Gaming...awkward depression...

[Bravera]

I can't stop fighting, it's the only thing I want to do, so I keep removing things from my life, I'm currently trying to remove video games from my life, but the problem is, I've spent more time playing video games in my life than anything else, but not casual gaming, I'm a very competitive gamer, I'm in it for the sport..

Now I want to quit gaming so badly, but at the same time, I think it's part of what I'm "meant" to do, I am sure I could make a career out of competitive gaming, and literally be #1 thanks to power meditations... And it would be something I love, I would be promoting Satanism as well...

I suppose maybe I feel like an aspiring professional athlete who has to throw away their sport due to injury, because the whole planet is bleeding.
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I am really "depressed" right now and that's very weird coming from me, nothing I do is bringing me satisfaction, meditation, food, yoga, Ritual, gaming, music, working out... It almost feels like I'm in a jail cell... My satisfaction lasts for a moment and then my mind returns to frustration that the enemy has any power on this planet, so I want to fight harder, but my "satisfaction" isn't there...?

 

[Seby]

awkward depression

Yours is nothing in comparison to mine.
But I think doing anything else that pleases you would help, like sports or watching movies. Or how about developing games? I'm working on getting a job related to the depression I have, which is extremely embarrassing.

 

[Dahaarkan]

I've (relatively) recently changed my view on video games. They are a poison and you should avoid them like the plague.

Video games are specifically designed to trick your brain into believing that you are ACHIEVING something, when in reality you achieve nothing and simply waste incredible amounts of time with this trash. Everyone who is into video games you should seek to remove this poison from your life.


Video games do something incredibly heinous I've been made aware of this recently. The tactic of granting the player a sense of accomplishment has been perfected to the point where young people are literally wasting their lives in front of a computer screen, only realizing too late that feel of accomplishment is fake and all the years they have spent on this garbage have been a complete waste. Their youth wasted and stolen by this poison.

Imagine how much better you could be if all the hours you have put into video games you had spent researching, developing an actual skill, etc. I personally have been a victim of this poison and I strongly encourage everyone to do your best to kick this poison out of your life.

 

[Aquarius]

I have tried to quit gaming in the past too, and what I learned from it is that gaming is not the problem, the problem is when you abuse things that you like to escape from duty. Gaming is a nice thing and there's games which are just pieces of art, so you shouldnt be ashamed of gaming because you're wasting your time ecc
What you should do is manage your time so that you have fun time after you're done with your daily work.
communism is based on long strenuous work followed by no rewards or satisfaction, we arent communists, life is gratifying and beautiful and we shouldnt overwork ourselves(on a daily basis atleast).

 

[Fuchs]

I can't stop fighting, it's the only thing I want to do, so I keep removing things from my life, I'm currently trying to remove video games from my life, but the problem is, I've spent more time playing video games in my life than anything else, but not casual gaming, I'm a very competitive gamer, I'm in it for the sport..

Now I want to quit gaming so badly, but at the same time, I think it's part of what I'm "meant" to do, I am sure I could make a career out of competitive gaming, and literally be #1 thanks to power meditations... And it would be something I love, I would be promoting Satanism as well...

I suppose maybe I feel like an aspiring professional athlete who has to throw away their sport due to injury, because the whole planet is bleeding.
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I am really "depressed" right now and that's very weird coming from me, nothing I do is bringing me satisfaction, meditation, food, yoga, Ritual, gaming, music, working out... It almost feels like I'm in a jail cell... My satisfaction lasts for a moment and then my mind returns to frustration that the enemy has any power on this planet, so I want to fight harder, but my "satisfaction" isn't there...?

I would not cut out gaming completly , here is a reply from HP Zevios Metathronos

https://www.ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?p=80342#p80342

"Fuchs wrote:

HP. Zevios Metathronos wrote:
I have not played this game nor know its content, but it looks like it had a story. Zero time for any of that however for me.

It sounds very interesting. Not sure what the story is about, but it looks insightful.

If anyone plays it and they are in the loop, posting a review of it may be insightful actually.



Pardon my more off topic queston :

Is npc stuff like gaming not boring, compared to travel/explore the astral and other advanced spiritual techniques?



Yes, that is for sure for the spiritual, but also, a lot of simple things do actually have deeper meaning the more one advances. These include even simple things such as a walk in the park, or things like that.

People who waste their life in that stuff all day long like many people are doing now have a lot in parallel with drug users.

A balance is required between spiritual/physical, mundane/advanced etc.

If one is gaming but they aren't like a crackhead about it, spending all their life energy and day into something solely like that, I personally see nothing bad with this. A lot of people with gaming have become crackheads and they do not understand it. There are people who use 15+ hours of their day into that.

Quite a few people have become crackheads with video games, but not all. This is called being a no lifer."

maybe try something new like go hiking or do more Rituals when i do more a day i get a positive feeling.

 

[Bravera]

awkward depression

Yours is nothing in comparison to mine.
But I think doing anything else that pleases you would help, like sports or watching movies. Or how about developing games? I'm working on getting a job related to the depression I have, which is extremely embarrassing.

Ive spent some time programming actually and had alot of fun using python...
Ive been thinking recently of joining a roleplaying community, work on my storytelling and imagination, would probably help with opening my astral senses too.
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You know although Im in a bit of a funk right now, usually what helps me is just forcing a smile, and smile everytime you look in the mirror no matter what! I think smiling should be included as a power meditation.
https://youtu.be/WJotVinhXJ4
Heres a video I hope will make you laugh

 

[Bravera]

I've (relatively) recently changed my view on video games. They are a poison and you should avoid them like the plague.

Video games are specifically designed to trick your brain into believing that you are ACHIEVING something, when in reality you achieve nothing and simply waste incredible amounts of time with this trash. Everyone who is into video games you should seek to remove this poison from your life.


Video games do something incredibly heinous I've been made aware of this recently. The tactic of granting the player a sense of accomplishment has been perfected to the point where young people are literally wasting their lives in front of a computer screen, only realizing too late that feel of accomplishment is fake and all the years they have spent on this garbage have been a complete waste. Their youth wasted and stolen by this poison.

Imagine how much better you could be if all the hours you have put into video games you had spent researching, developing an actual skill, etc. I personally have been a victim of this poison and I strongly encourage everyone to do your best to kick this poison out of your life.

I do agree that the time used gaming can be more optimally used elsewhere, but I have advanced physically, mentally, and even spiritually thanks to video games. That sense of accomplishment is still real, it required mental and physical input to overcome a real challenge, how different is this from playing chess or sudoku? Is chess in video game form obsolete just because its "fake"?

 

[Sahrot]

I would like to say playing video games is a wasting of time. I think only those who weak-minded need those things.
My ideal life is sparing no effort to work for Satan. Every second if possible. I don't care other worthless things. I won't feel uncomfortable, I love and enjoy this kind of strick life.
I understand that to live a better life entertainment is necessary. But I'd rather live like a emotionless living weapon. Maybe I am insane. :roll:

 

[Gearshift]

It almost feels like I'm in a jail cell... My satisfaction lasts for a moment and then my mind returns to frustration

You just defined me in one sentence. Jail cell. Like my father said to me a few times "You live in this house the walls and the four walls of your room, what do you know about the real world or being real, your a prisoner among your four walls of your room."

In fact to take it to an even more negative tone like I'll state below. I feel like a spectator in life. Just sitting there and nothing occurring. And please don't say "Do something" cause I'll reply with "What do I do". I genuinely have no idea what to do.

Honestly it's gotten to the point I'm just a spectator in life and when I view games on youtube it's just as a spectator. Reminds me of my early childhood gaming whereby either I did poorly in a game(used game guide manuals or cheats) or I sat around watching my friends play it. Hence spectator in life.

Last time I played video games was in late 2012-early 2013 time period; so 6-to-7 years ago. I did the whole MMORPG thing and FPS gaming thing. Frankly to be honest I can't say if it was worth my time or not. I will admit I did at certain points enjoy things. I did spend some time researching and buying things to be better at games. As a matter of fact I delved very deep much more so than others would be.

But despite wishing I was gaming. I don't want to do it. Despite just being a spectator in life and not enjoying it.

 

[Fuchs]

I would like to say playing video games is a wasting of time. I think only those who weak-minded need those things.
My ideal life is sparing no effort to work for Satan. Every second if possible. I don't care other worthless things. I won't feel uncomfortable, I love and enjoy this kind of strick life.
I understand that to live a better life entertainment is necessary. But I'd rather live like a emotionless living weapon. Maybe I am insane. :roll:

If your profile picture is a picture of you, please remove it, the enemy will use this to curse you.

 

[groryofsatan666]

I would like to say playing video games is a wasting of time. I think only those who weak-minded need those things.
My ideal life is sparing no effort to work for Satan. Every second if possible. I don't care other worthless things. I won't feel uncomfortable, I love and enjoy this kind of strick life.
I understand that to live a better life entertainment is necessary. But I'd rather live like a emotionless living weapon. Maybe I am insane. :roll:

If your profile picture is a picture of you, please remove it, the enemy will use this to curse you.

Hehehehe,look at that profile pic,that is not human,am sure that's a picture of some E.Ts online.like the tall whites

 

[Sahrot]

If your profile picture is a picture of you, please remove it, the enemy will use this to curse you.

Hehehehe,look at that profile pic,that is not human,am sure that's a picture of some E.Ts online.like the tall whites

???Of course isn't me. You can easily find pictures like this on the internet.
To avoid any inconvenience, I changed it.

 

[Aquarius]

If your profile picture is a picture of you, please remove it, the enemy will use this to curse you.

Hehehehe,look at that profile pic,that is not human,am sure that's a picture of some E.Ts online.like the tall whites

???Of course isn't me. You can easily find pictures like this on the internet.
To avoid any inconvenience, I changed it.

You like lotr?

 

[Rook]

I can't stop fighting, it's the only thing I want to do, so I keep removing things from my life, I'm currently trying to remove video games from my life, but the problem is, I've spent more time playing video games in my life than anything else, but not casual gaming, I'm a very competitive gamer, I'm in it for the sport..

Now I want to quit gaming so badly, but at the same time, I think it's part of what I'm "meant" to do, I am sure I could make a career out of competitive gaming, and literally be #1 thanks to power meditations... And it would be something I love, I would be promoting Satanism as well...

I suppose maybe I feel like an aspiring professional athlete who has to throw away their sport due to injury, because the whole planet is bleeding.
----
I am really "depressed" right now and that's very weird coming from me, nothing I do is bringing me satisfaction, meditation, food, yoga, Ritual, gaming, music, working out... It almost feels like I'm in a jail cell... My satisfaction lasts for a moment and then my mind returns to frustration that the enemy has any power on this planet, so I want to fight harder, but my "satisfaction" isn't there...?

There's a lot of money to be made if you're good at video games, not to mention having a career in something you enjoy is like the best thing.

If you really do want to quit video games you need to find out what exactly is keeping you there, if you invested a lot of money into a game you feel like holding into that game because you made an investment into it.

For me, what had kept me addicted before was my friends, it's hard for me to play a game without having a friend or actual people to communicate with, my friends eventually found jobs etc and stopped playing, and so did i.
Now i actually have an urge NOT to play games because it's not as fun as i remembered it.

As for the depression, perhaps you need to get out more, since you said you felt like you lived in a jail cell, i think before you take up a career in gaming you should find a side job or something.

 

[Rook]

If your profile picture is a picture of you, please remove it, the enemy will use this to curse you.

Hehehehe,look at that profile pic,that is not human,am sure that's a picture of some E.Ts online.like the tall whites

This is a human, that's petri lindroos

 

[SparkingPowerUP]

I can't stop fighting, it's the only thing I want to do, so I keep removing things from my life, I'm currently trying to remove video games from my life, but the problem is, I've spent more time playing video games in my life than anything else, but not casual gaming, I'm a very competitive gamer, I'm in it for the sport..

Now I want to quit gaming so badly, but at the same time, I think it's part of what I'm "meant" to do, I am sure I could make a career out of competitive gaming, and literally be #1 thanks to power meditations... And it would be something I love, I would be promoting Satanism as well...

I suppose maybe I feel like an aspiring professional athlete who has to throw away their sport due to injury, because the whole planet is bleeding.
----
I am really "depressed" right now and that's very weird coming from me, nothing I do is bringing me satisfaction, meditation, food, yoga, Ritual, gaming, music, working out... It almost feels like I'm in a jail cell... My satisfaction lasts for a moment and then my mind returns to frustration that the enemy has any power on this planet, so I want to fight harder, but my "satisfaction" isn't there...?

I had very bad anxiety was on treatement for schizophrenia and anxiety for 2 years and 1 year for anxiety i didn't really believed i can do something about that anxiety that's how strong it was. I think the Gods guided me to see what are the causes of anxiety and i found many of them, like first thing was the treatement, some have the side effect depression and anxiety and i didn't know that. Others are the wifi that many said it can create anxiety to people who are sensitive to it. And processed foods. It's a good idea to eat more home cooked food if you eat processed foods or fast foods. You can read more here in the health forum.

If you don't have motivation you could program your subcounscious to get more motivated in doing meditations and stuff like that
It would be also good to add "I am always safe and protected in all ways"
And
"I am totally free in all ways and from any curses."

You shoudn't suppose any thing, never, there is about the enemy attacks and they (enemy nordics) are using this to separate us from Satan, from the Gods. Search on the Library of Thoth about attacks CTRL+F and search option in phone browser.

You can play games but playing games the whole day widouth getting nothing from it it's useless but if you earn money from that then it's worth doing but otherwise playing less is better and focusing on Zevism, on Our self, learning and earning money and working is more important that playing games the whole day. I also played games the whole day a few years back but now i just use it to relax and i play like 1 hour per day. Started playing an RTS game (LOL) XD

 

[SparkingPowerUP]

I can't stop fighting, it's the only thing I want to do, so I keep removing things from my life, I'm currently trying to remove video games from my life, but the problem is, I've spent more time playing video games in my life than anything else, but not casual gaming, I'm a very competitive gamer, I'm in it for the sport..

Now I want to quit gaming so badly, but at the same time, I think it's part of what I'm "meant" to do, I am sure I could make a career out of competitive gaming, and literally be #1 thanks to power meditations... And it would be something I love, I would be promoting Satanism as well...

I suppose maybe I feel like an aspiring professional athlete who has to throw away their sport due to injury, because the whole planet is bleeding.
----
I am really "depressed" right now and that's very weird coming from me, nothing I do is bringing me satisfaction, meditation, food, yoga, Ritual, gaming, music, working out... It almost feels like I'm in a jail cell... My satisfaction lasts for a moment and then my mind returns to frustration that the enemy has any power on this planet, so I want to fight harder, but my "satisfaction" isn't there...?

And if you program you subcounscious record your affirmations and listen to them at night before going to sleep do it for 40 days and another 40 days if needed.

 

[mlimlal666]

I notice some people get depressed when freeing the soul, wunjo rune helps and suryae, in this case, an increase of cleaning the aura/ chakras daily helps.

 

[Desdemona_666]

If you like playing games, play games. There is nothing bad in that.



Only thing bad is when you are overdoing it.



And sometimes there are days when you feel like doing nothing, you have no interest in anything. That’s fine too, because most of the people experience this temporary, and they are back on the track.



See you in Apex Legends, if you’re playing....

 

[hailourtruegod]

Be honest when finding the root of your problems.dont start pointing fingers on things that don't have any fault by itself like video games. So many people out there who game play video games for about fucking 10 hours a day or more and then bitch about feeling depressed. Well no shit Sherlock. You're indulging way too much on something that is supposed to be fun and something you can do once you're done with daily work around the house, work, meditations and doing it way too much and overloading on it.

Gaming isn't like a drug where it literally changes your conscious state. Unlike weed or alcohol you still have full conscious while gaming.


Like HP Myla said as well. Cleaning out your soul can bring sadness and other bad feelings in people and I speak from experience. Keep things in moderation and continue cleaning uour soul and aura

 

[Bravera]

If you like playing games, play games. There is nothing bad in that.



Only thing bad is when you are overdoing it.



And sometimes there are days when you feel like doing nothing, you have no interest in anything. That’s fine too, because most of the people experience this temporary, and they are back on the track.



See you in Apex Legends, if you’re playing....

6 years of League of Legends, Im finally retired from that game though, actually my new game of choice is in fact Apex Legends 666 Plus Ultra!
I try to always do my meditations, Rituals, and yoga prior to playing, "Perfect practice makes Perfect"

 

[Sahrot]

You like lotr?

Wow I never thought someone can recognize her. :shock:
Yes I like lotr. When I read Tolkien's books years ago I was attracted deeply by his description of middle earth's gods. I had a feeling that I should follow gods in real life.