I’m not new here but I’ve definitely changed

[CormacArdRuairiOMorrigan]

I have been here since 2002 and it was joy of Satan and it definitely has been through some changes but by the way, I absolutely like the name change and I’ve had more than one account on here.
I just wanted to say for a couple years. It was really toxic here and I’m very happy to see the changes being made and it’s really calm down probably removing toxic energy and individuals.

Anyways, or reason why I’m here the reason why I felt isolated and alienated is because I am a trans man and yes, I have been repeatedly attacked here after I’ve been loyal for so long and it really felt like a betrayal. I am not here to seek validation or approval. But to speak my truth and authenticity.

I have changed over the years and I’m 42 years old now and I enjoy being who I am l, but I do know this much. I will always try to be respectful and honor boundaries. so to speak over the years as I have studied some of the stuff that is in this forums and the website, which by the way, I love the changes be made on the website itself, but however, I just wanted to say that I’m going through a healing process myself because I have suffered and been attacked for a very long time. I think what really pisses me off about it is when it comes to the enemy who constantly want to attack you until you force to be someone you are not. I do agree though that one should avoid getting surgeries unless they are medically necessary and causes discomfort because trust me back in 2021. I was in a terrible car accident and I was in a coma for three months And I have wonderful news though I got to see things in my near death experience and it was absolutely wild , heaven and no hell. No jesus. Etc if anyone wants to know more about that, let me know.

So i am a trans man I’m deciding to work with my body naturally and I’m not getting any testosterone shots, which I was on for a while and my voice is deeper and my beard is permanent and my body structure has always been masculine even without the shots in the get-go. I’ve always been naturally very strong and masculine for a biological female, but I carried myself as a man and I’ve always done it even when I was a child. I go by he/him pronouns , I think I might be going to do some medical to see if I am actually intersex because of the way I am biologically speaking, but despite what my biology is, I intend to work with it naturally and I was just wondering if anyone has any new meditations I can work with when it comes to my soul because I am just now working to get back on that track and it’s been absolute bs for me.

And I just want everybody know I have been working behind the scenes as a Nazi myself legally speaking and politically for an example , Christian nationalism which is a part of project 2025 and I have actually made some post about Trump, Putin, Epstein, etc all being Jews and that the policies being pressed that looks like a ethnic cleansing is Jewish motivated and USA aka jerUSAlem is controlled by Israel. I have noticed some individuals here who support Trump which of course that’s their business but I just wanted to point out the goal is project 2025 and Christian nationalism.
www.youtube.com/watch?v=T8G8yBwF_tQ

Stuff I wrote.

Exposing Trump 666 Psycop

“Magian” or “Magian/Nazarene” refers to Judeo-Christian religious and cultural influences Magi The Magi were not Jewish by tradition/religion; they were originally a hereditary priestly caste associated primarily with the Medes and Persians. Their religious background is largely linked to...

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Trump Jewish ties

Key Jewish Ties with Links/Evidence 1. Family Connections (Ivanka and Jared Kushner): • Ivanka’s Conversion: Ivanka Trump converted to Orthodox Judaism in 2009 before marrying Jared Kushner. Their children (Trump’s grandchildren) are raised Jewish, tying Trump to a Jewish family branch...

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I am still digging in a lot of information sort of working undercover, but regardless what I wanted to say was I know some of these news sources are shit but the goal is focusing on the clip that was being said.

I also am aware that when people watch news or read something on the Internet, they’re gonna interpret it through their own lens or perceptive which apparently is why many people argue because there’s so many different perceptive I am definitely. I’m not gonna say someone is right or wrong because at the end of the day they’re gonna find out for themselves and that’s just it all this going on I’m going to speak out why this is a big problem with Trump and the Christian nationalists is awful

I personally have been dealing with attacks in my family as a trans person and a non Christian aka a pagan (Zevist) and I’ve been isolated as well but when I’m trying to say is their reactions to me not being a Christian is horrible because they keep pushing “how can you be so blind, we are in the End times, the devil is real, mark of the beast is real” and my own mom tried to rebuke Satan in the name of Jesus of course she went real quiet when I bought the dark ages of the church who persecuted nonchristians or just free thinkers and oppression and that it was definitely manipulation and for an example. I love my family, even though they are just too far gone and this my mom is always constantly talking about God or Jesus or says she prays for me all the time, etc probably something about me coming to Jesus, etc it used to not be that bad to be honest with you but ever since Trump got into office it’s been like they are a fucking bull-dozer. I’ve had to stand my ground quite a bit because I’m an adult and I shouldn’t have to deal with that crap so I am currently working to move further away . Honestly, I wish I could move to like Ireland because I am Irish American and I definitely have a soul connection there.

Anyway, I’m only sharing my personal experiences how harmful this is when it comes to supporting Trump because people don’t realize except for most of you that are in these forums you may agree with some of the policies and things he’s doing but at the end of the day pushing for Christian nationalism project 2025

Despite everything going on and what I’m dealing with, I definitely gonna be looking to incorporating some meditations on a daily basis and it’s not easy because of the living environment I have constant distractions. Does anybody have a suggestion in to maybe help me with these distraction that I’m dealing with in my living environment?

 

[hailourtruegod]

I dont think anything you said here is true. I skimmed thru most of it after reading the whole project 2025 nonsense.

But that doesn't matter at the end.

If you're here and a dedicated Zevist by blood then focus on this path and not political bs.

We dont care for promotion of politics here whether bad or good.

This is not to say we dont pay attention and give our take in manners that matter in the bigger picture like praising the good things leaders of the world do for the average person.

We can analyze but thats not what you have been doing.

We dont care about your political activism as it does nothing to advance Zevism whatsoever.

The only way to advance our cause to is for all of us to be advancing spiritually as individuals, as a whole, doing rituals and the only physical activism that is approved is the Outreach Project.



You didn't mention that you have dedicated to Zeus by the way. Did you do the dedication ritual back then? Knowing of us for a "long time" doesn't make anyone superior in any sense if they havent dedicated, done the meditations everyday that are on the website, or hasn't helped new members whatsoever in all the time this place has been around.

So please, do a purification meditation if you're going thru identity crisis such as being trans.

 

[CormacArdRuairiOMorrigan]

I dont think anything you said here is true. I skimmed thru most of it after reading the whole project 2025 nonsense.

But that doesn't matter at the end.

If you're here and a dedicated Zevist by blood then focus on this path and not political bs.

We dont care for promotion of politics here whether bad or good.

This is not to say we dont pay attention and give our take in manners that matter in the bigger picture like praising the good things leaders of the world do for the average person.

We can analyze but thats not what you have been doing.

We dont care about your political activism as it does nothing to advance Zevism whatsoever.

The only way to advance our cause to is for all of us to be advancing spiritually as individuals, as a whole, doing rituals and the only physical activism that is approved is the Outreach Project.



You didn't mention that you have dedicated to Zeus by the way. Did you do the dedication ritual back then? Knowing of us for a "long time" doesn't make anyone superior in any sense if they havent dedicated, done the meditations everyday that are on the website, or hasn't helped new members whatsoever in all the time this place has been around.

So please, do a purification meditation if you're going thru identity crisis such as being trans.

i never said i was superior nor am i trying to act like it. Not sure why you are reading it that way I am just saying I been around a long time to see the changes.

As for 2025 project. Project 2025 is very real—it’s a 900+ page conservative blueprint from the Heritage Foundation (launched 2023) to overhaul the federal government, written by dozens of ex-Trump officials. Trump’s tried to distance himself, but his cabinet picks (like Russ Vought and Pam Bondi) are key authors.

https://static.heritage.org/project2025/2025_MandateForLeadership_FULL.pdf

Now as far as identity crisis. I never had one, I was always like this even as a kid, but my identity is not up for debate or approval or validation I only mentioned it because I was making a point that despite all the hurt and what betrayal I been through in this forum that alienated me I’m still me and working to advance myself.

 

[CormacArdRuairiOMorrigan]

I dont think anything you said here is true. I skimmed thru most of it after reading the whole project 2025 nonsense.

But that doesn't matter at the end.

If you're here and a dedicated Zevist by blood then focus on this path and not political bs.

We dont care for promotion of politics here whether bad or good.

This is not to say we dont pay attention and give our take in manners that matter in the bigger picture like praising the good things leaders of the world do for the average person.

We can analyze but thats not what you have been doing.

We dont care about your political activism as it does nothing to advance Zevism whatsoever.

The only way to advance our cause to is for all of us to be advancing spiritually as individuals, as a whole, doing rituals and the only physical activism that is approved is the Outreach Project.



You didn't mention that you have dedicated to Zeus by the way. Did you do the dedication ritual back then? Knowing of us for a "long time" doesn't make anyone superior in any sense if they havent dedicated, done the meditations everyday that are on the website, or hasn't helped new members whatsoever in all the time this place has been around.

So please, do a purification meditation if you're going thru identity crisis such as being trans.

i never said i was superior nor am i trying to act like it. I apologize if it came across that way. Not sure why you are reading it like that but I am just saying I been around a long time to see the changes.

As for 2025 project. Project 2025 is very real—it’s a 900+ page conservative blueprint from the Heritage Foundation (launched 2023) to overhaul the federal government, written by dozens of ex-Trump officials. Trump’s tried to distance himself, but his cabinet picks (like Russ Vought and Pam Bondi) are key authors.

https://static.heritage.org/project2025/2025_MandateForLeadership_FULL.pdf

Now as far as identity crisis. I never had one an identity crisis I was always like this even as a kid, but my identity is not up for debate or approval or validation And that’s me just asserting boundaries I only mentioned it because I was making a point that despite all the hurt and what betrayal I been through in this forum that alienated me when the enemy was infiltrating these forums I’m still me and working to advance myself And I been a dedicated Satanist for since 2003 now a Zevist.

I hope my post isn’t coming across negatively, not my intention at all.

 

[hailourtruegod]

i never said i was superior nor am i trying to act like it. Not sure why you are reading it that way I am just saying I been around a long time to see the changes.

As for 2025 project. Project 2025 is very real—it’s a 900+ page conservative blueprint from the Heritage Foundation (launched 2023) to overhaul the federal government, written by dozens of ex-Trump officials. Trump’s tried to distance himself, but his cabinet picks (like Russ Vought and Pam Bondi) are key authors.

https://static.heritage.org/project2025/2025_MandateForLeadership_FULL.pdf

Now as far as identity crisis. I never had one, I was always like this even as a kid, but my identity is not up for debate or approval or validation I only mentioned it because I was making a point that despite all the hurt and what betrayal I been through in this forum that alienated me I’m still me and working to advance myself.

Way to cherry pick one thing and ignore my whole message to you.

No one alienated you. People can act how they want on this forum just like you're allowed to spew propaganda and make up baseless claims against the JoS/ToZ.

No one serious takes the claim project 2025 is an actual playbook for Maga although many xians want it to be when they see something similar to what's in there.

Stop smearing this place while trying to push propaganda and you'll have less people not liking you.

Its simple.

 

[RespectExistence]

When the content of life is too salty I retreat to a zen meditation. I don't accept or reject feelings, I don't analyze. I force focus on inhale-exhale. Many people are full of negative emotions so they try to infect others with them so the negative will become the new normal. I just retreat, let them fight against their shadows.

 

[CormacArdRuairiOMorrigan]

OK, you obviously have a problem because I never smeared anything. I’m only pointing out what was done to me which was horrible and as I said, I’ve been here for years and then I get attacked. Either you can’t accept that we have infiltrators in the forums or people refusing to take accountability for their own actions. And I said I am happy to see changes made meaning that people been cleaning out thisForum which has been more bearable. You just displayed classic denial just like you are denying the 2025 project. contendingmodernities.nd.edu/global-currents/jvp-rejecting-project-esther/

This is not propaganda. This is a very real reality happening right now. I don’t know what else to tell you. I should point out anyone supporting this BS is doing them a disservice when it comes to being able to safely practice meditation spiritual advancement or whatever

Fair enough though, I’m here for Zevism’s growth too—chakra work and such fire are my drive, not politics for its own sake. But Project 2025 isn’t ‘nonsense’—it’s a real threat to our practices, backed by Trump’s team. Skim it again; the theocratic push could end freedom in America We should advance spiritually and protect it—meditate on that. No superiority here, just seen the shifts over time.

 

[hailourtruegod]

 Drama

I dont care about this subject. It doesn't matter here.

Look how you say you're back and all you have done is spew political propaganda.


Never answered if you ever did the dedication ritual either...



I hope to see you ask questions about meditations or how to live your life as a Zevist according to your nature, without revealing too much about yourself of course, from here on out as no one here will fall for the lies normies are pushing.

good luck.