Young Faith said:
Ghost in the Machine said:
Try looking for a demoness who's like Astarte, it's likely there is one who is similar that is your guardian demon which could explain the infatuation.
In fact, my eye fell on Beleth, but in that moment I wasn't really looking for my Guardian, in that moment I was looking for Demons' pics, because I enjoy watch these beautful beings, so I noticed that Beleth is one of the few Demons who has a picture, and when I opened it I found her very attractive and pretty, but I don't know, I don't think I'm opened enough, but I kinda feel a warm, hot, sensation now that I'm writing this, sooo, maybeee.. idk, i don't really know, even because I don't know what's my element (may it be Air since I had anxiety and still have overthinking issues? Air is her element, so)
I'd get into trance but, because of my overthinking I'm failing it, it is almost impossible for me at the moment to get in trance.
I have a lotta doubts, since this hot sensation I'm feeling is very common at this hour of the night (2am), I always feel hot, probably because of the laptop warming up my legs. And when I found Byleth, I don't think I felt the same thing as you felt with Andras.
It's very strange cause I like more the details about Byleth/Beleth than details about Astarte, such as candles color etc, but in a general way it's like I prefer Astarte, but I'm starting to think that it's just my ego, who desires such an important Demoness
Funny how it's a lot easier to save an entire planet through the final Ritual, than discover who's your Guardian Demon, when you're new
Don't base your guardian demon on appearance and if you like how they look, that is irrelevant to who your guardian demon is. I'm not attracted to my guardian demon and he's not "my type" either but I recognize that he is beautiful.
Your guardian demon is someone you are assigned with based on their office, what they specialize in, who you are, etc, how they can bring out the best in you. They are your teacher, your guide to your role and purpose, not your lover, there's nothing wrong however in finding your guardian attractive though but it's not the fundamental reason they are your guardian.
Beleth seems to office over love, relationships, the foundation of human connection. Is this something you find interest in? Do you strongly feel drawn in admiration to human connection and love? Do you see a purpose on a road relating to this? I have the impression she is gentle in disposition and has specialization in forms of connection such as communications, writings, words, the intellectual side of the personality, like the Air element. Do you enjoy speech? Forms of communication? Do you write a lot? Do you revel in the sheer potential and power these things can bring forth? Do you admire and really find great thrill in the mental aspects of the personality?
If yes to virtually all of these things, then it's highly likely she is your guardian demon. You see they are guides on
who we are. Andras is Satan's chief guard and head of security, he trains warriors, he specializes in matters of combat, warfare, defense, executing the power of aggression for the cause of security. He's ruthless to all enemies and rules over 'berserkers'.
I am
heavily war driven, combat, fire, aggression, fighting, battle, I live it, I breathe it, I revel in it, I live the life of the battlefield even at rest and
am a berserker. He is also an artist, lives for the open heart of creativity and imagination. I am immensely imaginative, am an artist and a writer, have invented whole worlds in stories for years and everything from my own creativity and still do and will forever onward. Need I say more?
This is what I mean when I say whoever your guardian demon is you are very much like them or specialize in their office, and this helps to find out who they are. Think really hard about who you are, what
drives you, who you want to be, who you see yourself as in the future, what kind of role you truly, truly want. This may help you narrow things down. Look at all of your interests, what you truly like what you admire, what you enjoy most deep in your soul, bring all of them together, what do they say about you? What are these aspects? Light? Dark? Gentle? Strong? Aggressive? Wistful? Wonderous? Divine? Beauty? Water? Earth? Fire? Air? Ether?
Truly knowing who you are will help you narrow down who your guardian demon is. But knowing who you are is something more powerful and useful than just figuring out who your guardian is; Knowing who you are helps drive your advancement, your spiritual freedom, your strengths, power.
So try to know who you are, if not to find out who your guardian demon is, then to drive your spiritual advancement.