how to keep it away?

[Tabitha]

Heres my situation: everyone i know is christian. they found out i was satanic and they started forcing all the xian shit in my head, it didnt work i still put them and there "god" down in the ground like a dead object. well then they started thinking of others ways of how to capture me....and they figured it out, they said i would never be able to see my siblings(who i love and care about alot) if i stayed satanic. so i started reading the bible in all(everytime i read it it disgusts me so much) but i do it for the love of my sisters n brother.
but i feel as if im looseing father(i dont want that to happen) while doing this.
so what should i do? say "fine i wont see my family then if yall want to be asshole xians and once there old nuff to understand jus hope they hate you for not letting me see them"? or take the risk of looseing father(i really really dont want that)?
ever since i been doin this xian shit to make people happy i been so much more depressed, angry and alot of other bad feelings. i dont want to loose father but i love and care for my siblings alot but i dont like how i feel being xian. i hate xians.

Hail Father Satan!

 

[monokoeoy]

i am a relatively new satanist i dedicated myself about 2 months ago, and i too have family that trys to force feed me bullshit everyday. i know where your comming from there but they never went that far. if there forcing the teachings of the rancid bible down on you, what i do is learn more of the contradictions, more of the lies held within its pages expand your knowledge of what the bible really is that way when you have to be exposed to there shit you can pick it apart in your head and youll know how wrong they really are. thats what i do.

--- In , "Tabitha" <tabby2991@... wrote:

Heres my situation: everyone i know is christian. they found out i was satanic and they started forcing all the xian shit in my head, it didnt work i still put them and there "god" down in the ground like a dead object. well then they started thinking of others ways of how to capture me....and they figured it out, they said i would never be able to see my siblings(who i love and care about alot) if i stayed satanic. so i started reading the bible in all(everytime i read it it disgusts me so much) but i do it for the love of my sisters n brother.
but i feel as if im looseing father(i dont want that to happen) while doing this.
so what should i do? say "fine i wont see my family then if yall want to be asshole xians and once there old nuff to understand jus hope they hate you for not letting me see them"? or take the risk of looseing father(i really really dont want that)?
ever since i been doin this xian shit to make people happy i been so much more depressed, angry and alot of other bad feelings. i dont want to loose father but i love and care for my siblings alot but i dont like how i feel being xian. i hate xians.

Hail Father Satan!

 

[Richard1]

practice your power medtions and or rtiuals in secret, even if you have to stay up later then noraml to so. then when you are powerfull enough get yourself out of there, do so. also you could try destorying them from within, i understand your love for your sister, but while your there you might has well do some good for the fight agaist the xians. you could also try some magic in secert again to get youreslf out of the sitution.
hail enki

--- In , "Tabitha" <tabby2991@... wrote:

Heres my situation: everyone i know is christian. they found out i was satanic and they started forcing all the xian shit in my head, it didnt work i still put them and there "god" down in the ground like a dead object. well then they started thinking of others ways of how to capture me....and they figured it out, they said i would never be able to see my siblings(who i love and care about alot) if i stayed satanic. so i started reading the bible in all(everytime i read it it disgusts me so much) but i do it for the love of my sisters n brother.
but i feel as if im looseing father(i dont want that to happen) while doing this.
so what should i do? say "fine i wont see my family then if yall want to be asshole xians and once there old nuff to understand jus hope they hate you for not letting me see them"? or take the risk of looseing father(i really really dont want that)?
ever since i been doin this xian shit to make people happy i been so much more depressed, angry and alot of other bad feelings. i dont want to loose father but i love and care for my siblings alot but i dont like how i feel being xian. i hate xians.

Hail Father Satan!