Did Satan abandon me?

[satanfollower2355]

I have been a Satanist for some time now, and have managed to do some things such as energy ripping and giving people evil eyes, and some more, but a few month ago I gave up on Satanism (Meaning no more of spells or the other stuff, still was doing lucid dreaming training) simply because I seen people poking holes in the Joy of Satan, but around one or two weeks ago I felt very bad, after which I decided that maybe all the holes that the others where poking in Joy of Satan were false. Now I do not know how much is true and how much is false I have decided to give it another try, but when I tried to contact demons again I was told misinformation and when I asked about people I was told nothing of importance for me at that second. So did Satan abandon me?
HAIL SATAN

 

[Allison P]

Do you love Satan/Enki, our Father? If so, then he has not abandoned
you. Satan never abandons those who are truly his own! The reason you
are getting conflicting messages is because you yourself are carrying
doubt. Doubt is a deadly poison, and you are letting it lay claim to
your soul. Banish it! Use your own reason, your own discernment! What
do YOU think of the Joy of Satan Ministries? Think for yourself! That
is what Spiritual Satanism is all about, my friend...not relying on
what other people tell you. I know I sound harsh here, but I am trying
to make you think. The reason people try to "poke holes" in JoS is
because it IS the truth, but you yourself must believe and know it; no
one can force you. Find your own path, and stand strong! You are
either with us or against us. Totally your choice, however. Hail
Father Satan always!

On 8/22/12, satanfollower2355 <satanfollower2355@... wrote:
I have been a Satanist for some time now, and have managed to do some things
such as energy ripping and giving people evil eyes, and some more, but a few
month ago I gave up on Satanism (Meaning no more of spells or the other
stuff, still was doing lucid dreaming training) simply because I seen
people poking holes in the Joy of Satan, but around one or two weeks ago I
felt very bad, after which I decided that maybe all the holes that the
others where poking in Joy of Satan were false. Now I do not know how much
is true and how much is false I have decided to give it another try, but
when I tried to contact demons again I was told misinformation and when I
asked about people I was told nothing of importance for me at that second.
So did Satan abandon me?
HAIL SATAN