Cursed?

[Bobby1]

Hey everyone. I am 21 years old and for about 10 years i have been depressed and have had low self esteem and my self confidence has just never been there since i became depressed. I have tried counseling and meds nothing has ever worked. The meds just made me worst off.
The reason of this posting is to maybe get some insight on maybe if i am being attacked? Perhaps Cursed? I try and try to overcome it but just wont work. I use to be very social when i was younger and now im lucky if i even talk to someone when i am out and about. I was diagnosed with social anxiety and depression blah blah but i just don't believe that's the case. Maybe someone here can help me out... I don't want to bother you guys with my problem just figured it was worth a shot. Its been a very crippling life style and i need change... Thanks in advance for any help and for just even reading this.

HS!

Bobby

 

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--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Bobby" <foundtheway716@... wrote:

Hey everyone. I am 21 years old and for about 10 years i have been depressed and have had low self esteem and my self confidence has just never been there since i became depressed. I have tried counseling and meds nothing has ever worked. The meds just made me worst off.
The reason of this posting is to maybe get some insight on maybe if i am being attacked? Perhaps Cursed? I try and try to overcome it but just wont work. I use to be very social when i was younger and now im lucky if i even talk to someone when i am out and about. I was diagnosed with social anxiety and depression blah blah but i just don't believe that's the case. Maybe someone here can help me out... I don't want to bother you guys with my problem just figured it was worth a shot. Its been a very crippling life style and i need change... Thanks in advance for any help and for just even reading this.

HS!

Bobby

Find a reason. Do not blame anything. Find your strength, if you have none make it. Work out, become physically strong. That is something you can do in the mean time. I have done horrible things to myself and it has hurt others, so it has done none good. If I am doomed SO BE IT. If I am weak, SO BE IT. I will try with everything I have and everything I am to do something worthy.

 

[Atlantic]

Bobby, i don't know you, but i believe i understand where your coming from. We are all cursed, from the very beginning of mankind (proper). Our very cruel and retched existence has been a product of others. Nothing seems to satisfy does it? We all come back to the same emptiness. Our entire lives we move from one temporary satisfaction to another, just to sort of "justify" a "normal" existence.

We are forced thread into the nut that is society, built by very cunning and spiritually powerful people. To enslave our very minds, our bodies are useless nothing more than a machine, a tube for processing energy. Why you ask? what's all this about...why all this suffering? I don't know, could be many reasons or just one reason, we can speculate all we want. That's all part of the architecture, the unknowing, the lack of logic, the dependence on the system, all fool-proof. Thinking about this will have your mind racing around in circles.

So what's the solution?!? (you probably think i'm crazy about now lol) Satanism has brought peace to me , i have never spoken to Lord Enki or any others. But i know something is looking out for me, not my imagination, i know this for sure! and i doubt very much its placebo effect. All i can say is stick with it, READ, many books are posted on this site alone. Use your given ability to distinguish the truth from lies.

I have a bit of a theory, could be wrong but that's why its my theory LOL. I believe the people who suffer the most at the hands of this very man made society, are the ones with the most to offer. They are most affected by this amazing mess of crap (for a lack of a better word). That's why so many young people kill themselves because they see no other option, the very cruel thing is, its not that THEY don't see it, its because the option is not presented to them.

Hail Lord Enki

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Bobby" <foundtheway716@... wrote:

Hey everyone. I am 21 years old and for about 10 years i have been depressed and have had low self esteem and my self confidence has just never been there since i became depressed. I have tried counseling and meds nothing has ever worked. The meds just made me worst off.
The reason of this posting is to maybe get some insight on maybe if i am being attacked? Perhaps Cursed? I try and try to overcome it but just wont work. I use to be very social when i was younger and now im lucky if i even talk to someone when i am out and about. I was diagnosed with social anxiety and depression blah blah but i just don't believe that's the case. Maybe someone here can help me out... I don't want to bother you guys with my problem just figured it was worth a shot. Its been a very crippling life style and i need change... Thanks in advance for any help and for just even reading this.

HS!

Bobby

 

[Bobby1]

Thank you for replying. I appreciate every ones thoughts on this. Atlantic that's a great theory. I never thought about it like that lol.

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Atlantic" <atlantic_1900@... wrote:

Bobby, i don't know you, but i believe i understand where your coming from. We are all cursed, from the very beginning of mankind (proper). Our very cruel and retched existence has been a product of others. Nothing seems to satisfy does it? We all come back to the same emptiness. Our entire lives we move from one temporary satisfaction to another, just to sort of "justify" a "normal" existence.

We are forced thread into the nut that is society, built by very cunning and spiritually powerful people. To enslave our very minds, our bodies are useless nothing more than a machine, a tube for processing energy. Why you ask? what's all this about...why all this suffering? I don't know, could be many reasons or just one reason, we can speculate all we want. That's all part of the architecture, the unknowing, the lack of logic, the dependence on the system, all fool-proof. Thinking about this will have your mind racing around in circles.

So what's the solution?!? (you probably think i'm crazy about now lol) Satanism has brought peace to me , i have never spoken to Lord Enki or any others. But i know something is looking out for me, not my imagination, i know this for sure! and i doubt very much its placebo effect. All i can say is stick with it, READ, many books are posted on this site alone. Use your given ability to distinguish the truth from lies.

I have a bit of a theory, could be wrong but that's why its my theory LOL. I believe the people who suffer the most at the hands of this very man made society, are the ones with the most to offer. They are most affected by this amazing mess of crap (for a lack of a better word). That's why so many young people kill themselves because they see no other option, the very cruel thing is, its not that THEY don't see it, its because the option is not presented to them.

Hail Lord Enki

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Bobby" <foundtheway716@ wrote:

Hey everyone. I am 21 years old and for about 10 years i have been depressed and have had low self esteem and my self confidence has just never been there since i became depressed. I have tried counseling and meds nothing has ever worked. The meds just made me worst off.
The reason of this posting is to maybe get some insight on maybe if i am being attacked? Perhaps Cursed? I try and try to overcome it but just wont work. I use to be very social when i was younger and now im lucky if i even talk to someone when i am out and about. I was diagnosed with social anxiety and depression blah blah but i just don't believe that's the case. Maybe someone here can help me out... I don't want to bother you guys with my problem just figured it was worth a shot. Its been a very crippling life style and i need change... Thanks in advance for any help and for just even reading this.

HS!

Bobby

 

[Atlantic]

No problem at all Bobby, that's what we are here for, our continuing struggle against the one of the many enemies.....ignorance. There was one thing i said about the body, being only a tube, i was referring to the physical state only. The body contains very important energy sources called chakras, you can read more about this at joyofsatan.com Its quite remarkable, if you think about it, just that in itself goes Light years ahead of any other teaching. You should also research for yourself, never ever take things for granted.

Hail Lord Enki!

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Bobby" <foundtheway716@... wrote:

Thank you for replying. I appreciate every ones thoughts on this. Atlantic that's a great theory. I never thought about it like that lol.


--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Atlantic" <atlantic_1900@ wrote:

Bobby, i don't know you, but i believe i understand where your coming from. We are all cursed, from the very beginning of mankind (proper). Our very cruel and retched existence has been a product of others. Nothing seems to satisfy does it? We all come back to the same emptiness. Our entire lives we move from one temporary satisfaction to another, just to sort of "justify" a "normal" existence.

We are forced thread into the nut that is society, built by very cunning and spiritually powerful people. To enslave our very minds, our bodies are useless nothing more than a machine, a tube for processing energy. Why you ask? what's all this about...why all this suffering? I don't know, could be many reasons or just one reason, we can speculate all we want. That's all part of the architecture, the unknowing, the lack of logic, the dependence on the system, all fool-proof. Thinking about this will have your mind racing around in circles.

So what's the solution?!? (you probably think i'm crazy about now lol) Satanism has brought peace to me , i have never spoken to Lord Enki or any others. But i know something is looking out for me, not my imagination, i know this for sure! and i doubt very much its placebo effect. All i can say is stick with it, READ, many books are posted on this site alone. Use your given ability to distinguish the truth from lies.

I have a bit of a theory, could be wrong but that's why its my theory LOL. I believe the people who suffer the most at the hands of this very man made society, are the ones with the most to offer. They are most affected by this amazing mess of crap (for a lack of a better word). That's why so many young people kill themselves because they see no other option, the very cruel thing is, its not that THEY don't see it, its because the option is not presented to them.

Hail Lord Enki

--- In [url=mailto:[email protected]][email protected][/url], "Bobby" <foundtheway716@ wrote:

Hey everyone. I am 21 years old and for about 10 years i have been depressed and have had low self esteem and my self confidence has just never been there since i became depressed. I have tried counseling and meds nothing has ever worked. The meds just made me worst off.
The reason of this posting is to maybe get some insight on maybe if i am being attacked? Perhaps Cursed? I try and try to overcome it but just wont work. I use to be very social when i was younger and now im lucky if i even talk to someone when i am out and about. I was diagnosed with social anxiety and depression blah blah but i just don't believe that's the case. Maybe someone here can help me out... I don't want to bother you guys with my problem just figured it was worth a shot. Its been a very crippling life style and i need change... Thanks in advance for any help and for just even reading this.

HS!

Bobby