Dedication Ritual Done at Last!

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I did it finally!!! Well, sort of....
It did not work out quite like I planned, I did not have any sewing needles around so I had to settle on a tack. Even with a tack, I was not able to get any blood since I have thick skin.... I was able to force a nose bleed though (I bleed a lot so it is quite easy and painless) and was able to get some blood from my left nostril (yeah, not quite as symbolic as the left hand but it is still not the right side). The blood was somewhat dilute since I was not dry at the time and did it while I was still in the bathroom just as I got out. The paper only partially burned and started throwing up a decent amount of smoke and since I am still 17 that is a bit of a problem since I still live with my parents. The paper burned partly but got soaked in wax and went out.... Due to the fact that I also share the bathroom with my parents who are xtians, I had to flush it down the toilet since I could not leave it in the candle or in the trash without them (my parents) seeing it and questioning me. Yes I know it is disrespectful and I wanted it to burn completely and cleanly but sadly sometimes things do not work the way you hope :/
My left index finger is now really sore from the incident ;-;
The reason I am writing this is because I do not know if it counted, I may need to do it again in my astral temple (if I can get one set up). I still cannot communicate with spirits directly... I see their presence from time to time such as the "angel" that tried to MURDER me in my sleep (take my soul and use it for energy to be more precise). One spirit shows up as a super dark mist, I saw their shadow as they passed over me before I went to bed.. Not sure if it was my guardian or one of the angel creatures. On the bright side, one of the spirits who had been putting pressure on my head had left, one still resides and sadly now in its place I have another annoying ass spirit that is like auto-correct except it will "correct" (inject thoughts opposite to what I think) directly in my head and it makes talking really hard. Also I think one of them bound me so I cannot do much.... Things such as falling in a trance (which used to happen in about 20 seconds) now is nearly impossible without and insane amount of willpower to block out everything. I also have trouble astral projecting (again, bound). I also cannot feel when they are around..... while I THINK that Thoth is my guardian demon, I am still unsure. I can hardly tell who is the other spirit injecting thoughts nor how many there are.... I need to get rid of the "angels" though since they have confirmed that they have tried (and are still trying) to kill me for energy to feed from.... They spoke through my friend pretending to be a "evil demon" in an attempt to keep me from going to father Lucifer.
I need help, I REALLY REALLY need help... I do not want to live in the lies and filth the false one has brainwashed much of our population with and sadly the ignorant accept... I was once one of the ignorant, now I see the truth.
HAIL FATHER LUCIFER/SATAN AND HIS DEMONS!!!

 

[duttatreya]

Greetings
From your description, what I can tell is that your "medications" before dedicating were very dangerous, since you hadn't dedicated, and instead of getting help from demons, you were being attacked by evil astral entities pretending to be demons, perhaps angels as well. I doubt Thoth was your guardian demon. Or perhaps he was guarding you in the sense of not getting screwed up until you realized you had to dedicate. Your dedication looks pretty funny and solid to me, I m taking the fact that you can't meditate properly now is cause previously it used to be a farse, and now you have a chance to redeem. So, get going on the 40 days program by HP Hooded Cobra  and welcome to the family!
Hail Satan

Στις 1:03 μ.μ. Παρασκευή, 13 Ιανουαρίου 2017, ο/η "g2uwmq6euoe7ap3bkeztrn2zq2wkgtczlztttqjj@... [JoyofSatan666]" <[email protected] έγραψε:


  I did it finally!!! Well, sort of....
It did not work out quite like I planned, I did not have any sewing needles around so I had to settle on a tack. Even with a tack, I was not able to get any blood since I have thick skin.... I was able to force a nose bleed though (I bleed a lot so it is quite easy and painless) and was able to get some blood from my left nostril (yeah, not quite as symbolic as the left hand but it is still not the right side). The blood was somewhat dilute since I was not dry at the time and did it while I was still in the bathroom just as I got out. The paper only partially burned and started throwing up a decent amount of smoke and since I am still 17 that is a bit of a problem since I still live with my parents. The paper burned partly but got soaked in wax and went out.... Due to the fact that I also share the bathroom with my parents who are xtians, I had to flush it down the toilet since I could not leave it in the candle or in the trash without them (my parents) seeing it and questioning me. Yes I know it is disrespectful and I wanted it to burn completely and cleanly but sadly sometimes things do not work the way you hope :/
My left index finger is now really sore from the incident ;-;
The reason I am writing this is because I do not know if it counted, I may need to do it again in my astral temple (if I can get one set up). I still cannot communicate with spirits directly... I see their presence from time to time such as the "angel" that tried to MURDER me in my sleep (take my soul and use it for energy to be more precise). One spirit shows up as a super dark mist, I saw their shadow as they passed over me before I went to bed.. Not sure if it was my guardian or one of the angel creatures. On the bright side, one of the spirits who had been putting pressure on my head had left, one still resides and sadly now in its place I have another annoying ass spirit that is like auto-correct except it will "correct" (inject thoughts opposite to what I think) directly in my head and it makes talking really hard. Also I think one of them bound me so I cannot do much.... Things such as falling in a trance (which used to happen in about 20 seconds) now is nearly impossible without and insane amount of willpower to block out everything. I also have trouble astral projecting (again, bound). I also cannot feel when they are around..... while I THINK that Thoth is my guardian demon, I am still unsure. I can hardly tell who is the other spirit injecting thoughts nor how many there are.... I need to get rid of the "angels" though since they have confirmed that they have tried (and are still trying) to kill me for energy to feed from.... They spoke through my friend pretending to be a "evil demon" in an attempt to keep me from going to father Lucifer.
I need help, I REALLY REALLY need help... I do not want to live in the lies and filth the false one has brainwashed much of our population with and sadly the ignorant accept... I was once one of the ignorant, now I see the truth.
HAIL FATHER LUCIFER/SATAN AND HIS DEMONS!!!