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chronic illness, employment struggles, mental breakdown.

Avatarserpentwalker6662 min to read

Hello my satanic family. I have been working for awhile now, and I have had chronic illness from the time I was very young. I have a disabled wife and two beautiful children. And I'm fighting like hell to just keep my head above water.

I work until my literally hands bleed, yet I don't know where I'm going to make more money, and I don't know at this point how I'm going to be okay, or make sure my family is okay financially, I have been struggling with this for years.

However, today I have just reached a breaking point mentally.

I do not know what my options or life can be moving forward. I end up going and crying in my car many days so my family does not see me struggle.

I feel so lost, and so upset. I'm in constant physical pain from issues I've put alot of healing energy into curing. Yet I still get very sick and drained most days.

I've thrown alot of energy into wealth workings as well..

What would you all recommend I do? I can feel Satan. I can feel the Gods. But I can't see the path forward.

This road has been incredibly hard for me, and I still will continue. But I do not know how much strength I have left at this point truthfully.

I'm looking for jobs. Asking about apprenticeships, learning what courses I can do in my free time. I just can't balance work that well but I need the money. I'm not staying idle. I'm trying to help myself.

I am trying to build my life to a point where I can BE HERE FOR ALL OF YOU. But addressing everything in my life takes ALL OF MY TIME. And I'm still fighting so hard.

I love you all my satanic family. HAIL ZEUS.

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“Come to me, O Lord IAO, great Zeus-Ammon, hidden fire, all-seeing one, ram-horned, first and last, who rules from the sun.”
— PGM V.96–172

“I am Atum, when I was alone in Nun. I am the beginning and the end.”
— Coffin Texts, Spell 714

(Enki of Eridu, Lord of the Earth -- Poem)
https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=39&t=87236

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Perhaps be on the lookout for customer support roles, especially for amazon, they offer great flexibilty.

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I am reaching towards a green apple.

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serpentwalker666said:

I am familiar with programming languages. I just never have the time to really apply myself with coding or practice and gain it as a skill.

I've read a few different software books and really got in deep to studying it though. I plan to continue once I'm able to. I've tinkered with Linux and BSD as well. Along with virtual machines.

I work in a factory currently as it's decent money for where I'm at. And I'm looking for something more flexible around the same pay in the mean time so I can quit this and jump to that, so I can then have the time to apply myself in the programming and other endeavors to my long term goals.

If you have a lot of skills with technology, then a physical labor-based job is a poor use of your skills and exacerbates any health problems. Are there any desk jobs available in your area, or remotely, that you could take?

Brother I have asked some important questions via mail ...They are related to my natal chart ..when you have time please reply

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I wanted to thank everyone for your guidance and support. I have went over this post a few times now, and I am working on switching to a better job for dealing with these issues and circumstances, and will work with the sun and moon energies to combat the fatigue and pain.

I appreciate you all my satanic family. Thank you all very much.

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“Come to me, O Lord IAO, great Zeus-Ammon, hidden fire, all-seeing one, ram-horned, first and last, who rules from the sun.”
— PGM V.96–172

“I am Atum, when I was alone in Nun. I am the beginning and the end.”
— Coffin Texts, Spell 714

(Enki of Eridu, Lord of the Earth -- Poem)
https://ancient-forums.com/viewtopic.php?f=39&t=87236