slick0slander
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Here are some experiences I have had:
-When being bullied, I had a good old fashioned showdown with him. The was feeling very powerful when speaking to him and I lifted my hands up and immediately a huge gust of wind came from behind me, making him fall backwards and run away.
-I always had a feeling someone was watching out for me and that every time something really bad could have happened to me, it didn't.
-When in depression/PTSD, I wanted a spirit that was close to come into my heart and harden it to cope with the painful feelings I was dealing with. I was visited by a hooded figure that was watching me when I was cleaning out my closet. When I saw it staring at me, it dove under my bed. I then did the cross gesture on my chest and asked the creature to leave and never come back. I felt afraid do to its nature of observance. Since then, I have never seen it since. I was still in my deist/atheistic phase.
-Months later in the middle of the night I felt like something was coming out of my back, I then felt a surge of pain and anguish come out of me. I suspect is was the enemy trying to get rid of my spiritual awakening but before they could get me fully, I said "In the Name of Jesus Christ, get the hell out of my home! GET OUT!" The experience ended and it left me feeling drained of all energy. I felt like a rag doll. When I called upon Jesus Christ, I was still in my deist/atheistic phase.
-At the beginning, I was a very indifferent child. It could have been because my mind wasn't right (still isn't but has gotten better) but when I was told that was causing pain to my cats (teasing them harshly), I stopped. I was doing this to the cats that I had and immediately stopped and started caring for them. I seem to have a strong affinity with animals and I am strongly connected to them. I care for them when hurt, and I do what I can to make them happy. I wanted to change.
Some things to note:
-My kundalini energy has arisen 3 or 4 times due to me having breakdowns.
-I was never into Christianity but tried hard to be what I thought was "good". After many years of being an off and on deist/atheist, one of the final nail in Yahweh's coffin was when my girlfriend for 4 years fell in love with someone else after all we went through. How could a "loving god" do this to me all the time? Making me screw up or making my life hell? Was it all just a game, I thought. So much anger and much sadness.
-The final nail was when my next girlfriend died for 20 or 25 minutes before coming back to life and being taken away from me while in satisfactory health. Many of my girlfriends have been a long distance relationship but to me at the time, I thought just letting them know I was there was good enough until I was able to get them. Many times when I had something, either the person was a fool, or an outside source ruined my happiness. I began to hate Yahweh. I grew resentment against the Enemy.
-I was never fully influenced by the enemy but I was going through the motions like so many people did before me.
-My parents were Catholic until converting to Christianity when they felt the Catholic Church was becoming twisted. (Even though it already was but this was before the Pedophilia started to rise). If anything, we were a family of deists after the conversion holding some belief.
-Almost like an indifference to the pain and misfortune of others. When I was told that was causing pain, I stopped. I was doing this to the cats that I had and immediately stopped and started caring for them. I seem to have a strong affinity with animals and I am strongly connected to them. I care for them when hurt and I do what I can to make them happy. I wanted to change.
-I was always into Sci-Fi and the occult, for which I renounced my faith or should I say the "hoax" that was Yahweh.
-After the time of horrible events sometime of being an atheist or Agnostic (which was only because I believed in other forces that Atheism scoffs at) I knew that the spirit was real along with Ghosts and things I knew were alive and well.
-In having a strong connection to animals, I also have it towards everything of Earth and Earth herself. I have Native American blood in my veins mixed in with a few other European nationalities. I respect the Native American with much love.
-For many years even when I was being tricked by the enemy, I always wanted more knowledge about the things that no one else had answers to.
-I also exhibit to awaken when an event is important. Like my great grandmother having heart attacks while everyone was asleep. I was the only one to awake and hear her calls for help. I also seem to have the power to give part of my soul to another (making them live longer with more strength). When I did this for my late Great Grandmother and Grandfather [R.I.P.] I felt that the day they died I gained part of my soul back. I did this once and thought it was a fluke but after the second time I realized that I indeed helped them by giving them my power. And in doing so, was able to predict my Grandfather's death after my energy was giving back to me.
-I would also like to add that most of my wonderful connections to animals have been cats.
-I also have a very strong third eye that senses other presences while not being able to see the cause.
I slowly started my journey wanting to learn the truth (since the False God Yahweh was not what I was told for it to be). In whole, the enemy never really had control over me. I found many things by scouring the internet. Learning the most I have learned as such that before finding the Joy of Satan website. I have been reading for about 3 days about the whole website and learned a couple of interesting and mind-blowing things. Most of what I anticipated turned out to be correct while other things were almost at the mark. I am very intelligent when thinking of the world and its works but some things escaped me. I stumbled across the website before but due to many things going on, I was not able to read much about it.
In closing I would like to ask, "What has been going on with me"
Anyone have answers to my experiences and spiritual prowess?
I thank you all and Hail Satan!
-When being bullied, I had a good old fashioned showdown with him. The was feeling very powerful when speaking to him and I lifted my hands up and immediately a huge gust of wind came from behind me, making him fall backwards and run away.
-I always had a feeling someone was watching out for me and that every time something really bad could have happened to me, it didn't.
-When in depression/PTSD, I wanted a spirit that was close to come into my heart and harden it to cope with the painful feelings I was dealing with. I was visited by a hooded figure that was watching me when I was cleaning out my closet. When I saw it staring at me, it dove under my bed. I then did the cross gesture on my chest and asked the creature to leave and never come back. I felt afraid do to its nature of observance. Since then, I have never seen it since. I was still in my deist/atheistic phase.
-Months later in the middle of the night I felt like something was coming out of my back, I then felt a surge of pain and anguish come out of me. I suspect is was the enemy trying to get rid of my spiritual awakening but before they could get me fully, I said "In the Name of Jesus Christ, get the hell out of my home! GET OUT!" The experience ended and it left me feeling drained of all energy. I felt like a rag doll. When I called upon Jesus Christ, I was still in my deist/atheistic phase.
-At the beginning, I was a very indifferent child. It could have been because my mind wasn't right (still isn't but has gotten better) but when I was told that was causing pain to my cats (teasing them harshly), I stopped. I was doing this to the cats that I had and immediately stopped and started caring for them. I seem to have a strong affinity with animals and I am strongly connected to them. I care for them when hurt, and I do what I can to make them happy. I wanted to change.
Some things to note:
-My kundalini energy has arisen 3 or 4 times due to me having breakdowns.
-I was never into Christianity but tried hard to be what I thought was "good". After many years of being an off and on deist/atheist, one of the final nail in Yahweh's coffin was when my girlfriend for 4 years fell in love with someone else after all we went through. How could a "loving god" do this to me all the time? Making me screw up or making my life hell? Was it all just a game, I thought. So much anger and much sadness.
-The final nail was when my next girlfriend died for 20 or 25 minutes before coming back to life and being taken away from me while in satisfactory health. Many of my girlfriends have been a long distance relationship but to me at the time, I thought just letting them know I was there was good enough until I was able to get them. Many times when I had something, either the person was a fool, or an outside source ruined my happiness. I began to hate Yahweh. I grew resentment against the Enemy.
-I was never fully influenced by the enemy but I was going through the motions like so many people did before me.
-My parents were Catholic until converting to Christianity when they felt the Catholic Church was becoming twisted. (Even though it already was but this was before the Pedophilia started to rise). If anything, we were a family of deists after the conversion holding some belief.
-Almost like an indifference to the pain and misfortune of others. When I was told that was causing pain, I stopped. I was doing this to the cats that I had and immediately stopped and started caring for them. I seem to have a strong affinity with animals and I am strongly connected to them. I care for them when hurt and I do what I can to make them happy. I wanted to change.
-I was always into Sci-Fi and the occult, for which I renounced my faith or should I say the "hoax" that was Yahweh.
-After the time of horrible events sometime of being an atheist or Agnostic (which was only because I believed in other forces that Atheism scoffs at) I knew that the spirit was real along with Ghosts and things I knew were alive and well.
-In having a strong connection to animals, I also have it towards everything of Earth and Earth herself. I have Native American blood in my veins mixed in with a few other European nationalities. I respect the Native American with much love.
-For many years even when I was being tricked by the enemy, I always wanted more knowledge about the things that no one else had answers to.
-I also exhibit to awaken when an event is important. Like my great grandmother having heart attacks while everyone was asleep. I was the only one to awake and hear her calls for help. I also seem to have the power to give part of my soul to another (making them live longer with more strength). When I did this for my late Great Grandmother and Grandfather [R.I.P.] I felt that the day they died I gained part of my soul back. I did this once and thought it was a fluke but after the second time I realized that I indeed helped them by giving them my power. And in doing so, was able to predict my Grandfather's death after my energy was giving back to me.
-I would also like to add that most of my wonderful connections to animals have been cats.
-I also have a very strong third eye that senses other presences while not being able to see the cause.
I slowly started my journey wanting to learn the truth (since the False God Yahweh was not what I was told for it to be). In whole, the enemy never really had control over me. I found many things by scouring the internet. Learning the most I have learned as such that before finding the Joy of Satan website. I have been reading for about 3 days about the whole website and learned a couple of interesting and mind-blowing things. Most of what I anticipated turned out to be correct while other things were almost at the mark. I am very intelligent when thinking of the world and its works but some things escaped me. I stumbled across the website before but due to many things going on, I was not able to read much about it.
In closing I would like to ask, "What has been going on with me"
Anyone have answers to my experiences and spiritual prowess?
I thank you all and Hail Satan!
