difficulty.

[corrinamh]

     The last couple of days have been very trying. I am having a lot of trouble with focus and concentration. I start my meditations and next thing I know I am thinking about something else a goofing off like a 6 year old. It took me over 2 hours this morning to do my meditations with bringing attention back and making myself do each one properly. Then I had to do yoga and my handstand which I have been doing for many days now. I went up and like my arm buckled and down I came. Not hurt, embarrassed as I am sure it was seen. But I did get up, shook it off and did it right. Screw the enemy. These petty distractions are annoying but I am not giving up. I have been here for a short while now and didnt jump right into hells army training, however I have just completed month 1. Woot Woot and pressing on. I sure do appreciate having yall to talk to. No one in my family understands. Most of them I don't really want to be around. They are still hoping this is a phase I am going through and will quit.      With my love devotion and dedication to father Satan,and the Gods/Goddeses

 

[Magus Immortalis]

You're doing really well, keep it up. Hail Satan! On Monday, May 5, 2014 2:00:27 PM, "corrinamh@..." <corrinamh@... wrote:
       The last couple of days have been very trying. I am having a lot of trouble with focus and concentration. I start my meditations and next thing I know I am thinking about something else a goofing off like a 6 year old. It took me over 2 hours this morning to do my meditations with bringing attention back and making myself do each one properly. Then I had to do yoga and my handstand which I have been doing for many days now. I went up and like my arm buckled and down I came. Not hurt, embarrassed as I am sure it was seen. But I did get up, shook it off and did it right. Screw the enemy. These petty distractions are annoying but I am not giving up. I have been here for a short while now and didnt jump right into hells army training, however I have just completed month 1. Woot Woot and pressing on. I sure do appreciate having yall to talk to. No one in my family understands. Most of them I don't really want to be around. They are still hoping this is a phase I am going through and will quit.      With my love devotion and dedication to father Satan,and the Gods/Goddeses

 

[corrinamh]

Thank you. Means alot to hear it.

 

[Richie Looney]

I understand completely what you mean, I had very little support from my family like you, and like you, they thought it was a phase I was going through and now almost a year later they know this is for life and not a phase. As far as distractions go, use a pair of ear buds and listen to some meditation music or binaural beats until you have some control over your mind. Another thing I do that helps me tremendously is working creatively for Satan, make yourself a Satanic Rosary to help you, or make Satanic tracts on index cards with the joy of satan website on them and place them in places someone might pick them up and read them just do not be seen placing it there as it may cause you problems. Create a black mirror to help contact Demons, or write down your praises to Satan and ask Him to send you a Demon for help and guidance. Be creative and never give up!
Hail Satan!
Hail the Pantheon of Orion!