About 3 - 4 months ago I dedicated myself to Father Satan. Previously, I spent a great deal of time on JOS, reading, learning, wondering if dedicating was right. It wasn't long that I contemplated over it. It always felt right. When I was a little girl my parents sent me to a private Christian School, and even then I never understood why everyone around me hated 'the devil' as he was referred to.. By the age of 9 I was learning about Wicca and I stuck with that until the age of 16, where I gave up on it, and later went back, only to give up on it again. I was trying to force myself to believe in it, foolishly.
But, onto the real topic of this post;
A few days before I was to perform my Dedication Ritual, I had a very vivid dream of a Demon.
In the dream: I was lying on the bed, next to my fiance, in our house, in our bedroom. Everything about the house was exactly the same, which is unusual for me. Nothing's ever exactly the same in my dreams.. there are usually subtle to very big changes, of course. Anyway; my son was in his basinet in the living, watching television, and the light was on. I was half asleep in the dream and I noticed the light on. It startled me because 1) I heard my son in there, 2) I noticed my fiance was sleeping on the bed next to me, and 3) 'The baby's alone!' I was thinking. lol
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After giving me his name, he moved closer to me, leaning over me and gazing down at me. Then I asked him, "You will protect us?"
He responded with a simple, "Yes." and a nod.
"And my baby?" I continued.
Again, he nodded and said, "Yes." this time with a smile. He then proceeded to place his hand on my cheek, and I tensed slightly, knowing it would feel intense somehow, and it was. His touch felt like a wave of powerful energy running through me, and my entire body tensed as I grasped his hand and shut my eyes tight. Though I was slightly uncomfortable at first, I felt nothing short of peace and security within seconds and I relaxed, falling asleep as I held onto his hand. Then I woke up, still feeling that sense of peace and security and I told my fiance immediately. And it was a confirmation for me. I knew dedicating was the right thing to do.
I wish I knew who he is. I wish I could see him again.
For months, my fiance and I have gone through some very hard times - one of which, losing our home - the same home I had that dream in and dedicated myself in. The people we were buying it from screwed us over majorly. A month after we left the house burned down, which I thought was interesting..
Since I've dedicated, as well as my fiance, our lives are back on track completely and I want to show my gratitude to Father Satan in every way I can.
Never have we been so happy or felt so safe.
But, onto the real topic of this post;
A few days before I was to perform my Dedication Ritual, I had a very vivid dream of a Demon.
In the dream: I was lying on the bed, next to my fiance, in our house, in our bedroom. Everything about the house was exactly the same, which is unusual for me. Nothing's ever exactly the same in my dreams.. there are usually subtle to very big changes, of course. Anyway; my son was in his basinet in the living, watching television, and the light was on. I was half asleep in the dream and I noticed the light on. It startled me because 1) I heard my son in there, 2) I noticed my fiance was sleeping on the bed next to me, and 3) 'The baby's alone!' I was thinking. lol
So, [/IMG]
After giving me his name, he moved closer to me, leaning over me and gazing down at me. Then I asked him, "You will protect us?"
He responded with a simple, "Yes." and a nod.
"And my baby?" I continued.
Again, he nodded and said, "Yes." this time with a smile. He then proceeded to place his hand on my cheek, and I tensed slightly, knowing it would feel intense somehow, and it was. His touch felt like a wave of powerful energy running through me, and my entire body tensed as I grasped his hand and shut my eyes tight. Though I was slightly uncomfortable at first, I felt nothing short of peace and security within seconds and I relaxed, falling asleep as I held onto his hand. Then I woke up, still feeling that sense of peace and security and I told my fiance immediately. And it was a confirmation for me. I knew dedicating was the right thing to do.
I wish I knew who he is. I wish I could see him again.
For months, my fiance and I have gone through some very hard times - one of which, losing our home - the same home I had that dream in and dedicated myself in. The people we were buying it from screwed us over majorly. A month after we left the house burned down, which I thought was interesting..
Since I've dedicated, as well as my fiance, our lives are back on track completely and I want to show my gratitude to Father Satan in every way I can.
Never have we been so happy or felt so safe.
You say you do not remember the name; have you looked on the JoS site and gone through every name there? Perhaps there might be one that rings familiar to you. It could be He; it's worth a try. 
