The Gods Confused on how to move forward

[ModernHeathen88]

Hi everyone, apologies for the length.

I've been dedicated to Zeus since 2015. I previously went by VabzirVonpho on the old forum.

For the first 5 years or so I was consistent in my meditations/rituals/online activism. Then I had my first child and things slowed down drastically for me. Then having my 2nd about 3 years later.

I lost contact with the Gods and everyone here and was just living like a mundane. I still held onto my beliefs and always experienced signs from the Gods, seeing very sacred numbers in the strangest places, things like that.

Recently however I've been in a pretty dark spot, with everything going on in the world, relationship problems and lacking self worth. I took comfort in talking to some friends who are xians. I liked the community and the acceptance. It went as far as one of them blessing me and giving me a book and another friend praying for me and giving me some coins with prayers on them.

I felt such intense spiritual conflict. I even considered attending church with one of them. However, I kept my scepticism.

After a long time of thinking I found myself back here at the ToZ. I found it strange how it changed names, but after re-reading it, I know this is where I belong.

My question is, after being exposed like that, do I just continue? Do I re-dedicate myself? I feel like that would help. I would greatly appreciate any advice.

Thanks

 

[Power of Justice [SG]]

Hi everyone, apologies for the length.

I've been dedicated to Zeus since 2015. I previously went by VabzirVonpho on the old forum.

For the first 5 years or so I was consistent in my meditations/rituals/online activism. Then I had my first child and things slowed down drastically for me. Then having my 2nd about 3 years later.

I lost contact with the Gods and everyone here and was just living like a mundane. I still held onto my beliefs and always experienced signs from the Gods, seeing very sacred numbers in the strangest places, things like that.

Recently however I've been in a pretty dark spot, with everything going on in the world, relationship problems and lacking self worth. I took comfort in talking to some friends who are xians. I liked the community and the acceptance. It went as far as one of them blessing me and giving me a book and another friend praying for me and giving me some coins with prayers on them.

I felt such intense spiritual conflict. I even considered attending church with one of them. However, I kept my scepticism.

After a long time of thinking I found myself back here at the ToZ. I found it strange how it changed names, but after re-reading it, I know this is where I belong.

My question is, after being exposed like that, do I just continue? Do I re-dedicate myself? I feel like that would help. I would greatly appreciate any advice.

Thanks

You desire a sense of community and belonging. You can find that here with all of us. Just begin a meditation routine if you previously stopped and focus on cleaning for the most part. Clean your aura and chakras. There's no need to dedicate again.