High Priestess Lydia Coventina
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schwarze Krähe said:I'm from Brazil and I have a white racial soul. But I was sadly and unfortunately mixed. I have Slavic, Germanic and possibly Spanish roots. I don't want to go into specific details of speculation as to why I was born so mixed race, and in such a racially complicated situation, but I would like your opinion on why... but I feel like a very degenerate person due to dysgenics. I suffered and still suffer in my head from low self-esteem. I have a lot of doubts about sexual partners because I like blondes, and white women in general. but I feel like I've completely failed in the sexual field because I don't want brown/brown women because I know that deep down I'm white. very complicated situation. My biggest dream is to have my Slavic or German genetics again because I feel that deep down I am this... sometimes I have doubts if I will be able to achieve M.O IN THIS LIFE BECAUSE I DON'T SEE much progress in 7 years of meditation. I'm going to pursue the purpose of my life, which is to regenerate myself... many white people here in Brazil have already made fun of me about being mixed race and this has branded my soul with a hot iron and I cannot die without achieving this purpose, because I am very sad and in existential crisis for years.
Slavic is White, German is White, Spain was originally pure White but is slightly mixed these past few centuries, but most Spaniards still count as White. So what is the mix? You didn't say if you are part Black or part Asian or part Aboriginal.
Regarding not having made much progress in 7 years: get in contact with your GD, develop a closer bond to Him or Her. Our GDs are for our advancement