Help with Womens health

[piplup_8910]

I posted a topic about this in the main group but it got pushed down immediately from all the excess messages today.
I recently found out my birth control fell through. I am very scared because I am only 20 and I have not even started my career yet. My finances are poor and I cannot afford to have a child. I remember Macine posting a sermon on abortion and how you should make a childs life worth living and with the situation I am in I cannot do that.
There is a lot of misinformation about abortions out there. A lot of christians are posting fake reviews about abortions and I was wondering if there is a woman in here who has had an abortion who could tell me about it. I know its a grim topic but I am fearful right now from the christians lies. I would also loke to know other people's opinions on abortions.
Thank you for taking the time to read this.
Hail Satan!

 

[soutlaw92]

Thank you for being open about this. It is okay.With your situation right now, you should not have the child. Im sure you intuitively know this too. 
Abortion is everyone's individual choice. We are not xians. If you have read HP maxine post then you already know why Xians keep having children even though they cannot nurture or support the child. This leads to many problems. 
 Satanism is about freedom of choice and responsibility among other things. The goddess Lilith is a patron of women's rights.http://www.angelfire.com/empire/serpent ... ilith.html  I know someone who has had an abortion and it was one of her best decisions. She was younger than you and definitely did not have the means to support a child. It would have put her life on hold or worse. Well anyway, she had the abortion and she is fine now. 
You are free to make that choice. This is your life.

Anyway, How far along are you?If it is less than a month then there are natural alternatives other than abortion. Many herbs and plants when eaten act as contraceptives and emmenagogues. They vase the uterus to contract and brings on a natural abortion. They also bring on the menstrual cycle. This is if you are a month or less in.
There are those who have experimented with much success.

 

[piplup_8910]

Thank you for replying and helping me calm down.
Unfortunately, I am over a minth. I am about 6 weeks along and I am supposed to be going in for a medical abortion on the 31st. Talk about a bad Samhain. I have talked to multiple people about it and they said it was painful for a few hours before everything came out.
I am nervous about this choice for several reasons. My main reason is I promised myself to not have a child until I was married and settled in my career. Most of my christian cousins got knocked up and tried using drugs and alcohol to abort their children and failed. Most came out with severe issues from it and my cousins are having identiy crisis from it. Their mentality and maturity was not quite there for having children. I know if I was to have a kid now I would not be ready because my mental health would tumble like my mother's did (she was on anti depressant for 30+ years and they messed her up bad).
Tha k you for listening to me. I feel better having someone to talk to.
But one last issue is the amount of protesters. I live in the bible belt and there have been severe issues with protesters. I once watched a woman get yelled at by several protesters for going in for birth control. I am already afraid enough, do you know a way I can prepare myself for such an encounter?
Thank you again

 

[soutlaw92]

It is okay to be afraid. Just accept it for now. Accept the mistake that happened and learn from it. You'll be okay. Im sure you'll feel even better when it is over.
 The person I know was a bit nervous and afraid too and it affected me because I wanted her to be well. But after she got it done, she felt free and a weight was lifted from her because now she could move on.

Don't worry about the Xian protesters and all that. As long as they don't physically harm you, then who the hell cares what they think? They are nothing, just sheep. They are obviously the ones under a nasty spell and they don't know any better. They are so insane that if one were to get raped and became pregnant, they would still urge the person to keep the child. Thats sick. Once you understand how sick and unnatural xianity is, then you should not be afraid or care what they think. 
You can meditate and pray(telepathic communication) upon Lilith to keep you strong in this and 'hold your hand' when the time comes Be strong. You are a satanist now, your character will strengthen over time. In this life there are many adversities. Just keep your cool and do what you have to do for yourself. Do not be swayed by others.
Satan and the gods care about you and want you to have an established well being.
As for the procedure, the options are usually anesthesia, to lessen the pain, and then them putting you to sleep temporarily as to not be awake when it happens. Do you have that option?

 

[soutlaw92]

Can you resend what you wrote? Yahoo is acting up

 

[piplup_8910]

I hope Lilith responds because she is a very busy goddess. I have never had the honor of talking to her but I hear she is a wonderful goddess and her strength is incredible.
As for the anesthesia, no. I have to take several pills in one day for it to start. They will give me painkillers but being a redhead, painkillers dont really work. My periods were always bad and extremely painful and from what I was told, they are enducing labor to make everything come out. Sounds fun. Most of the pills will be taken at home, but the first one has to be taken in office. Anesthesia would not be a good idea anyways because I have to drive myself there and back. I dont have any friends around who could help and I dont want to tell my christian parents about the issue (especially since I live with my fiance and moved out a year ago).

 

[soutlaw92]

I see. I know its not the best situation here but you'll get through it.Since you are only 6 weeks, it shouldn't be so bad. Trust me.
As for Lilith, It's not a matter of her responding to you right then and there, either way, she'll know because you are directing energy and your thoughts to her. On the day, you can just focus on her and imagine her with you. You do that by meditating on her and such. You can also vibrate her name many times to attain her essence and energy.
You are not alone. Don't tell your parents though.

After you take the pills, just rest up your body and take it one step at a time.

 

[soutlaw92]

nevermind

 

[piplup_8910]

@Johnson, thank you very much. I will use this meditation. Hopefull no one will mess with me because Asmodeus has been helping me learn invisibility.

@stot Thank you for your advice. I actually just went to the store to grab a few things and my total was 6.66$. Man they have a funny way of talking. It made me laugh and comfortable so I know Lilith heard my outcry.

Thank you everyone for all your help. I'll write an update afterwards about how everything went so if people have questions about it they can find this post.

 

[soutlaw92]

Wonderful. Be well, Sister <3