Dragonheart666
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I Seriously..!!! And honestly feel like I am not doing enough. People on here are smart and have it together. Lol
And all I do is work in a grocery store! And come home and cook and clean.
I know I have time to read and study! Laugh out loud or I wouldn't be on here! And then there are those days where I don't feel like doing anything much at all! Other than hang out in my bedroom and listen to music. And read and study! I hate watching tv! I don't even go to the movie theater anymore!
Video games you get bored with after a while... everything is expensive these days! So going to dance studios and fitness clubs are out of the question for right now? I'm 52 years old! And I am somebody that loves to dance! And get out and do things anyway..
I hate this time of year! I hate being a shut-in! Because of the cold and because of the pollution all the crap were breathing in the air out here..where I live.
I don't like shopping in the same shopping malls or the same Walmart and grocery stores!.
People are too antagonizing! And it's too stressful! I am not somebody who likes to ski.. to much money...!!!
Plus I don't like being in crowds! And picking up germs and diseases! And picking up whatever cold germ or flu bug whatever people have that are passing around!
I hate being in doctor's offices as it is!
And I will admit it! I love to travel! But everything has gone up and places are not the same much anymore! People are not as friendly as they used to be.
It saddens me to think that there's so much hatred out there! Instead of people that want to go out and have fun! Longing to go out and have a party and have fun! Which makes me want to go back in time and relive the 80s!
And hang out with my girlfriends and go to rock concerts! Go shopping at the mall! And the fun I used to have growing up as a young girl!❤
I miss going to school.
I enjoy learning things! And it doesn't matter how old I am. And it seems that I've forgotten a lot! Especially when it comes to my handwriting! And the way I put things together, typing and posting Etc. Because I got used to texting! My handwriting and my grammar skills have gone downhill! In spite of all the reading that I do! At least I have a memory. And remember everything that I've read. Other than that! I just feel like I'm wasting away!...
And yes I do have seasonal depression! I do get really dark and moody this time of year!. I get on here and I seem anxious. I just want to jump in and do everything all at once! And I drive people nuts.. and it seems like I'm pushing people away! I feel like I'm being in a nuisance. And normally that's not who I am
I don't want to be a bother to people and I don't like wasting my time either! I do whatever I can to entertain myself on my own when I'm at home especially when I'm not on social media or anything like that. And seriously all I want to do was just get on here and hang out with people that are comforting to me! And just to keep up on what is going on and find out what I'm supposed to do and what I'm supposed to learn so that I could keep ahead! And be like everybody else on here.
And it's sad because I know that you guys are busy too! And you guys have your things to do! And I don't want to get in the way like some pesky little sibling kid..
You guys have a right to do your thing and do as you please just the same as the next person!
I do appreciate your help! You guys have been kind in every way! And you guys have been very helpful
And I appreciate that! But today it has been really weird on here.
Almost spooky because nobody has really done or said anything much? Normally it's just buzzing with people! People literally jumping out of the woodwork asking a question and starting a conversation or a thread.
Eager to talk about something or solve a problem? Or just to get on here and have fun and study and read! Just the same as I do. And then I take a look at my room and how dirty it is? Piles of laundry all over the place... I'm lucky I've got to clean toilet to sit on laugh out loud! Which reminds me that I need to tidy up a bit! And do things on my end!. And get things cleaned up and ready for this spring. There is so much that I want to do! And yet there is so much that I need to do! And focus on and pay attention to!...THAT I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHERE TO START...!???
and I hate cleaning up messes! And I don't like the idea of being a slob!... and I don't like being left behind either! And being one of those little pesky kids tagging along the group annoying the shit out of people either. 
and somebody like me should be proud of being my age! Knowing that I've got better things to do with my time and energy! That I've got plenty to read and catch up on. And I've got plenty to do here at home!..and then I complain....? And still I feel like I'm not doing enough...
And all I do is work in a grocery store! And come home and cook and clean.
I know I have time to read and study! Laugh out loud or I wouldn't be on here! And then there are those days where I don't feel like doing anything much at all! Other than hang out in my bedroom and listen to music. And read and study! I hate watching tv! I don't even go to the movie theater anymore!
Video games you get bored with after a while... everything is expensive these days! So going to dance studios and fitness clubs are out of the question for right now? I'm 52 years old! And I am somebody that loves to dance! And get out and do things anyway..
I hate this time of year! I hate being a shut-in! Because of the cold and because of the pollution all the crap were breathing in the air out here..where I live.
I don't like shopping in the same shopping malls or the same Walmart and grocery stores!.
People are too antagonizing! And it's too stressful! I am not somebody who likes to ski.. to much money...!!!
Plus I don't like being in crowds! And picking up germs and diseases! And picking up whatever cold germ or flu bug whatever people have that are passing around!
I hate being in doctor's offices as it is!
And I will admit it! I love to travel! But everything has gone up and places are not the same much anymore! People are not as friendly as they used to be.
It saddens me to think that there's so much hatred out there! Instead of people that want to go out and have fun! Longing to go out and have a party and have fun! Which makes me want to go back in time and relive the 80s!
And hang out with my girlfriends and go to rock concerts! Go shopping at the mall! And the fun I used to have growing up as a young girl!❤
I miss going to school.
I enjoy learning things! And it doesn't matter how old I am. And it seems that I've forgotten a lot! Especially when it comes to my handwriting! And the way I put things together, typing and posting Etc. Because I got used to texting! My handwriting and my grammar skills have gone downhill! In spite of all the reading that I do! At least I have a memory. And remember everything that I've read. Other than that! I just feel like I'm wasting away!...
And yes I do have seasonal depression! I do get really dark and moody this time of year!. I get on here and I seem anxious. I just want to jump in and do everything all at once! And I drive people nuts.. and it seems like I'm pushing people away! I feel like I'm being in a nuisance. And normally that's not who I am
I don't want to be a bother to people and I don't like wasting my time either! I do whatever I can to entertain myself on my own when I'm at home especially when I'm not on social media or anything like that. And seriously all I want to do was just get on here and hang out with people that are comforting to me! And just to keep up on what is going on and find out what I'm supposed to do and what I'm supposed to learn so that I could keep ahead! And be like everybody else on here. And it's sad because I know that you guys are busy too! And you guys have your things to do! And I don't want to get in the way like some pesky little sibling kid..
You guys have a right to do your thing and do as you please just the same as the next person!
I do appreciate your help! You guys have been kind in every way! And you guys have been very helpful
And I appreciate that! But today it has been really weird on here.
Almost spooky because nobody has really done or said anything much? Normally it's just buzzing with people! People literally jumping out of the woodwork asking a question and starting a conversation or a thread.
Eager to talk about something or solve a problem? Or just to get on here and have fun and study and read! Just the same as I do. And then I take a look at my room and how dirty it is? Piles of laundry all over the place... I'm lucky I've got to clean toilet to sit on laugh out loud! Which reminds me that I need to tidy up a bit! And do things on my end!. And get things cleaned up and ready for this spring. There is so much that I want to do! And yet there is so much that I need to do! And focus on and pay attention to!...THAT I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHERE TO START...!???
and I hate cleaning up messes! And I don't like the idea of being a slob!... and I don't like being left behind either! And being one of those little pesky kids tagging along the group annoying the shit out of people either. and somebody like me should be proud of being my age! Knowing that I've got better things to do with my time and energy! That I've got plenty to read and catch up on. And I've got plenty to do here at home!..and then I complain....? And still I feel like I'm not doing enough...
🏖.. I miss having the blue skies the green grass under my feet! And the smell of somebody barbecuing chicken
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YOU are right on. About getting out there and facing crowds and having fun! I do like going shopping and spending time with friends. I know people are busy and they have their jobs and everything. And I respect that! And yes I would like to go into the forest and scream at the top of my lungs and just go play in the snow. I really haven't been out too much these last couple of months laugh out loud people in my neighborhood are kind of annoying. And I know places are expensive and after dealing with the covid I haven't been around people too much and I've been avoiding crowds. Especially this time of year. I miss being able to go out and have fun and enjoying myself. And there is a sense of freedom and just letting yourself go and having that Adventure! Bringing out my inner child and laughing and playing like I used to. And no laugh out loud I'm not looking for hate! I did with plenty of that as it is dealing with Facebook and social media. There is too much hate in this world and that is the problem. It has kind of turned me into an introvert with all of this hatred and all of this cruelty that people dish out all over always looking for an excuse to start an argument or a battle somewhere. I am somebody that likes to do arts and crafts. And I am somebody who likes to be home when I want to be home. Especially when it comes down to saving money and being frugal. And it's not so much that I haven't really done much since the covid and I've had a battle for any get rid of that I had that shit for about 2 months. And I almost ended up in the hospital and since then I have been pretty careful with crowds and people. And I just do whatever I can to keep myself busy and just to let you know I was having a really bad day yesterday! The day before that my computer was not cooperating and there were all kinds of technical problems going on and it was not cool I was not trying to start a fight with anybody or blame anybody for anything! But I sort of felt like I was in the way bugging people and I felt like I was being annoying instead of taking care of my problems with the computer which only took me a few minutes to adjust and take care of! I wasn't trying to blame anybody for anything and I was not trying to start a fight! Believe me! Laugh out loud! I am not somebody who enjoys arguing and fighting with people! That is what draws me away from people and that is what makes me want to stay in the house and find better things to do and stay out of the way of the hatred that people dish out! If I have to fight laugh out loud and say what I have to say no problem! I'm not afraid of people and I'm not a coward! But then again people have a tendency to get under your skin these days and they know exactly the ropes to pull! I have done a lot of good things for people and I've done a lot of wonderful things for my family and for myself and for those I care about! But when it comes down to Friendship these days? A lot of people don't know what they want or what they're stepping into? Especially when it comes to helping people or giving advice! People have a tendency to take things the wrong way! Friendship these days is rare and it's not easy to find! Everyone nowadays is looking to rip each other's heads off and start a argument people are so fussy these days you can't even have a conversation let alone tell a joke! And everybody is always out there to jump on somebody's face and brutally attack somebody! I'm not afraid of fighting and putting somebody back in their place? But I don't have the time and the patience to put up with rudeness and hate! We've got so much of that shit in this world! That I would rather go sit up in the mountains and go fishing? Or hang out in a coffee shop and have a cup of coffee and read a good book!? Or go to a yoga studio somewhere where I can meditate or be somewhere where I feel wanted and accepted without having to prove myself or change something about myself! I didn't mean to give you the impression that I'm trying to start anything stupid laugh out loud that's the last thing I want is to do anything stupid but then again we're human and we make mistakes! And that is how people learn! I know you mean well and I read your post! And I appreciate your help and your advice
I'm a jerk sometimes myself without realizing it, think nothing of it. Sorry it took so long to reply, I worked a 12 hour shift today then had things with the parents I had to take care of. So I can't reply when I'd like to. You absolutely have not been a pain. In fact it makes me feel better knowing that on a bad day you can open yourself up to the forums and not get jumped about being obnoxious. Sometimes everyone needs someone to talk to, that's the entire purpose of community. So always feel free to be open and honest about yourself with me at the very least. And if you were being confrontational multiple people would have called you out on it. I'm not getting that vibe at all from you. It sounds like its been a rough couple of months, and as we learn on here its best to get that energy out rather than keep it in and bottled up.
