feeling completely deadlocked and cornered.
sometimes there are such situations that my brain really stops. i cannot even think. even when someone says "excuse me, can I pass?" i just stare blankly.
sometimes the walls seem to be closing in on me. if i go outside, its the same. the effects of my meditations and Rituals seem to be short-lived on my soul. cuz when i put my head on my pillow, everything is back to square one.
i get tears in my eyes even when i look at a random glass or an unknown baby for no reason. if i start crying it takes hours to stop.
last week when i did Hps Pythia's ritual for the first time, i had to stop the ritual halfway through because of crying.
years ago when i was a new Zevist i used to feel so strong that i could destroy the whole universe and rebuild it. now i find it difficult to even move a leaf. i feel weak and lonely. during my last ritual, i asked Satan why i cannot hug you physically? (it wasnt a question)
i need someone to tell me step by step what to do and what not to do. because i feel like somethings that , cannot notice nor control is killing me day by day
feeling deadlocked
Aarti2 min to readYou need to meditate on the source of your problems and what makes you feel this way.
Whether it's a long-standing problem or a recent one, you need to review your steps and analyze what you thought or did when everything was "normal".
Look back and study your new behavior and find out what it's made of, past hurts, traumas, unresolved problems and so on.
Make a Moon square and use a water mantra so that it puts your feelings in order. This is for introspection, which will make you understand your feelings more deeply and the origin of all of them. If it's something atrological you'll be guided to it.
Train yourself to hold the energy of your meditation, don't let your concentration wander because this will help you maintain the same feeling for several minutes.
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... εἰ δὲ νοεῖς, ἔστιν, ὦ βασιλεῦ, ϰαὶ σωμάτων ἀσώματα. — Ποῖα; ἔφη ὁ βασιλεύς. — Τὰ ἐν τοῖς ἐσόπτροις φαινόμενα σώματα οὐ δοϰεῖ σοι ἀσώματα εἶναι; — Οὕτως ἔχει, ὦ Τάτ· ϑείως νοεῖς, ὁ βασιλεὺς εἶπεν. — Ἔστι δὲ ϰαὶ ἀσώματα ἄλλα, οἷον αἱ ἰδέαι οὐ δοϰοῦσιν εἶναί σοι, ἀσώματοι οὖσαι, ἐν σώματι φαινόμεναι, οὐ μόνον τῶν ἐμψύχων ἀλλὰ ϰαὶ τῶν ἀψύχων; — Εὖ λέγεις, ὦ Τάτ. — Οὕτως ἀνταναϰλάσεις εἰσὶ τῶν ἀσωμάτων πρὸς τὰ σώματα, ϰαὶ τῶν σωμάτων πρὸς τὰ ἀσώματα, τουτέστι τοῦ αἰσϑητοῦ πρὸς τὸν νοητὸν ϰόσμον ϰαὶ τοῦ νοητοῦ πρὸς τὸν αἰσϑητόν· διὸ προσϰύνει τὰ ἀγάλματα, ὦ βασιλεῦ, ὡς ϰαὶ αὐτὰ ἰδέας ἔχοντα ἀπὸ τοῦ νοητοῦ ϰόσμου. ὁ οὖν βασιλεὺς ἐξαναστὰς ἔφη, Ὥρα ἐστίν, ὦ προφήτα, περὶ τὴν τῶν ξένων ἐπιμέλειαν γενέσϑαι· τῇ δὲ ἐπιούσῃ περὶ τῶν ἑξης ϑεολογήσομεν.
You need to meditate on the source of your problems and what makes you feel this way.
Whether it's a long-standing problem or a recent one, you need to review your steps and analyze what you thought or did when everything was "normal".
Look back and study your new behavior and find out what it's made of, past hurts, traumas, unresolved problems and so on.
Make a Moon square and use a water mantra so that it puts your feelings in order. This is for introspection, which will make you understand your feelings more deeply and the origin of all of them. If it's something atrological you'll be guided to it.
Train yourself to hold the energy of your meditation, don't let your concentration wander because this will help you maintain the same feeling for several minutes.
it was Mars Square
oh i started it too even 2 times but failed lol cuz i had guests at home. i couldnt find time to complete my square
Fight and don't give up. We are with you and with every brother/sister who is fighting their limits.💪🏻
Reconnect with nature and you will see that everything will slowly fall into place.🌸
omggg you made me cryyyyyyyyyy im happy to be with you all. years ago, i had to stay away from my Zevism friends for a long time. and today i noticed life is being harder alone.
Seeing you with your soulmate made me happier. because its not easy something.
thank you for all good sentences
i love yall
But are you really white? If not, that would be a mistake, and the most appropriate would be to find another Zevism of your same country and with the same racial composition as you.
tbh i dont know what am i. but my skin is pure white. like milk. but my hair is soooo black. even some people asked me that did i dye my hair before? and then i changed my hair colour with kinesis (i forgot which one). my family has been living in same city since 1700 (government keeps some documents about it, thats how we know). so i dont think there will be a problem with an european guy, or will be?
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it was Mars Square
oh i started it too even 2 times but failed lol cuz i had guests at home. i couldnt find time to complete my square
Fight and don't give up. We are with you and with every brother/sister who is fighting their limits.💪🏻
Reconnect with nature and you will see that everything will slowly fall into place.🌸
omggg you made me cryyyyyyyyyy im happy to be with you all. years ago, i had to stay away from my Zevism friends for a long time. and today i noticed life is being harder alone.
Seeing you with your soulmate made me happier. because its not easy something.
thank you for all good sentences
i love yall
But are you really white? If not, that would be a mistake, and the most appropriate would be to find another Zevism of your same country and with the same racial composition as you.
tbh i dont know what am i. but my skin is pure white. like milk. but my hair is soooo black. even some people asked me that did i dye my hair before? and then i changed my hair colour with kinesis (i forgot which one). my family has been living in same city since 1700 (government keeps some documents about it, thats how we know). so i dont think there will be a problem with an european guy, or will be?
Have a look when you feel you are ready. There is no rush.
hey i got jealous of your badges 🤨🤨😠😠
i want starry astrology one
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Have a look when you feel you are ready. There is no rush.
hey i got jealous of your badges 🤨🤨😠😠
i want starry astrology one
hey i got jealous of your badges 🤨🤨😠😠
i want starry astrology one
Badges are not for show only, but to indicate contributions to the community. If you really want to get recognized as an astrologer then I suggest you start from proper writing as your current level is not acceptable in professional setting, and practice reading charts for a few years after you have read theory about the topic extensively.
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hey i got jealous of your badges 🤨🤨😠😠
i want starry astrology one
Badges are not for show only, but to indicate contributions to the community. If you really want to get recognized as an astrologer then I suggest you start from proper writing as your current level is not acceptable in professional setting, and practice reading charts for a few years after you have read theory about the topic extensively.
Badges are not for show only, but to indicate contributions to the community. If you really want to get recognized as an astrologer then I suggest you start from proper writing as your current level is not acceptable in professional setting, and practice reading charts for a few years after you have read theory about the topic extensively.
i know reading astro chart very well, but im not a serious person who can text properly. i dont prefer. i love acting how am i. thanks for clarifying
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Badges are not for show only, but to indicate contributions to the community. If you really want to get recognized as an astrologer then I suggest you start from proper writing as your current level is not acceptable in professional setting, and practice reading charts for a few years after you have read theory about the topic extensively.
i know reading astro chart very well, but im not a serious person who can text properly. i dont prefer. i love acting how am i. thanks for clarifying
feeling completely deadlocked and cornered.
sometimes there are such situations that my brain really stops. i cannot even think. even when someone says "excuse me, can I pass?" i just stare blankly.
sometimes the walls seem to be closing in on me. if i go outside, its the same. the effects of my meditations and Rituals seem to be short-lived on my soul. cuz when i put my head on my pillow, everything is back to square one.
i get tears in my eyes even when i look at a random glass or an unknown baby for no reason. if i start crying it takes hours to stop.
last week when i did Hps Pythia's ritual for the first time, i had to stop the ritual halfway through because of crying.
years ago when i was a new Zevism i used to feel so strong that i could destroy the whole universe and rebuild it. now i find it difficult to even move a leaf. i feel weak and lonely. during my last ritual, i asked Satan why i cannot hug you physically? (it wasnt a question)
i need someone to tell me step by step what to do and what not to do. because i feel like somethings that , cannot notice nor control is killing me day by day
It is possible that you are exhausted by magical work, as you do a lot of things, sometimes you need to rest to restore energy.
It may be one day a week when you may not be doing some magical work to restore your energy and vitality, as a large amount of energy at a time can severely overload your nervous system.
Remember, it is also important to be able to rest and recover.
Common sense should be present in everything.
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«You will find on the left of the halls of Hades a spring, and standing by it a white cypress. Do not approach this spring at all. You will find another, from the Lake of Memory, with cold water flowing from it. Guardians stand before it. Say: 'I am a child of Earth and starry Heaven, but my race is of Heaven alone. You know this yourselves. I am parched with thirst and am perishing. Give me quickly the cold water flowing from the Lake of Memory.' And they will give you to drink from the sacred spring, and after that you will reign among the other heroes» - From the Petelia Tablet (300-200 BCE)
feeling completely deadlocked and cornered.
sometimes there are such situations that my brain really stops. i cannot even think. even when someone says "excuse me, can I pass?" i just stare blankly.
sometimes the walls seem to be closing in on me. if i go outside, its the same. the effects of my meditations and Rituals seem to be short-lived on my soul. cuz when i put my head on my pillow, everything is back to square one.
i get tears in my eyes even when i look at a random glass or an unknown baby for no reason. if i start crying it takes hours to stop.
last week when i did Hps Pythia's ritual for the first time, i had to stop the ritual halfway through because of crying.
years ago when i was a new Zevism i used to feel so strong that i could destroy the whole universe and rebuild it. now i find it difficult to even move a leaf. i feel weak and lonely. during my last ritual, i asked Satan why i cannot hug you physically? (it wasnt a question)
i need someone to tell me step by step what to do and what not to do. because i feel like somethings that , cannot notice nor control is killing me day by day
It is possible that you are exhausted by magical work, as you do a lot of things, sometimes you need to rest to restore energy.
It may be one day a week when you may not be doing some magical work to restore your energy and vitality, as a large amount of energy at a time can severely overload your nervous system.
Remember, it is also important to be able to rest and recover.
Common sense should be present in everything.
It is possible that you are exhausted by magical work, as you do a lot of things, sometimes you need to rest to restore energy.
that makes sense. becase i was doing 7 Ritual for my 7 chakra per a day (when i posted this thread). i will take rest 🫶🏻 thank you
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It is possible that you are exhausted by magical work, as you do a lot of things, sometimes you need to rest to restore energy.
that makes sense. becase i was doing 7 Ritual for my 7 chakra per a day (when i posted this thread). i will take rest 🫶🏻 thank you
years ago, i had to stay away from my Zevism friends for a long time. and today i noticed life is being harder alone.
Seeing you with your soulmate made me happier. because its not easy something.
I just would like to add, as you seem a very emotional person, that - if you suffered any kind of trauma that is emerging, you will need to talk about this to someone. I have been in therapy for months and it was helpful, so I'd think about this in the future. Good luck with your recovery and rest... it seems this thread managed to found some good advices!
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years ago, i had to stay away from my Zevism friends for a long time. and today i noticed life is being harder alone.
Seeing you with your soulmate made me happier. because its not easy something.
I just would like to add, as you seem a very emotional person, that - if you suffered any kind of trauma that is emerging, you will need to talk about this to someone. I have been in therapy for months and it was helpful, so I'd think about this in the future. Good luck with your recovery and rest... it seems this thread managed to found some good advices!
that makes sense. becase i was doing 7 Ritual for my 7 chakra per a day (when i posted this thread). i will take rest 🫶🏻 thank yo
I know how hard it can be to have to do a lot of Rituals to remove curses in your soul, always remember to do the deep cleansing afterwards in your chakras.
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that makes sense. becase i was doing 7 Ritual for my 7 chakra per a day (when i posted this thread). i will take rest 🫶🏻 thank yo
I know how hard it can be to have to do a lot of Rituals to remove curses in your soul, always remember to do the deep cleansing afterwards in your chakras.
I know how hard it can be to have to do a lot of Rituals to remove curses in your soul, always remember to do the deep cleansing afterwards in your chakras.
yesyes i didd, my new challenge will be
how sounds?
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I know how hard it can be to have to do a lot of Rituals to remove curses in your soul, always remember to do the deep cleansing afterwards in your chakras.
yesyes i didd, my new challenge will be
how sounds?
you will need to talk about this to someone
i talk to my GD about them frequently, i went to therapies for 2 years but nothing changed 🤧🤧
and thank you a lot for your kind advise💛
Good luck with your recovery and rest... it seems this thread managed to found some good advices!
yessssssssssssss but its again upto me 😖
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you will need to talk about this to someone
i talk to my GD about them frequently, i went to therapies for 2 years but nothing changed 🤧🤧
and thank you a lot for your kind advise💛
Good luck with your recovery and rest... it seems this thread managed to found some good advices!
yessssssssssssss but its again upto me 😖
yesyes i didd, my new challenge will be
how sounds?
Totally excessive and unnecessary, unless it is for force majeure for having to remove very heavy curses on your soul.
Otherwise it is enough to do 1 or 2 Rituals per day, do not burnout.
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yesyes i didd, my new challenge will be
how sounds?
Totally excessive and unnecessary, unless it is for force majeure for having to remove very heavy curses on your soul.
Otherwise it is enough to do 1 or 2 Rituals per day, do not burnout.
This is the targeted message.
Totally excessive and unnecessary, unless it is for force majeure for having to remove very heavy curses on your soul.
Otherwise it is enough to do 1 or 2 Rituals per day, do not burnout.
oh nooo 😭😭 i was getting ready to do ittt
cannot i forward them to my family for remove curses?
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Totally excessive and unnecessary, unless it is for force majeure for having to remove very heavy curses on your soul.
Otherwise it is enough to do 1 or 2 Rituals per day, do not burnout.
oh nooo 😭😭 i was getting ready to do ittt
cannot i forward them to my family for remove curses?
feeling completely deadlocked and cornered.
sometimes there are such situations that my brain really stops. i cannot even think. even when someone says "excuse me, can I pass?" i just stare blankly.
sometimes the walls seem to be closing in on me. if i go outside, its the same. the effects of my meditations and Rituals seem to be short-lived on my soul. cuz when i put my head on my pillow, everything is back to square one.
i get tears in my eyes even when i look at a random glass or an unknown baby for no reason. if i start crying it takes hours to stop.
last week when i did Hps Pythia's ritual for the first time, i had to stop the ritual halfway through because of crying.
years ago when i was a new Zevism i used to feel so strong that i could destroy the whole universe and rebuild it. now i find it difficult to even move a leaf. i feel weak and lonely. during my last ritual, i asked Satan why i cannot hug you physically? (it wasnt a question)
i need someone to tell me step by step what to do and what not to do. because i feel like somethings that , cannot notice nor control is killing me day by day
The effects of your meditations are not short-lived necessarily because you feel this. If you are upset beforehand, then this is your mood influencing how you view the success of your actions.
You say you are crying for "no reason", but that is not true. Our emotions are all coming from somewhere, even if we have to think deep down why. For example, what is troubling you about the baby? Do you view it as hungry or alone? Do you wish to be its mother? What action do you dream about, if at all, regarding the baby? This likely comes from your past life. The answers to these questions point towards the emotional resolution.
Once this can be identified and processed emotionally, then your soul will have an easier time calming down and not having outbursts. As an example, maybe the result of a working for emotions will make your soul "feel" that this baby in your mind is now safe, which therefore doesn't trigger an emotional reaction anymore.
Not knowing what to do can be a symptom of not perceiving value correctly, such as assuming your actions are meaningless. The fact that you did the ritual of HPS Pythia and cried means your spiritual actions produced a result of likely emotional purging. This is a solar problem, and runes like Raidho deal specifically with intuiting and guiding the best course of action for our growth.
Similarly, general feelings of lack of power and happiness are solar as well. If you hate yourself, this is derived from our solar energies, or lack of them. Similarly, because solar energy fuels our whole soul, a lack of it can feel like you are running out of energy to prevent the walls from closing in, metaphorically.
Runes like Berkano, or a Moon Square, help with emotional processing. A Sun Square or Sowilo and Raidho help with gaining inner confidence and direction. Deep breathing and journalism also help emotional processing and insight. The breath of fire pranayama is a quick way to recharge one's power and energy.
Lastly, our path is called the depressing path because of its relationship to unraveling and then solving our pain. This was from an old sermon by the Clergy. The fact this is happening now, as opposed your first year as a Zevist, can show a maturation process, like the soul is opening up for problems to be worked on, or past karma is advancing and your awareness is growing of it. It can also be caused from transits which also bring our karma into the forefront of our lives.
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feeling completely deadlocked and cornered.
sometimes there are such situations that my brain really stops. i cannot even think. even when someone says "excuse me, can I pass?" i just stare blankly.
sometimes the walls seem to be closing in on me. if i go outside, its the same. the effects of my meditations and Rituals seem to be short-lived on my soul. cuz when i put my head on my pillow, everything is back to square one.
i get tears in my eyes even when i look at a random glass or an unknown baby for no reason. if i start crying it takes hours to stop.
last week when i did Hps Pythia's ritual for the first time, i had to stop the ritual halfway through because of crying.
years ago when i was a new Zevism i used to feel so strong that i could destroy the whole universe and rebuild it. now i find it difficult to even move a leaf. i feel weak and lonely. during my last ritual, i asked Satan why i cannot hug you physically? (it wasnt a question)
i need someone to tell me step by step what to do and what not to do. because i feel like somethings that , cannot notice nor control is killing me day by day
The effects of your meditations are not short-lived necessarily because you feel this. If you are upset beforehand, then this is your mood influencing how you view the success of your actions.
You say you are crying for "no reason", but that is not true. Our emotions are all coming from somewhere, even if we have to think deep down why. For example, what is troubling you about the baby? Do you view it as hungry or alone? Do you wish to be its mother? What action do you dream about, if at all, regarding the baby? This likely comes from your past life. The answers to these questions point towards the emotional resolution.
Once this can be identified and processed emotionally, then your soul will have an easier time calming down and not having outbursts. As an example, maybe the result of a working for emotions will make your soul "feel" that this baby in your mind is now safe, which therefore doesn't trigger an emotional reaction anymore.
Not knowing what to do can be a symptom of not perceiving value correctly, such as assuming your actions are meaningless. The fact that you did the ritual of HPS Pythia and cried means your spiritual actions produced a result of likely emotional purging. This is a solar problem, and runes like Raidho deal specifically with intuiting and guiding the best course of action for our growth.
Similarly, general feelings of lack of power and happiness are solar as well. If you hate yourself, this is derived from our solar energies, or lack of them. Similarly, because solar energy fuels our whole soul, a lack of it can feel like you are running out of energy to prevent the walls from closing in, metaphorically.
Runes like Berkano, or a Moon Square, help with emotional processing. A Sun Square or Sowilo and Raidho help with gaining inner confidence and direction. Deep breathing and journalism also help emotional processing and insight. The breath of fire pranayama is a quick way to recharge one's power and energy.
Lastly, our path is called the depressing path because of its relationship to unraveling and then solving our pain. This was from an old sermon by the Clergy. The fact this is happening now, as opposed your first year as a Zevist, can show a maturation process, like the soul is opening up for problems to be worked on, or past karma is advancing and your awareness is growing of it. It can also be caused from transits which also bring our karma into the forefront of our lives.
what is troubling you about the baby?
i guess he reminds me of my nephews... but what about a random glass? crying while walking randomly. i cannot think about them deeply because its like my brain stopped, my neurons cannot reach the cortex of my brain. they just receive the sensation and wait.
This is a solar problem, and runes like Raidho deal specifically with intuiting and guiding the best course of action for our growth.
i will work on it for sure. so:
i will work with raidho berkano and sowilo
adding sun square to my to my schedule
breathe of fire (more often than before)
advancing and your awareness is growing of it.
not gonna lie, that made me happy, maybe it shows that my works' results?
from transits which also bring our karma into the forefront of our lives.
i should check my natal chart again and again
ok Sir all is noted one by one. thank you a lot. im grateful💖💖💞💞💞💖💞💖✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️
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what is troubling you about the baby?
i guess he reminds me of my nephews... but what about a random glass? crying while walking randomly. i cannot think about them deeply because its like my brain stopped, my neurons cannot reach the cortex of my brain. they just receive the sensation and wait.
This is a solar problem, and runes like Raidho deal specifically with intuiting and guiding the best course of action for our growth.
i will work on it for sure. so:
i will work with raidho berkano and sowilo
adding sun square to my to my schedule
breathe of fire (more often than before)
advancing and your awareness is growing of it.
not gonna lie, that made me happy, maybe it shows that my works' results?
from transits which also bring our karma into the forefront of our lives.
i should check my natal chart again and again
ok Sir all is noted one by one. thank you a lot. im grateful💖💖💞💞💞💖💞💖✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️✨️