chizmarrob
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im 36 yrs old, been a dedicated satanist for 6 months now. i wanted to know if my head injuries in the past may be causing problems when it comes to opening the third eye, or any kind of communication with entities. i fully believe i had a visitor from an entity last fall shortly after my dedication ritual. i have become muh more humble and caring for natural things, including humans. like most, life hasn't been full of happy times. guess, it's our wn opinion of what is "good". this belief that whoever loves satan is evil is such nonesense. i will never stop exercising my gift from our maker. as far as my head injury? another time in life that wish i could erase, i suffer from pain and sometimes lose concentration, forgetting things ways too much, lose of motivation, ut meditating and cleaning aura, "haven't done ritual since i dont want to mess up a detail. i dont want to be weak, and strongly believe this is mostly the enemy. i know we should teach ourselves and learn our own way through life. i live near houston and sometimes i have the feeling of wanting to perform group rituals. i see so many contradictions in satanists, it sometimes upsets me, but always maintain composure because i want to stay facused on myself and not the indirect influence of others opinions. i tend to be a hermit most of the time, because i get uneasy around sstrangers, but i want to overcome this. see, i feel i can sense thoughts from others and feel there energy and rarely get a good feeling. guess my point is if i could've damaged my brain and if so what i can do. also,,,, (sorry for the questions), would anyone close to me or far away, ever want to help me perform a ritual. ... can someone send an entity to help my life so i can teach others that i know are worse off then me. im an open book and will never bs anyone, enemy or not. i always say and do what i mean. i want to practice spells and talk with a demon i connect with or not. i know a demon will see i am true and have to contradict xians, and actually have gotten through. we each have special talents, i need to find mine. hail satan, come to me with your knowledge