Hi everyone, I was hesitant to ask this because I was a bit embarrassed, but finally decided to do it. About a year ago I discovered jos, I have always had a certain inclination towards demons, Egyptian culture, and I never truly believed the "evil" that the church attributes to Satan and his demons. Finding out about him and reading the information about him at first gave me a feeling of ... happiness that I can't describe. Lately these days I have had a single thought in my head, I want to do the dedication ritual. But I don't know for what reason every time I am determined to do it, doubts begin to arise in me. It must be because of that damn Christian programming, I no longer believe in that garbage, nor in that false god, that is why I want to ask you, will so many doubts be dispelled when I dedicate myself? Will I be worthy enough for Father Satan and his demons to help me? And will I be able to talk to them and let them be my teachers and guides? Seriously, I want to advance spiritually, I am already tired of so many lies of Christianity, I know that all this is said in the jos but it is that with 22 years I have gone through some things for which it is already a bit difficult for me to fully trust others, but for some reason I think this is the right thing to do. Please clarify these doubts for me to see if I can overcome this insecurity. Thank you very much.