Dilemma

[call_me_something_else]

Okay, so I understand about each race preserving their culture by not mixing. I get it. I really do.

Here's my problem though. I'm a white guy, with a powerful attraction to beautiful black women. I really can't help it.

It's not like I'll have sex with ANY black woman just because she's black. I have my standards. And I'm not averse to white women either. I just find beautiful women desirable, regardless of their skin color.

I don't think it's sinful either, to be so attracted, either. This is how I'm made.

I'm really hoping for some guidance here. I don't want to screw anything up. But I also cannot lie to myself.

Hail Father Satan!

 

[Ass Hole]

I'm having a little problem, I really need your honest, reasonable inputs here my brothers and sisters cos I need to make a critical decision one that'll hurt me badly no matter which one I choose. OK, I was a xtian who never bought into the xtian shit but I used to go to church cos I was born and dedicated to the xtian god, so cos of my family xtianity was a pain in the ass but one I had to live with, till the day I became a Satanist. Now, I had a life as a xtian, I had a strong relationship that has passed through all kinds of trials and survived. This guy loves me beyond words and has done everything in his power to prove it, I was always unfaithful to him cos what ever programing the xtian people use on their people didn't even raise a hair on my neck and he's always been so faithful to me cos of xtianity and all their views on sex, and we've had a platonic relationship for 5yrs going on 6 he's a diehard, chronic, like Christ xtain, I get my satisfaction else where. I have had no reason to doubt his love for me so I love him back so much cos I can't control it, he's my best friend and everything, closer than my parents and siblings, has been there through my tough times and good times, has helped me through shit, all the times i'll get all stubborn and run off from sch to have fun, he'll beg me to come back and never hated me for one day for it, he knew and still knows I was never a true xtian cos I never did anything in their books apart from go to church cos of him. there's tears in my eyes as I write this cos I know he loves me and I love him and I'm in a dilemma right now, things have changed, I'm a Satanist, he's a xtain, (he doesn't know abt my religion yet) I thought it was going to be alright since Father didn't mind who you dated or married and i was hoping to gradually, lovingly and systematically bring him into Satanism after we get married and I know I can do it cos he'll do anything for me, but this.. When I became a Satanist and made my vow I gave something in return for something, this is between me and Satan. I was in so much deep shit I needed to be rescued, you might call it what ever you like but Father has done his end of the bargain, I have been working on doing my end, (forgive me but I can't go into any more details about this for criticism sake and for security purposes). The problem is, when I do my end of this bargain I'm going to be giving up a lot, my family's love which I don't care much for, my normal friends which I don't care much abt cos they're all stupid xtians, I'm going to be betraying xtianity and everyone who's known me for the past 25yrs although if I were them I wouldn't be surprised. But most importantly, I have had a strong conviction from my GD that if I begin this journey I'm abt to undertake that I'm going to loose this guy, that he's not going to be able to love me through it, cos I was hoping he would , he tries to control me and my actions, you know he's planning a lifetime with me in it, I don't know what to do and I can't wait, I can't wait till I'm older it has to be done now that I'm young for the impact to be felt as I want it. Don't start dreaming abt suicide etc, I'm ok , its just a work I need to begin for Satan, he told me its why I'm here on earth in the first place. What do you think?

 

[Magus Immortalis]

Don't tell him you're an Zevism, no matter what. People can turn on you in a blink of an eye and flap their big mouths to other people.As you progress in Spiritual Satanism, there are sacrifices to be made. It's about you and what you're willing to give up in order to grow, evolve and move forward in life and Zevism. The Gods know it's hard for us but it's good and better for us in the long run, as I learned recently with several things and some life events.





  I'm having a little problem, I really need your honest, reasonable inputs here my brothers and sisters cos I need to make a critical decision one that'll hurt me badly no matter which one I choose. OK, I was a xtian who never bought into the xtian shit but I used to go to church cos I was born and dedicated to the xtian god, so cos of my family xtianity was a pain in the ass but one I had to live with, till the day I became a Satanist. Now, I had a life as a xtian, I had a strong relationship that has passed through all kinds of trials and survived. This guy loves me beyond words and has done everything in his power to prove it, I was always unfaithful to him cos what ever programing the xtian people use on their people didn't even raise a hair on my neck and he's always been so faithful to me cos of xtianity and all their views on sex, and we've had a platonic relationship for 5yrs going on 6 he's a diehard, chronic, like Christ xtain, I get my satisfaction else where. I have had no reason to doubt his love for me so I love him back so much cos I can't control it, he's my best friend and everything, closer than my parents and siblings, has been there through my tough times and good times, has helped me through shit, all the times i'll get all stubborn and run off from sch to have fun, he'll beg me to come back and never hated me for one day for it, he knew and still knows I was never a true xtian cos I never did anything in their books apart from go to church cos of him. there's tears in my eyes as I write this cos I know he loves me and I love him and I'm in a dilemma right now, things have changed, I'm a Satanist, he's a xtain, (he doesn't know abt my religion yet) I thought it was going to be alright since Father didn't mind who you dated or married and i was hoping to gradually, lovingly and systematically bring him into Satanism after we get married and I know I can do it cos he'll do anything for me, but this.. When I became a Satanist and made my vow I gave something in return for something, this is between me and Satan. I was in so much deep shit I needed to be rescued, you might call it what ever you like but Father has done his end of the bargain, I have been working on doing my end, (forgive me but I can't go into any more details about this for criticism sake and for security purposes). The problem is, when I do my end of this bargain I'm going to be giving up a lot, my family's love which I don't care much for, my normal friends which I don't care much abt cos they're all stupid xtians, I'm going to be betraying xtianity and everyone who's known me for the past 25yrs although if I were them I wouldn't be surprised. But most importantly, I have had a strong conviction from my GD that if I begin this journey I'm abt to undertake that I'm going to loose this guy, that he's not going to be able to love me through it, cos I was hoping he would , he tries to control me and my actions, you know he's planning a lifetime with me in it, I don't know what to do and I can't wait, I can't wait till I'm older it has to be done now that I'm young for the impact to be felt as I want it. Don't start dreaming abt suicide etc, I'm ok , its just a work I need to begin for Satan, he told me its why I'm here on earth in the first place. What do you think?

 

[the_corruptor666]

We all made an agreement whatever it may be, and fulfilling this to our and the greater good is to our benefit.If this person is controlling and manipulative they obvious have major insecurities. And no matter what in this life/lifes we can't let another hold us back spiritually or otherwise. If said person trully loves and cares for you they will look past and be understanding of your desires and choosing.
You don't have to share your views with family and friends, it is though of your own accord. I do believe Enki knows and understands the risk of being vocal and public with this practice. And that is why is why more are coming out from the shadows of spiritual empowerment and humanities true faith.
Ask yourself what is best for you and the long run. Those who seek real truth will be led to the answers.

 

[Light Yagami]

I have actually abandoned friendships I had since my Elementary school years... and I do not have the slightest regret about it.In the beginning it was especially hard for me as well but when I actually talked to these people they... well, they showed just how filthy Christians they are. How brainwashed and really... pathetic. Pathetic. I can not emphasize that enough. :/
And since I abandoned them... You can not *imagine* the kind of progress I've made in my life. REAL progress.A close friend of mine (a Brother in Satan ) has actually told me some really wise things about this issue... A strong person's road can be a lonely one. Weak people are desperately seeking company, they search for someone to share their problems with (and really, those Christians ex-friends of mine had the same problems I had... but I grew over them... and then I didn't know what to do with these "friends" of mine. They stayed behind and I was moving so far ahead... They were like a force that was trying to keep me behind), while the strong people can make their own way, can travel on their own; can deal with any hardship and can face anything on their own.
I know how difficult it is to suddenly change things that were sort of your "pillars" throughout many years of your life but... changes must happen if you want to advance. As I had read somewhere "if you don't do it today, tomorrow will be like yesterday".
And, in the matter of friendship... Here: http://www.inkblazers.com/read-manga/St ... /2?lang=en (check the following pages as well)

Στις 5:39 μ.μ. Τετάρτη, 2 Ιουλίου 2014, ο/η "mancunianninja@... [JoyofSatan666]" έγραψε:


  Interracial sex is not accepted.
You will learn this after sometime. Just meditate, and keep the fuck away from media, television. movies, Pornography etc. These things program your mind to interracial mixing and other stuff that is not good for us.
The <[/IMG]XXX[/I] symbol used to designate pornographic material in the U.S. and other regions around the world are actually a symbol of crossing out the three main races.
(Haha JK ;p Or am I? )
I have also added links to two topics on the other forum very informative and a lot of input by the HP/HPS.
(You don't need login in to view these links. Only to comment)


 

 

[call_me_something_else]

RE: @no.state@... I don't understand you at all, are you trying to impersonate me? Or is my post here clashing with yours? Wtf is going on here?

Nope. Not trying to impersonate you at all. I never would purposefully harass a brother or a sister in Satan. That would be a good way for me to get all sorts of fucked up, quickly.

I had just come back across this thread and, since I had been the o.p. about 10 months back or so (See the o.p.), I wanted to tell others who had given me good advice my thanks, in that their advice helped.

Also, if you'll notice, my response was just prior to yours.

Hail Father Satan!