Feeling lost

[onesome66]

Hello all,It's quite a long story so I'll try to make it as short as possible.I'm a 22yo young men born from a french mother and a british father, I"m unemployed, and I'm not studying as well.
I've always been treated like shit by the others at school, from my youngest age to high school. As a result I don't have any self confidence, I've always been "the weird one", alone or with the others strange people. When I was at high school, I've been trying to integrate myself, but I wasn't myself, I didn't feel good.I started smoking when I was 12, and drinking at 14, I discovered hard drugs (cocaïne, MDMA..) a few months ago. 
Since I left high school, I have no idea of where I'm going, I feel totaly lost, empty, incomplete. So, I've been drinking, I made a lot of party, but in fact I was destroying myself. When I've had 20yo, I had a "revelation", I stopped smoking after 8 years, almost stopped drinking, suddenly I wanted to make something with my life, to become rich, so I've cut ties with my actual friends, and I tried to find my way to success. It was a permanent fight against myself to stay active, be sporty, and stay open to new things, but It didn't work as expected, I was still lost, and I built, unconsciously, a wall between me and the world. 
I had a lot of GF/Sex friends, but I've never felt in love since I was 15, as I've been betrayed my first GF I didn't want to feel like this again, until a year ago, I met a girl, I think I was in love  with her (what isn't usual for me) so I took a plane for Belarus, to see her, with the hope that she could be the solution. When we met,I instantly started to feel good, like if I had found something that was missing in my life, but the met gone wrong, so she has gone back home, and we didn't meet again. Now I'm trying to forget her and go ahead, but she left a void.
I've never been a believer, on the contrary I've always spit on christians, muslims, and jews. But today, fear, anguish and anxiety are ruling my life, I'm tired of this, I feel disconnected from reality, from my self, I don't know who I am, so I'm taking drugs to avoid thinking a few hours. My routine is my hell, I wanna get out of this, could Father help me?..
Sorry if I did mistakes, I'm not a native speaker. Feel free to ask if you need any precisions. 

 

[all me]

Father can help you here, only If you're willing to help yourself. You need to gain some self control here a little and get back on the right track.



When we do power meditation and yoga we access our higher self and our higher mind. Anytime you need the answer to a personal question or what you should do about something, it's always a good idea to do kundalini yoga or a good power meditation to activate this higher self and then think about the question or what you need to do and you will most likely know.


Lilith said humanitys number one priority should be Reaching the Godhead. So with this and the above being said what you need to do is start doing your power meditations, empower your chakras, do kundalini yoga and also hatha yoga if you can, and not only will you start spiritually advancing but you will start figuring out what you need to do with yourself. This will really help, if you do this and try to stay away from drugs.
You will know what you need to do.


Satan is willing to help you if like I said you're willing to help yourself. Don't just ask Satan to fix this, you need to make your own efforts and as you start empowering yourself and figuring out what you need to do you can ask Father Satan to show you and guide you to what you need to be doing spiritually and for your life like you say. Be opened And he will show you and guide you. It's best if you do Torah rituals though, to help in the war And Satan appreciate it and helps those who help themselves and him.


Hang in there man, stay strong and try to stay away from drugs and negative influences. You can get your life back on the right track. Do you want it enough?


Hope this helps, stay strong.
--------------------------------------------

On Sun, 4/16/17, onesome66@... [JoyofSatan666] <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:


Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Feeling lost
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Date: Sunday, April 16, 2017, 5:35 PM


 









Hello all,It's quite a long
story so I'll try to make it as short as
possible.I'm a 22yo young men born from a
french mother and a british father, I"m unemployed, and
I'm not studying as well.
I've always been treated like
shit by the others at school, from my youngest age to high
school. As a result I don't have any self confidence,
I've always been "the weird one", alone or
with the others strange people. When I was at high school,
I've been trying to integrate myself, but I wasn't
myself, I didn't feel good.I started smoking
when I was 12, and drinking at 14, I discovered hard drugs
(cocaïne, MDMA..) a few months ago. 
Since I left high school, I have no
idea of where I'm going, I feel totaly lost, empty,
incomplete. So, I've been drinking, I made a lot of
party, but in fact I was destroying myself. When I've
had 20yo, I had a "revelation", I stopped smoking
after 8 years, almost stopped drinking, suddenly I wanted to
make something with my life, to become rich, so I've cut
ties with my actual friends, and I tried to find my way to
success. It was a permanent fight against myself to stay
active, be sporty, and stay open to new things, but It
didn't work as expected, I was still lost, and I built,
unconsciously, a wall between me and the
world. 
I had a lot
of GF/Sex friends, but I've never felt in love since I
was 15, as I've been betrayed my first GF I didn't
want to feel like this again, until a year ago, I met a
girl, I think I was in love  with her (what isn't usual
for me) so I took a plane for Belarus, to see her, with the
hope that she could be the solution. When we met,I instantly
started to feel good, like if I had found something that was
missing in my life, but the met gone wrong, so she has gone
back home, and we didn't meet again. Now I'm trying
to forget her and go ahead, but she left a
void.
I've never
been a believer, on the contrary I've always spit on
christians, muslims, and jews. But today, fear, anguish and
anxiety are ruling my life, I'm tired of this, I feel
disconnected from reality, from my self, I don't know
who I am, so I'm taking drugs to avoid thinking a few
hours. My routine is my hell, I wanna get out of this, could
Father help me?..
Sorry if I did mistakes, I'm not
a native speaker. Feel free to ask if you need any
precisions. 











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[all me]

Father can help you here, only If you're willing to help yourself. You need to gain some self control here a little and get back on the right track.



When we do power meditation and yoga we access our higher self and our higher mind. Anytime you need the answer to a personal question or what you should do about something, it's always a good idea to do kundalini yoga or a good power meditation to activate this higher self and then think about the question or what you need to do and you will most likely know.


Lilith said humanitys number one priority should be Reaching the Godhead. So with this and the above being said what you need to do is start doing your power meditations, empower your chakras, do kundalini yoga and also hatha yoga if you can, and not only will you start spiritually advancing but you will start figuring out what you need to do with yourself. This will really help, if you do this and try to stay away from drugs.
You will know what you need to do.


Satan is willing to help you if like I said you're willing to help yourself. Don't just ask Satan to fix this, you need to make your own efforts and as you start empowering yourself and figuring out what you need to do you can ask Father Satan to show you and guide you to what you need to be doing spiritually and for your life like you say. Be opened And he will show you and guide you. It's best if you do Torah rituals though, to help in the war And Satan appreciate it and helps those who help themselves and him.


Hang in there man, stay strong and try to stay away from drugs and negative influences. You can get your life back on the right track. Do you want it enough?


Hope this helps, stay strong.
--------------------------------------------

On Sun, 4/16/17, onesome66@... [JoyofSatan666] <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:


Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Feeling lost
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Date: Sunday, April 16, 2017, 5:35 PM


 









Hello all,It's quite a long
story so I'll try to make it as short as
possible.I'm a 22yo young men born from a
french mother and a british father, I"m unemployed, and
I'm not studying as well.
I've always been treated like
shit by the others at school, from my youngest age to high
school. As a result I don't have any self confidence,
I've always been "the weird one", alone or
with the others strange people. When I was at high school,
I've been trying to integrate myself, but I wasn't
myself, I didn't feel good.I started smoking
when I was 12, and drinking at 14, I discovered hard drugs
(cocaïne, MDMA..) a few months ago. 
Since I left high school, I have no
idea of where I'm going, I feel totaly lost, empty,
incomplete. So, I've been drinking, I made a lot of
party, but in fact I was destroying myself. When I've
had 20yo, I had a "revelation", I stopped smoking
after 8 years, almost stopped drinking, suddenly I wanted to
make something with my life, to become rich, so I've cut
ties with my actual friends, and I tried to find my way to
success. It was a permanent fight against myself to stay
active, be sporty, and stay open to new things, but It
didn't work as expected, I was still lost, and I built,
unconsciously, a wall between me and the
world. 
I had a lot
of GF/Sex friends, but I've never felt in love since I
was 15, as I've been betrayed my first GF I didn't
want to feel like this again, until a year ago, I met a
girl, I think I was in love  with her (what isn't usual
for me) so I took a plane for Belarus, to see her, with the
hope that she could be the solution. When we met,I instantly
started to feel good, like if I had found something that was
missing in my life, but the met gone wrong, so she has gone
back home, and we didn't meet again. Now I'm trying
to forget her and go ahead, but she left a
void.
I've never
been a believer, on the contrary I've always spit on
christians, muslims, and jews. But today, fear, anguish and
anxiety are ruling my life, I'm tired of this, I feel
disconnected from reality, from my self, I don't know
who I am, so I'm taking drugs to avoid thinking a few
hours. My routine is my hell, I wanna get out of this, could
Father help me?..
Sorry if I did mistakes, I'm not
a native speaker. Feel free to ask if you need any
precisions. 











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[all me]

Father can help you here, only If you're willing to help yourself. You need to gain some self control here a little and get back on the right track.



When we do power meditation and yoga we access our higher self and our higher mind. Anytime you need the answer to a personal question or what you should do about something, it's always a good idea to do kundalini yoga or a good power meditation to activate this higher self and then think about the question or what you need to do and you will most likely know.


Lilith said humanitys number one priority should be Reaching the Godhead. So with this and the above being said what you need to do is start doing your power meditations, empower your chakras, do kundalini yoga and also hatha yoga if you can, and not only will you start spiritually advancing but you will start figuring out what you need to do with yourself. This will really help, if you do this and try to stay away from drugs.
You will know what you need to do.


Satan is willing to help you if like I said you're willing to help yourself. Don't just ask Satan to fix this, you need to make your own efforts and as you start empowering yourself and figuring out what you need to do you can ask Father Satan to show you and guide you to what you need to be doing spiritually and for your life like you say. Be opened And he will show you and guide you. It's best if you do Torah rituals though, to help in the war And Satan appreciate it and helps those who help themselves and him.


Hang in there man, stay strong and try to stay away from drugs and negative influences. You can get your life back on the right track. Do you want it enough?


Hope this helps, stay strong.
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On Sun, 4/16/17, onesome66@... [JoyofSatan666] <[url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url] wrote:


Subject: [JoyofSatan666] Feeling lost
To: [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url]
Date: Sunday, April 16, 2017, 5:35 PM


 









Hello all,It's quite a long
story so I'll try to make it as short as
possible.I'm a 22yo young men born from a
french mother and a british father, I"m unemployed, and
I'm not studying as well.
I've always been treated like
shit by the others at school, from my youngest age to high
school. As a result I don't have any self confidence,
I've always been "the weird one", alone or
with the others strange people. When I was at high school,
I've been trying to integrate myself, but I wasn't
myself, I didn't feel good.I started smoking
when I was 12, and drinking at 14, I discovered hard drugs
(cocaïne, MDMA..) a few months ago. 
Since I left high school, I have no
idea of where I'm going, I feel totaly lost, empty,
incomplete. So, I've been drinking, I made a lot of
party, but in fact I was destroying myself. When I've
had 20yo, I had a "revelation", I stopped smoking
after 8 years, almost stopped drinking, suddenly I wanted to
make something with my life, to become rich, so I've cut
ties with my actual friends, and I tried to find my way to
success. It was a permanent fight against myself to stay
active, be sporty, and stay open to new things, but It
didn't work as expected, I was still lost, and I built,
unconsciously, a wall between me and the
world. 
I had a lot
of GF/Sex friends, but I've never felt in love since I
was 15, as I've been betrayed my first GF I didn't
want to feel like this again, until a year ago, I met a
girl, I think I was in love  with her (what isn't usual
for me) so I took a plane for Belarus, to see her, with the
hope that she could be the solution. When we met,I instantly
started to feel good, like if I had found something that was
missing in my life, but the met gone wrong, so she has gone
back home, and we didn't meet again. Now I'm trying
to forget her and go ahead, but she left a
void.
I've never
been a believer, on the contrary I've always spit on
christians, muslims, and jews. But today, fear, anguish and
anxiety are ruling my life, I'm tired of this, I feel
disconnected from reality, from my self, I don't know
who I am, so I'm taking drugs to avoid thinking a few
hours. My routine is my hell, I wanna get out of this, could
Father help me?..
Sorry if I did mistakes, I'm not
a native speaker. Feel free to ask if you need any
precisions. 











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[descipleofthegods13]

Yes Father Satan can help you if you earnestly WANT to stop doing all things that are harmful to your body and Soul.

I also suggest you start reading and studing the Joy of Satan and if you agree with it you can Dedicate your Soul to Satan. Satan will really only help you if you are Dedicated which shows that you are serious about this.

There are certain meditations that will help you overcome drug and alcohol addiction. Although Satan may lead you to other things as well.

After you have Dedicated you can begin a meditation program.

Hail Satan.