Having some issues with advancing

[oxaroc]

Greeting everyone.

This might not be understood by all of you as it may seem childish or idiotic, but i'm actually in need for help.

So i've been having some trouble advancing and meditating, basically this problem is called boredom.. That's right, boredom.
Now before you close the tap, bear with me a little bit..
First of all, i'm neither new to Satanism nor new to power meditations, but i've been having this issue ever since i became a Satanist, actually i've been having it ever since i can remember.Basically it wasn't as big of an issue as it is now, because i wasn't as advanced and serious about meditating when i first dedicated my soul, but right now i'm fully "into" it and i've been like this for about a year but boredom have been preventing me from fully advancing.

How? you may ask, basically what i want is to fully commit to meditating and spiritual warfare but every time i do so, after few weeks my "will power" goes lower and i start meditating less and doing RTR's less too, and what i'm left with is boredom. I feel so bored that starting the meditation session becomes a very difficult task to do, i feel so bored that i can't focus very hard when i have a long meditating session.
Void meditation helped a lot, but never solved the problem.

And the worst thing is that nothing can satisfy me, nothing can make this boredom vanish. I was addicted to video games a while ago (not anymore), but even then boredom was still there, and no matter what i do it still remains there.

I look at our high priests/esses and wonder how can they fully dedicate their lives to spiritual advancing and warfare, i look and want that too.
But i feel (like ACTUALLY feel) like i'm gonna go insane when i try to do so, i feel like i need to do something but there's nothing to do that can satisfy me, but will only waste my time and this wasted time i could've put it in advancing myself, may it be in meditating, warfare or readying.

I don't really go full "high priest" mode in a day, i do it gradually but i still fail.

I can't really put my thoughts in the right words, this is the closest i can get and yet i don't think i explained myself well..


Now, things to consider:
I'm in my early 20's, which might be a part of the issue.
I'm an independent "adult" and i live alone, so i understand the concept of responsibilities.
I understand the concept of "no pain no gain" but as i tried to explain, sometimes i reach a point where i feel like i'm gonna explode.I've tried invoking (breathing in) both fire element and earth element, they both helped but again, they didn't solve the issue.
No, i didn't rush into meditations, i actually did it when i first dedicated and learned my lesson.
Yes, i clean my aura everyday and i do AoP too.

I'm sure my problem will seem like nonsense to some, but to me it's very real and i need to solve it.

Finally, i appreciate all of your opinions no matter how harsh they may be.
Thanks a lot in advance!

HAIL SATAN!!!! 

 

[livingforsatan]

@ oxaroc - I think I can relate but, in a different way.

In my physical workouts, I use isometrics. But, no matter how long I would work up to holding a position, it grew borrrrring. It actually got too easy.

So, I added a bit more elaborate parts to the routine (as in adding motions while holding the positions and discovering wholly different sets of musculature hoooooboy!) to make it challenging again.

Perhaps it is time to seek out some astral adventures, while also practicing the basics. Maybe it is time for you to find a student and make a whole new level of fuck-ups ( It'show we learn, right?)

I hope this helps you.

Hail Satan!

 

[Tibi Tobi]

Hello.
I was in your situation too. You can always choose work for Satan or not. Satan don't mind if you try trick yourself and try find things to do better then RTR and etc. You only one who will advance and later when time comes when you need your advanced powers and all work done. Don't blame anybody that you don't have "powers" and etc etc. What I mean that it is not super fun to sit down and do this stuff but if you keep everyday doing your work later on it will come natural. After all we are not robots you know and after you done all this day RTR's , yoga , and meditation's taht you are in at moment. You can have free time. Play computer games if you want for sometime or go outside. But then you have this good feeling that you done this day somethinga nd then you can chill a little bit. Don't try find betetr things to do. Just sit down and do what you have to done if you are really in Satanism. If not just leave and ask Satan never come back in your life if you want sit and do nothing all day. 
Hail Satan!Hail Lilith!Hail Marchosias!
-SS Todyy666


On Thursday, June 22, 2017 7:20 PM, "oxaroc@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected] wrote:


  Greeting everyone.

This might not be understood by all of you as it may seem childish or idiotic, but i'm actually in need for help.

So i've been having some trouble advancing and meditating, basically this problem is called boredom.. That's right, boredom.
Now before you close the tap, bear with me a little bit..
First of all, i'm neither new to Satanism nor new to power meditations, but i've been having this issue ever since i became a Satanist, actually i've been having it ever since i can remember.Basically it wasn't as big of an issue as it is now, because i wasn't as advanced and serious about meditating when i first dedicated my soul, but right now i'm fully "into" it and i've been like this for about a year but boredom have been preventing me from fully advancing.

How? you may ask, basically what i want is to fully commit to meditating and spiritual warfare but every time i do so, after few weeks my "will power" goes lower and i start meditating less and doing RTR's less too, and what i'm left with is boredom. I feel so bored that starting the meditation session becomes a very difficult task to do, i feel so bored that i can't focus very hard when i have a long meditating session.
Void meditation helped a lot, but never solved the problem.

And the worst thing is that nothing can satisfy me, nothing can make this boredom vanish. I was addicted to video games a while ago (not anymore), but even then boredom was still there, and no matter what i do it still remains there.

I look at our high priests/esses and wonder how can they fully dedicate their lives to spiritual advancing and warfare, i look and want that too.
But i feel (like ACTUALLY feel) like i'm gonna go insane when i try to do so, i feel like i need to do something but there's nothing to do that can satisfy me, but will only waste my time and this wasted time i could've put it in advancing myself, may it be in meditating, warfare or readying.

I don't really go full "high priest" mode in a day, i do it gradually but i still fail.

I can't really put my thoughts in the right words, this is the closest i can get and yet i don't think i explained myself well..


Now, things to consider:
I'm in my early 20's, which might be a part of the issue.
I'm an independent "adult" and i live alone, so i understand the concept of responsibilities.
I understand the concept of "no pain no gain" but as i tried to explain, sometimes i reach a point where i feel like i'm gonna explode.I've tried invoking (breathing in) both fire element and earth element, they both helped but again, they didn't solve the issue.
No, i didn't rush into meditations, i actually did it when i first dedicated and learned my lesson.
Yes, i clean my aura everyday and i do AoP too.

I'm sure my problem will seem like nonsense to some, but to me it's very real and i need to solve it.

Finally, i appreciate all of your opinions no matter how harsh they may be.
Thanks a lot in advance!

HAIL SATAN!!!! 

 

[yamans123]

I cant speak about spiritual power but i do fitness for some time and this happens to me sometimes. Solution is taking one or two days off, doing whatever you do before you return again. Also just saying as a newbie ss, even baby steps makes so much difference. Just a week of meditation and i nearly hear our gods. One more thing i can advise is going to gym. We all want to be more powerful to assist our father so why not have a fit body like a soldier shall have. İt may give you enough distraction and space to pull yourself together when boredoom strikes.

 

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@oxaroc. Ref boredom
I also understand. As no state implies, boredom is often the human psyche looking for *more*. This is the concept of competition. However, too much of a competitive spirit leads to poisonous boredom. 
Not wanting to give the enemy any more credit than it's due... Often, when the enemy can't eliminate something they turn it into what I call *poison*. In your case it's the concept of competition leading to boredom.
I'm reminded of something HP HC and Lydia said once [paraphrased]... If it doesn't help you advance then it's holding you back and needs eliminated/changed. 

So my suggestion is this... As you're searching for challenges to stave off the boredom also do a working to eliminate/change it from/in your soul. How to Obliterate Your Saturn : JoyofSatan666 [/TD] [/TR] [/TABLE] [/TD] [/TR] [TR] [TD] [/TD] [/TR] [/TABLE] [/TD] [/TR] [/TABLE]
 Also, look through the list of Gods. Find one or two whose sigil really *talk* to you. Take a screen shot, download it, however you can, and study the sigil. Often. Don't try to make conscious sense of it. Just enjoy it. You'll be surprised at the benefits of this!
Hail SatanHail Lilith
Dehna

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On Thu, Jun 22, 2017 at 12:19 PM, oxaroc@... [JoyofSatan666]<[email protected] wrote:   Greeting everyone.

This might not be understood by all of you as it may seem childish or idiotic, but i'm actually in need for help.

So i've been having some trouble advancing and meditating, basically this problem is called boredom.. That's right, boredom.
Now before you close the tap, bear with me a little bit..
First of all, i'm neither new to Satanism nor new to power meditations, but i've been having this issue ever since i became a Satanist, actually i've been having it ever since i can remember.Basically it wasn't as big of an issue as it is now, because i wasn't as advanced and serious about meditating when i first dedicated my soul, but right now i'm fully "into" it and i've been like this for about a year but boredom have been preventing me from fully advancing.

How? you may ask, basically what i want is to fully commit to meditating and spiritual warfare but every time i do so, after few weeks my "will power" goes lower and i start meditating less and doing RTR's less too, and what i'm left with is boredom. I feel so bored that starting the meditation session becomes a very difficult task to do, i feel so bored that i can't focus very hard when i have a long meditating session.
Void meditation helped a lot, but never solved the problem.

And the worst thing is that nothing can satisfy me, nothing can make this boredom vanish. I was addicted to video games a while ago (not anymore), but even then boredom was still there, and no matter what i do it still remains there.

I look at our high priests/esses and wonder how can they fully dedicate their lives to spiritual advancing and warfare, i look and want that too.
But i feel (like ACTUALLY feel) like i'm gonna go insane when i try to do so, i feel like i need to do something but there's nothing to do that can satisfy me, but will only waste my time and this wasted time i could've put it in advancing myself, may it be in meditating, warfare or readying.

I don't really go full "high priest" mode in a day, i do it gradually but i still fail.

I can't really put my thoughts in the right words, this is the closest i can get and yet i don't think i explained myself well..


Now, things to consider:
I'm in my early 20's, which might be a part of the issue.
I'm an independent "adult" and i live alone, so i understand the concept of responsibilities.
I understand the concept of "no pain no gain" but as i tried to explain, sometimes i reach a point where i feel like i'm gonna explode.I've tried invoking (breathing in) both fire element and earth element, they both helped but again, they didn't solve the issue.
No, i didn't rush into meditations, i actually did it when i first dedicated and learned my lesson.
Yes, i clean my aura everyday and i do AoP too.

I'm sure my problem will seem like nonsense to some, but to me it's very real and i need to solve it.

Finally, i appreciate all of your opinions no matter how harsh they may be.
Thanks a lot in advance!

HAIL SATAN!!!! 

 

[oxaroc]

Basic, yet seems interesting.

I guess i should try to make meditating more interesting.. I still don't think i can completely eliminate boredom, but i think i can still fight it in a way or another.

I understand what you've meant by mentioning your workouts, but if i do the same as in adding more "weight" i think i might break myself.
I've been meditating on my charkas for a while now and honestly, the highlight of my day has been working on my 3rd, especially since i'm starting to see stuff including my aura. Which made it 100 times more interesting.
But yet again, the reason why i've been focusing on my chakras is because it's what we're supposed to focus on the most, since if you want to raise your serpent you need your chakras to be fully open and functioning, yet again, meditating on them doesn't give me any motivation.
I'm gonna practice putting off a candle, that seems like an interesting thing to do, and challenging at the same time.
Thanks for sharing your thoughts, and i would be interested if you have more ideas to share.

HAIL SATAN!!!!

 

[oxaroc]

@Tibi Tobi First things first, i'm not gonna give up on doing RTR's even though they're making the enemy notice me more, hence more trouble.
And for your suggestion, with all due respect but i've already explained that doing other stuff is not giving me any satisfaction, including video games.
Lastly, i would rather live the worst life possible for 1000000 years rather than live a decent life without Satan.
Oh, and you said you "were" in my position, what happened so boredom no more became a problem?

@yamans123 your concept is okay when it comes to other stuff, but unfortunately leaving meditations for even one day can fuck you up so hard. Please don't take this as an insult, but i recommend you as a new ss to study more.
Oh and i already do fitness / sport every other day, and it helps a lot!

@denadehna i don't know how did you bring it, but you brought it! i guess this is a part of the problem, not enough challenge or maybe me making this concept "poison".
I understand the concept of boredom and striving very well, but sometimes i don't strive for more, sometimes i strive for something completely different. And i don't know why, but most meditations feel the "same" for me.
I'm gonna try meditating on some gods' sigils, seems interesting.

@livingforsatan i forgot to mention, i already "teach" two newbies, more like "mentor" to be honest. But i don't see what's fun about it, i do it as a gift for Satan. But damn, seeing their mistakes that i did before is more than boring xD

All in all thanks everyone, i'm starting to realize that this feeling will never go away and i just need to discipline myself.
I've never thought meditating would be this hard, i strongly believe it's one of the hardest things a human being can do, at least in the current time..


HAIL SATAN!!!!
HAIL ALL SATANIC WARRIORS!