itself out.

I want to be fixed... or fix myself.
I'm tired of being like this, for years... what do I do?
 
Perhaps your energy levels fell. This can happen usually when the previous days-day you do a lot of meditations which produce energy ( runes affiramtions, chakras openings breaths , yoga etc ) and then from the last day on you suddenly do let's say half of them. Then your energy levels drop dramatically and the problem of bad mood appears.
HAIL SATAN!
 

Al Jilwah: Chapter IV

"It is my desire that all my followers unite in a bond of unity, lest those who are without prevail against them." - Shaitan

Back
Top