I am new, please i need some help.

[angelinay0403]

Me and my husband decided to become ss after all of our life, being christians. We want to go on and make the commitment with satan, but i still have the though of our father satan is evil, even though we know is not true. I get scare every time i try to meditate. How do i clean my self of all of this. I read a lot in website and we now open our eyes and see the truth. But i don.t want to be scare, i want to worship satan with all my heart.
After doing research in the joyofsatan.org web page, later on that night i couldn't sleep, finally i felt as sleep and i had a weird dream. I dreamed that someone was holding me tide, and at first it was a good feeling, but then i got scare, and wanted to let loose but i couldnt, i wanted to scream and i didnt have a voice, finally after forcing my self out i woke up.
I was very scare after the dream. Does this mean anything? 
I will appreciate any responses.
Thank you.

 

[Magus Immortalis]

I was stopped from dedicating to Lord Satan, and it didn't work. I eventually dedicated.I should have come to Spiritual Satanism and Lord Satan many years ago, but fear and hesitation was put into me at the time I found the JoS website and I didn't realize the source of the fear and hesitation, which was from the enemy.
If you feel ready, step forward, have courage, and do the dedication. It is the enemies of Lord Satan which is preventing you from dedicating. They will even go so far to frighten us in our dreams, which I have had experience with also. This is what it sounds like, from what you described.
It's good that you are studying the JoS site, please keep doing so. Knowledge gets rid of fear and ignorance.
Please also see the exposingchristianity.com website.

On Sunday, May 11, 2014 11:28:49 AM, "angelinay0403@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected] wrote:
  Me and my husband decided to become ss after all of our life, being christians. We want to go on and make the commitment with satan, but i still have the though of our father satan is evil, even though we know is not true. I get scare every time i try to meditate. How do i clean my self of all of this. I read a lot in website and we now open our eyes and see the truth. But i don.t want to be scare, i want to worship satan with all my heart.
After doing research in the joyofsatan.org web page, later on that night i couldn't sleep, finally i felt as sleep and i had a weird dream. I dreamed that someone was holding me tide, and at first it was a good feeling, but then i got scare, and wanted to let loose but i couldnt, i wanted to scream and i didnt have a voice, finally after forcing my self out i woke up.
I was very scare after the dream. Does this mean anything? 
I will appreciate any responses.
Thank you.

 

[angelinay0403]

Thank you so much!!! I will keep reading and me and my husband will commit.

 

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I've been a Satanist since 2003 so trust me when I tell you that nothing negative has ever happened to me because I worship Father SataN. Mostly dreams mean completely different things then what we see. For example, according to some doctors and researchers who study dreaming, a big petrifying snake often represents sex. So don't worry about your bad dream, maybe the bad dream was just a coincidence. Trust in SataN and everything will be fine.. Heil SataN.

 

[angelinay0403]

Thank You.

 

[cuttergeorge]

hie i need to met some of our menbers but i don't know where to find them i have a satanist now for 4days

 

[angelinay0403]

Thank you. I feel a lot better, the more i read the better.

 

[grizzle94]

Hey Angelinay0403 I remember experiencing something quite similar when breaking away from the xtian belief I was raised with. It is a war of emotions taking place inside you. I can only explain it as your subconscious making a transition from the old to the new. It's 3 years later now after my incident and I'm completely at peace now with moving forward on this path. Took the time to explore my beliefs and the people around me and ended up back here now ready to move forward without any internal conflict People are quick to say something is an attack from the enemy and such, but sometimes it's just some inner conflict.. solved only by rebuilding yourself and the way you view the world. Well that was my experience at least. Hail

 

[angelinay0403]

I really think you understand my point.