Last year around November, I began to experience weird dreams. However, they were very mild in nature and consisted of me laying in bed with some unseen entity touching me in a gentle manner. However, ever since I dedicated myself, my lucid dreams have become more intense. I'm actually getting up strange places.
What I'm wondering about is that during these recent dreams, I'm constantly in search for something. I have this burning desire to find this man and I never find him. I'm not sure who I'm looking for, but in my dreams I always call out for either Lucifer or Beelzebub. Only once in my dream did I find a man. He was tall, with long blond hair that was braided down his back. He was wearing a white or black robe and was reading out of a book. When he turned to look at me, we stared at one another for only a few moments before I woke up.
The last dream I had consisted of a man coming for me. He asked me if I was looking for "him" and I said yes. We began to walk to the backyard of my friend's house (Where I had fallen asleep) and he began to talk to me. He mumbled, but I made out a few things he said. He told me, "They never told me how beautiful you were....(mumble)... Amilius." (The name is a long story, but it sent chills up my spine in the lucid dream. The back story for it makes me think I'm nuts, but if you want to know, please ask and I'll explain. I will warn you that it's farfetch'd)
He then led me to the back of the house where I saw figures standing far away towards the edge of the property near the woods. They were tall, seemed to be talking, and had large wings. As I went to walk over to them, I woke up.
I'm confused about what these dreams are. At first, I assumed they were nothing, but since they happen so rarely and with such intensity, they make me think it truly is something. I'm terribly confused and I've been searching desperately for answers for a while. What could be causing these dreams? And why am I looking for this man? Why me! There isn't a damn thing special about me! I wish I would just know. It's driving me crazy!
Thanks in advance!
Hail Satan
What I'm wondering about is that during these recent dreams, I'm constantly in search for something. I have this burning desire to find this man and I never find him. I'm not sure who I'm looking for, but in my dreams I always call out for either Lucifer or Beelzebub. Only once in my dream did I find a man. He was tall, with long blond hair that was braided down his back. He was wearing a white or black robe and was reading out of a book. When he turned to look at me, we stared at one another for only a few moments before I woke up.
The last dream I had consisted of a man coming for me. He asked me if I was looking for "him" and I said yes. We began to walk to the backyard of my friend's house (Where I had fallen asleep) and he began to talk to me. He mumbled, but I made out a few things he said. He told me, "They never told me how beautiful you were....(mumble)... Amilius." (The name is a long story, but it sent chills up my spine in the lucid dream. The back story for it makes me think I'm nuts, but if you want to know, please ask and I'll explain. I will warn you that it's farfetch'd)
He then led me to the back of the house where I saw figures standing far away towards the edge of the property near the woods. They were tall, seemed to be talking, and had large wings. As I went to walk over to them, I woke up.
I'm confused about what these dreams are. At first, I assumed they were nothing, but since they happen so rarely and with such intensity, they make me think it truly is something. I'm terribly confused and I've been searching desperately for answers for a while. What could be causing these dreams? And why am I looking for this man? Why me! There isn't a damn thing special about me! I wish I would just know. It's driving me crazy!
Thanks in advance!
Hail Satan
