Hello everyone!
I wanted to share experience with everyone that I'm sure newly dedicated or long time dedicated Spiritual Satanists would appreciate to hear if they are struggling..
I asked Father Satan's permission to share so Father Satan's words could hopefully help others.
Here it is:
For about a month or more, I'm not quite sure, I have been feeling this burning sensation (nothing negative) inside of myself whenever I visualized Father Satan's sigil to talk to him and today.. I finally talked to him.. Hah..
Yesterday I had a very strong emotional negative experience which I think was an enemy's attack, but I could be completely wrong and this is all in my head..
The experience which I had, I wanted to contact Father Satan, but this face of a grey came into my head and like a wave of attack after attack happened until I visualized Father Satan's sigil and profusely kept apologizing to him for failing him and you know what happened? That feeling of being a failure seized and I was starting to recover..
And today, while taking my dog out for a walk I felt like I wasn't alone, the energy was very negative and I think it was the enemy too (or my mind again) trying to make me lower my guard to think one of my GD's was with me and with him supposedly 3 more others, but I heard this little voice tell me to do Vinasa banishing ritual vibration and then Sananda vibration for positive happy energy. (both can be found here if need be: https://www.joyofsatan.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Banishing.html )
And just like that, the negative energy seized to be around me and I felt like myself again.
I felt at peace, even my dog was calm.
And this leads to now.. I was doing Hatha Yoga, trying not to over work myself, I felt like talking to Father Satan, that burning sensation I mentioned above happened when I visualized his sigil.. And so I talked to him..
I once again, apologized to him for not being the most amazing Spiritual Satanist warrior as everyone else here is, like the High Priests and even advanced members here.. I just want him to be proud of me you know? I want him to know that I am not useless, despite feeling like I am.. And he made me see the error of my ways.
I sort of like "heard" him, but it was in a way I can't really describe to full extent, but think of it like a tiny voice you hear once in a while (positive).
He made me remember how High Priests and other members used to say that the True Gods won't make other SS dedicated to Father Satan's cause feel like they are worthless or pathetic or anything, in fact, they don't view us like that.
I mean sure, we make mistakes and do stupid shit here and there (excuse my language), but what being who hasn't reached the God hood doesn't do it?
We humans, we do loads of things from which we learn and advance and learn to apply for later or even tell others to make sure they don't do what you did that caused you grief or whatnot..
The Gods have immense patience for us and Father Satan.. his love is amazing and I am thankful for everything he has done for me and others.. I love him.. He is the best Father anyone could ask for!
I should listen more to what my Guardian Demon said and talk to Father Satan more, build a relationship with him you know? Even talk to him about what's bothering you if you can't turn to anyone else that you trust..
In conclusion - The Gods love us and Father Satan does too. They don't view us as worthless or pathetic or anything, no. They want us to advance and be wonderful like they are (don't be like someone else, be yourself!).
Thank you Father Satan! Thank you all to who read and I hope I made proper sense and I really hope this helps others in a similar situation like I was..
You are not worthless, you are not pathetic and you are not trash, you are an amazing being who has a long way to learn and advance.
Build a relationship with Father Satan.
HAIL SATAN! I love you so much Father!!!
Hail All the Gods of Duat!!!!
HEIL!
I wanted to share experience with everyone that I'm sure newly dedicated or long time dedicated Spiritual Satanists would appreciate to hear if they are struggling..
I asked Father Satan's permission to share so Father Satan's words could hopefully help others.
Here it is:
For about a month or more, I'm not quite sure, I have been feeling this burning sensation (nothing negative) inside of myself whenever I visualized Father Satan's sigil to talk to him and today.. I finally talked to him.. Hah..
Yesterday I had a very strong emotional negative experience which I think was an enemy's attack, but I could be completely wrong and this is all in my head..
The experience which I had, I wanted to contact Father Satan, but this face of a grey came into my head and like a wave of attack after attack happened until I visualized Father Satan's sigil and profusely kept apologizing to him for failing him and you know what happened? That feeling of being a failure seized and I was starting to recover..
And today, while taking my dog out for a walk I felt like I wasn't alone, the energy was very negative and I think it was the enemy too (or my mind again) trying to make me lower my guard to think one of my GD's was with me and with him supposedly 3 more others, but I heard this little voice tell me to do Vinasa banishing ritual vibration and then Sananda vibration for positive happy energy. (both can be found here if need be: https://www.joyofsatan.org/www.angelfire.com/empire/serpentis666/Banishing.html )
And just like that, the negative energy seized to be around me and I felt like myself again.
I felt at peace, even my dog was calm.
And this leads to now.. I was doing Hatha Yoga, trying not to over work myself, I felt like talking to Father Satan, that burning sensation I mentioned above happened when I visualized his sigil.. And so I talked to him..
I once again, apologized to him for not being the most amazing Spiritual Satanist warrior as everyone else here is, like the High Priests and even advanced members here.. I just want him to be proud of me you know? I want him to know that I am not useless, despite feeling like I am.. And he made me see the error of my ways.
I sort of like "heard" him, but it was in a way I can't really describe to full extent, but think of it like a tiny voice you hear once in a while (positive).
He made me remember how High Priests and other members used to say that the True Gods won't make other SS dedicated to Father Satan's cause feel like they are worthless or pathetic or anything, in fact, they don't view us like that.
I mean sure, we make mistakes and do stupid shit here and there (excuse my language), but what being who hasn't reached the God hood doesn't do it?
We humans, we do loads of things from which we learn and advance and learn to apply for later or even tell others to make sure they don't do what you did that caused you grief or whatnot..
The Gods have immense patience for us and Father Satan.. his love is amazing and I am thankful for everything he has done for me and others.. I love him.. He is the best Father anyone could ask for!
I should listen more to what my Guardian Demon said and talk to Father Satan more, build a relationship with him you know? Even talk to him about what's bothering you if you can't turn to anyone else that you trust..
In conclusion - The Gods love us and Father Satan does too. They don't view us as worthless or pathetic or anything, no. They want us to advance and be wonderful like they are (don't be like someone else, be yourself!).
Thank you Father Satan! Thank you all to who read and I hope I made proper sense and I really hope this helps others in a similar situation like I was..
You are not worthless, you are not pathetic and you are not trash, you are an amazing being who has a long way to learn and advance.
Build a relationship with Father Satan.
HAIL SATAN! I love you so much Father!!!
Hail All the Gods of Duat!!!!
HEIL!
