How do I accept myself? What is the point of being here?

Jul 2, 2022#20

Veritá_666said:
BrightSpace666said:
... If you hate me, I totally understand, I don't look at myself any differently.
Would seeking praise make you a bad person?
Rather use your thirst for praise as motivation to advance further and further.
The important thing is that in the material you write there are no harmful things, but there are useful things and otherwise there should be no problems.

This is the part that annoys me to no end. I am an emotional person, but I don't want to be someone who just wants to be "praised". I have had a few posts where I have felt this way. However - if I continue to feel this way, I will not post again. I would rather deny myself what I want or wanted on some level. For now, I will post a few posts that I have written and worked on for awareness, but after that, it is possible that I will stop.

I'm doing two 40-day jobs at the same time, one slowly finishing and the other continuing for a while, and I can feel the positive effects, but I can't just push the thought away.

The leader of the Kundalini-Project -> https://kundalini-project.neocities.org

Contact:

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Veritá_666said:
BrightSpace666said:
... If you hate me, I totally understand, I don't look at myself any differently.
Would seeking praise make you a bad person?
Rather use your thirst for praise as motivation to advance further and further.
The important thing is that in the material you write there are no harmful things, but there are useful things and otherwise there should be no problems.

This is the part that annoys me to no end. I am an emotional person, but I don't want to be someone who just wants to be "praised". I have had a few posts where I have felt this way. However - if I continue to feel this way, I will not post again. I would rather deny myself what I want or wanted on some level. For now, I will post a few posts that I have written and worked on for awareness, but after that, it is possible that I will stop.

I'm doing two 40-day jobs at the same time, one slowly finishing and the other continuing for a while, and I can feel the positive effects, but I can't just push the thought away.

Jul 2, 2022#21

Bright Truthsaid:
BrightSpace666said:
NinRicksaid:
NakedPlutosaid:
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Okay, I understand the case. It seems like stems from Neptune. This planet, as far as I observed, %90 of the time does not work for the good of the individual.
You will be able to do Sun Square in this month. Actually, I can sympathize with you. I hated myself, as well. Not because of I think I do some sort of harmful actions or being bad person etc.

Thank you very much. I like this planet, I don't know why, I like the way it looks. I have a very close relationship with this planet and sometimes I can't decide if it's good or bad. Thanks for the Sun Square idea.

The leader of the Kundalini-Project -> https://kundalini-project.neocities.org

Contact:

Disroot Mail -> [ email redacted ]

I2P Mail -> [ email redacted ]

Bright Truthsaid:
BrightSpace666said:
NinRicksaid:
NakedPlutosaid:
....
Okay, I understand the case. It seems like stems from Neptune. This planet, as far as I observed, %90 of the time does not work for the good of the individual.
You will be able to do Sun Square in this month. Actually, I can sympathize with you. I hated myself, as well. Not because of I think I do some sort of harmful actions or being bad person etc.

Thank you very much. I like this planet, I don't know why, I like the way it looks. I have a very close relationship with this planet and sometimes I can't decide if it's good or bad. Thanks for the Sun Square idea.

Jul 2, 2022#22

Thank you so much, Wonderful Family. If I have not replied to someone, it does not mean that I have not read it. I will take everyone's advice and help, thank you. You are the ones, the ToZ, who made me realize that I matter in this destructive society.

The leader of the Kundalini-Project -> https://kundalini-project.neocities.org

Contact:

Disroot Mail -> [ email redacted ]

I2P Mail -> [ email redacted ]

Jul 2, 2022#23

I am typically the kind of person who can feel sorry for a butterfly and wants to help it. I look at a person's face and I know what they are feeling and I start to feel it too. I can really feel sorry for people and I often think I'm weak for doing that.
Perhaps the praise goes back to the fact that I have perhaps received very little praise from others in my life because everything was "expected" of me. What I was proud of, others thought I should have done better. This "selfishness" really bothers me. I stand up for ToZ and my Companions because since I have been here, I have felt an extremely close emotional connection with them, as they are family.

You're just a wonderful person and dont worry, we are all here close to you and to support you. You are never alone. We are humans, not robots, not a perfect deity. We just work on ourselves to become better everyday.

I am typically the kind of person who can feel sorry for a butterfly and wants to help it. I look at a person's face and I know what they are feeling and I start to feel it too. I can really feel sorry for people and I often think I'm weak for doing that.
Perhaps the praise goes back to the fact that I have perhaps received very little praise from others in my life because everything was "expected" of me. What I was proud of, others thought I should have done better. This "selfishness" really bothers me. I stand up for ToZ and my Companions because since I have been here, I have felt an extremely close emotional connection with them, as they are family.

You're just a wonderful person and dont worry, we are all here close to you and to support you. You are never alone. We are humans, not robots, not a perfect deity. We just work on ourselves to become better everyday.

Jul 2, 2022#24

BrightSpace666said:
Thank you so much, Wonderful Family. If I have not replied to someone, it does not mean that I have not read it. I will take everyone's advice and help, thank you. You are the ones, the ToZ, who made me realize that I matter in this destructive society.

Of course you do, you really matter a lot for the society, the world, your country and us all.

Jul 3, 2022#25

BrightSpace666said:
Veritá_666said:
BrightSpace666said:
... If you hate me, I totally understand, I don't look at myself any differently.
Would seeking praise make you a bad person?
Rather use your thirst for praise as motivation to advance further and further.
The important thing is that in the material you write there are no harmful things, but there are useful things and otherwise there should be no problems.
This is the part that annoys me to no end. I am an emotional person, but I don't want to be someone who just wants to be "praised". I have had a few posts where I have felt this way. However - if I continue to feel this way, I will not post again. I would rather deny myself what I want or wanted on some level. For now, I will post a few posts that I have written and worked on for awareness, but after that, it is possible that I will stop.
I'm doing two 40-day jobs at the same time, one slowly finishing and the other continuing for a while, and I can feel the positive effects, but I can't just push the thought away.

Hang-ups that are deeply embedded in your soul need much more than 40 days to completely resolve, usually 2,3 or even 4 90-day works.
To solve Neptune problems you can do a work with the Laguz rune an affirmation similar to this "In a safe and positive way for me, I am now completely and permanently free of any and all negative influences and effects of my natal Neptune, my natal Neptune now only manifests in a positive way in every way".

BrightSpace666said:
Veritá_666said:
BrightSpace666said:
... If you hate me, I totally understand, I don't look at myself any differently.
Would seeking praise make you a bad person?
Rather use your thirst for praise as motivation to advance further and further.
The important thing is that in the material you write there are no harmful things, but there are useful things and otherwise there should be no problems.
This is the part that annoys me to no end. I am an emotional person, but I don't want to be someone who just wants to be "praised". I have had a few posts where I have felt this way. However - if I continue to feel this way, I will not post again. I would rather deny myself what I want or wanted on some level. For now, I will post a few posts that I have written and worked on for awareness, but after that, it is possible that I will stop.
I'm doing two 40-day jobs at the same time, one slowly finishing and the other continuing for a while, and I can feel the positive effects, but I can't just push the thought away.

Hang-ups that are deeply embedded in your soul need much more than 40 days to completely resolve, usually 2,3 or even 4 90-day works.
To solve Neptune problems you can do a work with the Laguz rune an affirmation similar to this "In a safe and positive way for me, I am now completely and permanently free of any and all negative influences and effects of my natal Neptune, my natal Neptune now only manifests in a positive way in every way".

Jul 3, 2022#26

Shadowcatsaid:
Wotanwarriorsaid:
BrightSpace666said:
This is the part that annoys me to no end. I am an emotional person, but I don't want to be someone who just wants to be "praised". I have had a few posts where I have felt this way. However - if I continue to feel this way, I will not post again. I would rather deny myself what I want or wanted on some level. For now, I will post a few posts that I have written and worked on for awareness, but after that, it is possible that I will stop.
I'm doing two 40-day jobs at the same time, one slowly finishing and the other continuing for a while, and I can feel the positive effects, but I can't just push the thought away.
Hang-ups that are deeply embedded in your soul need much more than 40 days to completely resolve, usually 2,3 or even 4 90-day works.
To solve Neptune problems you can do a work with the Laguz rune an affirmation similar to this "In a safe and positive way for me, I am now completely and permanently free of any and all negative influences and effects of my natal Neptune, my natal Neptune now only manifests in a positive way in every way".
Interesting...i have been trying to work on sublimating some things from a 7th house neptune. I Can see how laguz works with the astral ect, but what made you go with this rune for that? Was it because neptune is connected to the spiritual and meditation in general?

Blitzkreig mentions it in this post in the astrology section, I have started to do it with my natal Pluto with the Eihwaz rune and in only two days after starting it I noticed that it works.
https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=8&t=69236&p=348966&hilit=pluto+eihwaz#p348966

Shadowcatsaid:
Wotanwarriorsaid:
BrightSpace666said:
This is the part that annoys me to no end. I am an emotional person, but I don't want to be someone who just wants to be "praised". I have had a few posts where I have felt this way. However - if I continue to feel this way, I will not post again. I would rather deny myself what I want or wanted on some level. For now, I will post a few posts that I have written and worked on for awareness, but after that, it is possible that I will stop.
I'm doing two 40-day jobs at the same time, one slowly finishing and the other continuing for a while, and I can feel the positive effects, but I can't just push the thought away.
Hang-ups that are deeply embedded in your soul need much more than 40 days to completely resolve, usually 2,3 or even 4 90-day works.
To solve Neptune problems you can do a work with the Laguz rune an affirmation similar to this "In a safe and positive way for me, I am now completely and permanently free of any and all negative influences and effects of my natal Neptune, my natal Neptune now only manifests in a positive way in every way".
Interesting...i have been trying to work on sublimating some things from a 7th house neptune. I Can see how laguz works with the astral ect, but what made you go with this rune for that? Was it because neptune is connected to the spiritual and meditation in general?

Blitzkreig mentions it in this post in the astrology section, I have started to do it with my natal Pluto with the Eihwaz rune and in only two days after starting it I noticed that it works.
https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=8&t=69236&p=348966&hilit=pluto+eihwaz#p348966

Jul 13, 2022#27

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Wotanwarriorsaid:
Hang-ups that are deeply embedded in your soul need much more than 40 days to completely resolve, usually 2,3 or even 4 90-day works.
To solve Neptune problems you can do a work with the Laguz rune an affirmation similar to this "In a safe and positive way for me, I am now completely and permanently free of any and all negative influences and effects of my natal Neptune, my natal Neptune now only manifests in a positive way in every way".

Laguz is a rune that increases sensitivity. If you have a problem where Neptune is giving you oversensitivity, then Laguz won't easily fix it. This is similar to hammering a nail into a hole where an already broken nail is inside. You would be better served by Munka, Ansuz, or Uruz which can remove or destroy negative karma.

For example, if Neptune is negatively aspecting your Sun, then your solar energies will be weakened. You would either want to compensate with Sowilo or transmute the negative aspect with the above freeing runes, leaving you with the positives (compassion) and none of the negatives of weakened willpower, health, etc.

The same applies to other energies or planets when trying to free them, where it is better to use the energies which are more related to freeing one's soul.

Wotanwarriorsaid:
Hang-ups that are deeply embedded in your soul need much more than 40 days to completely resolve, usually 2,3 or even 4 90-day works.
To solve Neptune problems you can do a work with the Laguz rune an affirmation similar to this "In a safe and positive way for me, I am now completely and permanently free of any and all negative influences and effects of my natal Neptune, my natal Neptune now only manifests in a positive way in every way".

Laguz is a rune that increases sensitivity. If you have a problem where Neptune is giving you oversensitivity, then Laguz won't easily fix it. This is similar to hammering a nail into a hole where an already broken nail is inside. You would be better served by Munka, Ansuz, or Uruz which can remove or destroy negative karma.

For example, if Neptune is negatively aspecting your Sun, then your solar energies will be weakened. You would either want to compensate with Sowilo or transmute the negative aspect with the above freeing runes, leaving you with the positives (compassion) and none of the negatives of weakened willpower, health, etc.

The same applies to other energies or planets when trying to free them, where it is better to use the energies which are more related to freeing one's soul.

Jul 13, 2022#28

Wotanwarriorsaid:
Blitzkreig mentions it in this post in the astrology section, I have started to do it with my natal Pluto with the Eihwaz rune and in only two days after starting it I noticed that it works.
https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=8&t=69236&p=348966&hilit=pluto+eihwaz#p348966

Just to clarify, a planet can be debilitated, and therefore adding the energies of its home sign will restore its strength. In this way, you would see quick benefits from the working you described above. However, in the situation I described with a negative aspect, then it would be better to use a tool better suited specifically for removal.

Ideally, someone would do both additive and freeing workings to totally resolve their problems.

Wotanwarriorsaid:
Blitzkreig mentions it in this post in the astrology section, I have started to do it with my natal Pluto with the Eihwaz rune and in only two days after starting it I noticed that it works.
https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=8&t=69236&p=348966&hilit=pluto+eihwaz#p348966

Just to clarify, a planet can be debilitated, and therefore adding the energies of its home sign will restore its strength. In this way, you would see quick benefits from the working you described above. However, in the situation I described with a negative aspect, then it would be better to use a tool better suited specifically for removal.

Ideally, someone would do both additive and freeing workings to totally resolve their problems.

Jul 13, 2022#29

Blitzkreig [JGsaid:
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Wotanwarriorsaid:
Blitzkreig mentions it in this post in the astrology section, I have started to do it with my natal Pluto with the Eihwaz rune and in only two days after starting it I noticed that it works.
https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=8&t=69236&p=348966&hilit=pluto+eihwaz#p348966
Just to clarify, a planet can be debilitated, and therefore adding the energies of its home sign will restore its strength. In this way, you would see quick benefits from the working you described above. However, in the situation I described with a negative aspect, then it would be better to use a tool better suited specifically for removal.

What would be the most appropriate thing to do if the main problem with an external planet such as Pluto or Neptune is that it is retrograde in your natal chart?

Blitzkreig [JGsaid:
" post_id=374231 time=1657692319 user_id=21286]
Wotanwarriorsaid:
Blitzkreig mentions it in this post in the astrology section, I have started to do it with my natal Pluto with the Eihwaz rune and in only two days after starting it I noticed that it works.
https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=8&t=69236&p=348966&hilit=pluto+eihwaz#p348966
Just to clarify, a planet can be debilitated, and therefore adding the energies of its home sign will restore its strength. In this way, you would see quick benefits from the working you described above. However, in the situation I described with a negative aspect, then it would be better to use a tool better suited specifically for removal.

What would be the most appropriate thing to do if the main problem with an external planet such as Pluto or Neptune is that it is retrograde in your natal chart?

Jul 13, 2022#30

BrightSpace666said:
The moment has come when I don't know what to do. Things like self-acceptance and self-awareness, which I have recommended to my Mates in my posts, are about accepting ourselves as we are. But I can't do that for myself......
I have been working hard every day for the past few days to accept and recognize myself. Well, the self-awareness is pretty much complete, but that's not my problem, my problem is that I can't accept myself as I am. The Gods try to help and guide me and when I get the answers then all is well and things constructively change their meaning, but after a while thoughts like "I'm a bad person" and so on keep coming.
I get fed up with that. I don't really want to accept myself because what I am is not what I don't like. I feel like I don't want to do anything and thoughts that suggest I have no business being here if this is who I am. I'm going crazy.

I've felt the same thing. Just remember what is real. Father Zeus's face is everywhere in the astral. Maybe take some time to spread your roots into Sanatan Dharma.

BrightSpace666said:
The moment has come when I don't know what to do. Things like self-acceptance and self-awareness, which I have recommended to my Mates in my posts, are about accepting ourselves as we are. But I can't do that for myself......
I have been working hard every day for the past few days to accept and recognize myself. Well, the self-awareness is pretty much complete, but that's not my problem, my problem is that I can't accept myself as I am. The Gods try to help and guide me and when I get the answers then all is well and things constructively change their meaning, but after a while thoughts like "I'm a bad person" and so on keep coming.
I get fed up with that. I don't really want to accept myself because what I am is not what I don't like. I feel like I don't want to do anything and thoughts that suggest I have no business being here if this is who I am. I'm going crazy.

I've felt the same thing. Just remember what is real. Father Zeus's face is everywhere in the astral. Maybe take some time to spread your roots into Sanatan Dharma.

Jul 13, 2022#31

Blitzkreig [JGsaid:
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Wotanwarriorsaid:
What would be the most appropriate thing to do if the main problem with an external planet such as Pluto or Neptune is that it is retrograde in your natal chart?
If you read the Retrograde page it appears like a retrograde position can give both positives and negatives, so it is hard to say for certain. For most planets, I believe there is always going to be some degree of negative karma, so I would plan on doing a freeing working anyway.

Thank you, I will continue with Eihwaz's work and when I finish obliterating Saturn with Munka, which I am close to complete, I will begin to do it with Pluto.

Blitzkreig [JGsaid:
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Wotanwarriorsaid:
What would be the most appropriate thing to do if the main problem with an external planet such as Pluto or Neptune is that it is retrograde in your natal chart?
If you read the Retrograde page it appears like a retrograde position can give both positives and negatives, so it is hard to say for certain. For most planets, I believe there is always going to be some degree of negative karma, so I would plan on doing a freeing working anyway.

Thank you, I will continue with Eihwaz's work and when I finish obliterating Saturn with Munka, which I am close to complete, I will begin to do it with Pluto.