Help pliz

[goldQUEEN 666.Lyf]

Halo there brothers and Sisters. One if these days i have been going through some major crisis. I have worked so had to establish a relationship with Satan. And my hard work has definitely yielded....for which i am very greateful. I have always felt protected, overconfident about all most everything and above all a happy person...well, i have been all that until recently.
This crisis stated the moment i broke up with my xtian friend. We were so tight...to the extent that he was like a brother to me. I adored him so much caz he was so very caring! But a voice in my mind kept telling me to stay away from him because he was bad spiritual influence for me. I tried to push him a way but it was very hard caz all he ever did was be good to me and put my happiness before his own. I tried so hard to avoid him but then circumstance brought him around when i was needy of something...so i asked father to help me out. Now there's a long story after that but....after asking for fathers help we finally broke up. I felt so sad. But then father consoled me and told me that my friend wasn't really a friend..but rather the enemies way to get to me...that the guy went to church to prayed for  for me. I had never really told him am a satanist but he was so curious about my spiritual life...caz there's a time he jokingly called me a witch.
I guess he always knew am Satanic.
Well after breaking up with him i started to face tons of problems. First was my phone...which is my only link to the jos site and egroups....it started to malfunction that very day i broke up with him. For a while i   thought maybe i had accidentally directed negative into it,  then strangely it was only the mail section that wasn't working...i was cut off from the egroups. I cried out to father en told him that a day without visting the egroups is like a day without having to talk to family. I tried everything...i even hard reset  my phone(lge400)..i did every thing possible but all in vain, caz every thing went to normal apart from the mail section. But as if that wasn't enough...i started feeling confused. I Satrted getting all these weird thoughts in my head that Satan was punishing me for something....(but i hadnt done anything wrong) i started to feel alone and un wanted. I started feeling insecure about fathers love for me. And i was so alone...no friends, no egroups to share my problems with, and then the feeling that Satan didn't actually care about me. I kept denying in my head(telling my self that father actually loves me.)
So i constantly started bugging him to prove that he cares.
That's when i came across a sermon by Maxine that says if one feels confused its because some xtians ere praying for that person. And i knew then that that was the case bcaz my friend was a staunch bornagain christian. Worse came to worst when my meditation routine started to feel weird. I just can't concentrate(which was very easy back then). Now when ever i try to visualise brilliant gold for my aura of protection all i can see i a balckness around me...i mean all the time.
Its like my defences have totally weakened. Every other night am attacted by SPIRITS in my dreams. First was a spirit that came to me en it was in my mothers form. And i don't know how but i knew it wasn't my mother so i asked i called out to father who who gave me guts to fight the spirit... physically! It felt like fighting my mom. The following days am always running in my dreams, running from bad spirits.
But last night it was so freaking intense. It wasnt a dream...a bad spirit physically  attacked me...en i did not know what to do....but wonder where was my guardian demon...i dont even know his name.
The spirit was hurting me. It felt like it was sturbing me in the belly...and there were sone weird chants.
I was in deep pain.
I called out to father...i visualised his sigil and begged he helps me. Suddenly it all stopped. And the pain was gone. I checked my belly en there was actually no gush and blood. Well am so happy that i can now acces the egroups. But i can't use my old adress caz whenever i try to use it the phone malfunctions....its like the name has bad carma on it.
That's why i got a new one...no more "Ameixing lyf" Brothers en sisters...i was wondering wheather there's something i can do....other than a bunishing ritual...caz i have tried all that.
Pliz help me.
Caz am falling a part. Hail Satan
Hail all hell
Bless the jos administration

 

[centralforce6661]

Chanting AUM SURYAE 108 times or more whilst visualising your aura a brilliant gold for 40 days will keep your aura clean.

What you have to understand is that this 'friend' whose interest probably extends no farther than as a conversion victory to his faith is sending you thought forms daily with his xian prayer. You need to keep your aura clean to prevent the thought forms attaching and causing you grief and you need to build up a solid aura of protection to keep them away altogether.

Maxine posted a great meditation for a protective aura with an affirmation that was something like this:

"I am breathing in a powerful golden energy (from the sun if you can) which is building a powerful protective aura around me.

This aura is protecting me from harm, keeping me safe and always reflecting all spite, ill-will, mal-intent, curses and hatred directly back at those who send it.

This energy is aligning me permanently with the protective energies of my Brothers and Sisters in Satan"

This will not only protect you but fight back against those who oppose you with very little effort on your part except the daily meditation.

Stay close to Satan, He never leads us down the wrong path nor is there ever malice in the things that occur when our life changes for the better under His guidance.

Stay strong.

HAIL SATAN!

 

[Sims Motal]

First and foremost have faith! And just as importantly, do NOT fear. Fear is YOUR greatest enemy. If you do
not fear, then they can't hurt you. As Father Satan told me once, "Set aside your fear and walk in the sunlight!"
I did. And I don't fear. Not the dark. Not other spirits. Because I know Father loves me. He loves HIS children.
And you too are a child of HIS. Meditate daily. And you will grow in strength.
Hail Father Satan! Hail Anubis! Hail Isis! Hail Asmodeus!
--------------------------------------------

On Tue, 2/24/15, 'goldQUEEN 666.Lyf' 666.lyf@... [JoyofSatan666] <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:


Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Help pliz
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Date: Tuesday, February 24, 2015, 10:35 PM


 









Halo there brothers and Sisters.
One if these days i have been going through some major
crisis.
I have worked so had to establish a relationship with
Satan. And my hard work has definitely yielded....for which
i am very greateful. I have always felt protected,
overconfident about all most everything and above all a
happy person...well, i have been all that until recently.

This crisis stated the moment i broke up with my xtian
friend. We were so tight...to the extent that he was like a
brother to me. I adored him so much caz he was so very
caring! But a voice in my mind kept telling me to stay away
from him because he was bad spiritual influence for me. I
tried to push him a way but it was very hard caz all he ever
did was be good to me and put my happiness before his own. I
tried so hard to avoid him but then circumstance brought him
around when i was needy of something...so i asked father to
help me out.
Now there's a long story after that but....after
asking for fathers help we finally broke up. I felt so sad.
But then father consoled me and told me that my friend
wasn't really a friend..but rather the enemies way to
get to me...that the guy went to church to prayed for  for
me. I had never really told him am a satanist but he was so
curious about my spiritual life...caz there's a time he
jokingly called me a witch.

I guess he always knew am Satanic.

Well after breaking up with him i started to face tons of
problems. First was my phone...which is my only link to the
jos site and egroups....it started to malfunction that very
day i broke up with him. For a while i   thought maybe i
had accidentally directed negative into it,  then strangely
it was only the mail section that wasn't working...i was
cut off from the egroups. I cried out to father en told him
that a day without visting the egroups is like a day without
having to talk to family. I tried everything...i even hard
reset  my phone(lge400)..i did every thing possible but all
in vain, caz every thing went to normal apart from the mail
section.
But as if that wasn't enough...i started feeling
confused. I Satrted getting all these weird thoughts in my
head that Satan was punishing me for something....(but i
hadnt done anything wrong) i started to feel alone and un
wanted. I started feeling insecure about fathers love for
me. And i was so alone...no friends, no egroups to share my
problems with, and then the feeling that Satan didn't
actually care about me. I kept denying in my head(telling my
self that father actually loves me.)

So i constantly started bugging him to prove that he
cares.

That's when i came across a sermon by Maxine that says
if one feels confused its because some xtians ere praying
for that person. And i knew then that that was the case bcaz
my friend was a staunch bornagain christian.
Worse came to worst when my meditation routine started to
feel weird. I just can't concentrate(which was very easy
back then). Now when ever i try to visualise brilliant gold
for my aura of protection all i can see i a balckness around
me...i mean all the time.

Its like my defences have totally weakened. Every other
night am attacted by SPIRITS in my dreams. First was a
spirit that came to me en it was in my mothers form. And i
don't know how but i knew it wasn't my mother so i
asked i called out to father who who gave me guts to fight
the spirit... physically! It felt like fighting my mom.
The following days am always running in my dreams,
running from bad spirits.

But last night it was so freaking intense. It wasnt a
dream...a bad spirit physically  attacked me...en i did not
know what to do....but wonder where was my guardian
demon...i dont even know his name.

The spirit was hurting me. It felt like it was sturbing me
in the belly...and there were sone weird chants.

I was in deep pain.

I called out to father...i visualised his sigil and begged
he helps me.
Suddenly it all stopped. And the pain was gone. I checked
my belly en there was actually no gush and blood.
Well am so happy that i can now acces the egroups. But i
can't use my old adress caz whenever i try to use it the
phone malfunctions....its like the name has bad carma on
it.

That's why i got a new one...no more "Ameixing
lyf"
Brothers en sisters...i was wondering wheather
there's something i can do....other than a bunishing
ritual...caz i have tried all that.

Pliz help me.

Caz am falling a part.
Hail Satan

Hail all hell

Bless the jos administration










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[dark_pagan_666]

Lyf, first I want you to just sit back and calm down, relax and ease your mind.

I had a very similar experience when it comes to those dreams, it has two causes:

1. Enemy attack, which is avoided by Void meditation and just keep your focus on Satan. All you have to do is focus on him and think positive, whenever bad thoughts interfere, bring your focus back to Satan. Let go and let Satan.

2. Subconscious messages; old and suppressed anxietes, fears and emotions. Very normal. Just analyze your dream, what was the colors like in the dream? What did you feel? Why did you feel these feelings and what can you do in order to work this out? Acknowledging this will help you, and remember! Fear is not an option in satanism. It may take time, but you will overcome it by acknowleding it. Knowledge is power.

Yes, when it comes to friends. Especially xian friends, that won't take no for an answer and pray to that fucking non-existent filth. And will not respect you so they pray in your name, will give you confusions. This is why aura of protection is essential, just try your best. Another tip: if you wanna clean your aura greatly and extremely effective! Visualize yourself engulfed in white-gold energy and vibrate "Aum Suryae" or "Raum" ad many times you like. 10 or 20 times is fine if you are in a hurry. But 108 is the ideal or 54. This will also help the visualization and against negative energies. Enemy attacks. Program the energy afterwards to protect you at all times in every way.

But, generally when it comes to friends. Just because they are an atheist or xian, doesn't mean you have to break up your relationship with them. As long as they are sincere and respect that you have your own beliefs this is fine. If they start to push their beliefs and use you for their own good, that is something else. Then they are of no good in your life.

Yet, I habe many friends, usually just hang out with them a few times because it is fun and social. Though, we rearely mention spirituality, politics and the like. They did once and I brought up my opinion, I got very strong opinions. They gave me the look as if I was out of my mind or just retarded, but didn't say anything and has rarely mentioned anything about.

They also sometimes joke about I am a Satanist or a Witch/Warlock/Mage. But that is because deep down they know but are too deluded and afraid to admit it.

I don't break up with them because of that, they haven't done anything that will make me do anyway. But I am not stupid, I know where they stand. Anyways.

If Satan informed you or your Guardian that you should end a friendship, it is of a very good reason and should listen to them. It is seriously a friendly and a loving warning. Because they care!
Make sure though, that it is them that warns you.

Sorry, I wrote a lot.

The enemy can attack us through people we care about or...make the phone or something electronic, broken caused by errors.

Just take your focus away from the Greys, Reptilians...the enemies. Don't give them any thought. Just ease up and let Satan.
Don't stress over to get a respons from them. You do know by heart where you belong and what is the truth!

Satan and the Powers of Hell are always here to help us, always and forever. They never leave us. The cares about and loves us, deeply.
Ask them and stay open to them. Remember, you will get answers and responses! They are busy, so don't expect them to answer right away. Get rid of the expectations! Within a week you'll notice some changes and maybe you figure out a coincidence, amd realized you got the answer sooner than you thought.

Satan loves amd takes care of his own. Always remember that.

HAIL SATAN!

 

[Vib Triple]

Yea sounds like you are neglecting the basics:
Purify your chakras.Build an aura of protection.Detach your aura from the malignant individual whom you evidently are still attached to.Take care of your life. Study, work, build yourself under Satan's guidance.
HAIL SATAN

On Wednesday, February 25, 2015 8:46 PM, "'goldQUEEN 666.Lyf' 666.lyf@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected] wrote:


  Halo there brothers and Sisters. One if these days i have been going through some major crisis. I have worked so had to establish a relationship with Satan. And my hard work has definitely yielded....for which i am very greateful. I have always felt protected, overconfident about all most everything and above all a happy person...well, i have been all that until recently.
This crisis stated the moment i broke up with my xtian friend. We were so tight...to the extent that he was like a brother to me. I adored him so much caz he was so very caring! But a voice in my mind kept telling me to stay away from him because he was bad spiritual influence for me. I tried to push him a way but it was very hard caz all he ever did was be good to me and put my happiness before his own. I tried so hard to avoid him but then circumstance brought him around when i was needy of something...so i asked father to help me out. Now there's a long story after that but....after asking for fathers help we finally broke up. I felt so sad. But then father consoled me and told me that my friend wasn't really a friend..but rather the enemies way to get to me...that the guy went to church to prayed for  for me. I had never really told him am a satanist but he was so curious about my spiritual life...caz there's a time he jokingly called me a witch.
I guess he always knew am Satanic.
Well after breaking up with him i started to face tons of problems. First was my phone...which is my only link to the jos site and egroups....it started to malfunction that very day i broke up with him. For a while i   thought maybe i had accidentally directed negative into it,  then strangely it was only the mail section that wasn't working...i was cut off from the egroups. I cried out to father en told him that a day without visting the egroups is like a day without having to talk to family. I tried everything...i even hard reset  my phone(lge400)..i did every thing possible but all in vain, caz every thing went to normal apart from the mail section. But as if that wasn't enough...i started feeling confused. I Satrted getting all these weird thoughts in my head that Satan was punishing me for something....(but i hadnt done anything wrong) i started to feel alone and un wanted. I started feeling insecure about fathers love for me. And i was so alone...no friends, no egroups to share my problems with, and then the feeling that Satan didn't actually care about me. I kept denying in my head(telling my self that father actually loves me.)
So i constantly started bugging him to prove that he cares.
That's when i came across a sermon by Maxine that says if one feels confused its because some xtians ere praying for that person. And i knew then that that was the case bcaz my friend was a staunch bornagain christian. Worse came to worst when my meditation routine started to feel weird. I just can't concentrate(which was very easy back then). Now when ever i try to visualise brilliant gold for my aura of protection all i can see i a balckness around me...i mean all the time.
Its like my defences have totally weakened. Every other night am attacted by SPIRITS in my dreams. First was a spirit that came to me en it was in my mothers form. And i don't know how but i knew it wasn't my mother so i asked i called out to father who who gave me guts to fight the spirit... physically! It felt like fighting my mom. The following days am always running in my dreams, running from bad spirits.
But last night it was so freaking intense. It wasnt a dream...a bad spirit physically  attacked me...en i did not know what to do....but wonder where was my guardian demon...i dont even know his name.
The spirit was hurting me. It felt like it was sturbing me in the belly...and there were sone weird chants.
I was in deep pain.
I called out to father...i visualised his sigil and begged he helps me. Suddenly it all stopped. And the pain was gone. I checked my belly en there was actually no gush and blood. Well am so happy that i can now acces the egroups. But i can't use my old adress caz whenever i try to use it the phone malfunctions....its like the name has bad carma on it.
That's why i got a new one...no more "Ameixing lyf" Brothers en sisters...i was wondering wheather there's something i can do....other than a bunishing ritual...caz i have tried all that.
Pliz help me.
Caz am falling a part. Hail Satan
Hail all hell
Bless the jos administration

 

[goldQUEEN 666.Lyf]

Thank you all for the posts.
HAIL FAMILY!!!!

On Feb 27, 2015 4:24 AM, "Vib Triple vibratingtriplesix@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:

  Yea sounds like you are neglecting the basics:
Purify your chakras.Build an aura of protection.Detach your aura from the malignant individual whom you evidently are still attached to.Take care of your life. Study, work, build yourself under Satan's guidance.
HAIL SATAN

On Wednesday, February 25, 2015 8:46 PM, "'goldQUEEN 666.Lyf' 666.lyf@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:


  Halo there brothers and Sisters. One if these days i have been going through some major crisis. I have worked so had to establish a relationship with Satan. And my hard work has definitely yielded....for which i am very greateful. I have always felt protected, overconfident about all most everything and above all a happy person...well, i have been all that until recently.
This crisis stated the moment i broke up with my xtian friend. We were so tight...to the extent that he was like a brother to me. I adored him so much caz he was so very caring! But a voice in my mind kept telling me to stay away from him because he was bad spiritual influence for me. I tried to push him a way but it was very hard caz all he ever did was be good to me and put my happiness before his own. I tried so hard to avoid him but then circumstance brought him around when i was needy of something...so i asked father to help me out. Now there's a long story after that but....after asking for fathers help we finally broke up. I felt so sad. But then father consoled me and told me that my friend wasn't really a friend..but rather the enemies way to get to me...that the guy went to church to prayed for  for me. I had never really told him am a satanist but he was so curious about my spiritual life...caz there's a time he jokingly called me a witch.
I guess he always knew am Satanic.
Well after breaking up with him i started to face tons of problems. First was my phone...which is my only link to the jos site and egroups....it started to malfunction that very day i broke up with him. For a while i   thought maybe i had accidentally directed negative into it,  then strangely it was only the mail section that wasn't working...i was cut off from the egroups. I cried out to father en told him that a day without visting the egroups is like a day without having to talk to family. I tried everything...i even hard reset  my phone(lge400)..i did every thing possible but all in vain, caz every thing went to normal apart from the mail section. But as if that wasn't enough...i started feeling confused. I Satrted getting all these weird thoughts in my head that Satan was punishing me for something....(but i hadnt done anything wrong) i started to feel alone and un wanted. I started feeling insecure about fathers love for me. And i was so alone...no friends, no egroups to share my problems with, and then the feeling that Satan didn't actually care about me. I kept denying in my head(telling my self that father actually loves me.)
So i constantly started bugging him to prove that he cares.
That's when i came across a sermon by Maxine that says if one feels confused its because some xtians ere praying for that person. And i knew then that that was the case bcaz my friend was a staunch bornagain christian. Worse came to worst when my meditation routine started to feel weird. I just can't concentrate(which was very easy back then). Now when ever i try to visualise brilliant gold for my aura of protection all i can see i a balckness around me...i mean all the time.
Its like my defences have totally weakened. Every other night am attacted by SPIRITS in my dreams. First was a spirit that came to me en it was in my mothers form. And i don't know how but i knew it wasn't my mother so i asked i called out to father who who gave me guts to fight the spirit... physically! It felt like fighting my mom. The following days am always running in my dreams, running from bad spirits.
But last night it was so freaking intense. It wasnt a dream...a bad spirit physically  attacked me...en i did not know what to do....but wonder where was my guardian demon...i dont even know his name.
The spirit was hurting me. It felt like it was sturbing me in the belly...and there were sone weird chants.
I was in deep pain.
I called out to father...i visualised his sigil and begged he helps me. Suddenly it all stopped. And the pain was gone. I checked my belly en there was actually no gush and blood. Well am so happy that i can now acces the egroups. But i can't use my old adress caz whenever i try to use it the phone malfunctions....its like the name has bad carma on it.
That's why i got a new one...no more "Ameixing lyf" Brothers en sisters...i was wondering wheather there's something i can do....other than a bunishing ritual...caz i have tried all that.
Pliz help me.
Caz am falling a part. Hail Satan
Hail all hell
Bless the jos administration