Backlash against my dreams..

[Bravera]

I had believed, Family is the most important thing to me, that being able to live with my family in their home, to support with the bills, chores, to be able to have a comfortable room, even if it was small and lacking privacy, I thought my family is more important. I moved back in a month and a half ago. I was working towards buying myself my first vehicle and getting a 2nd job, I was so sure that everything was going perfectly... I had begun practicing drawing and my cursive, my artistic side has really been developing alot, and I have been able to have some peace in my life. I was ready to start getting closer relationships with some women who have been showing me interest. (Maybe I was going through an accelerated phase of my childhood that I missed out on)

Me and my sibling get into what I would consider a very minor argument, after all the things ive been through, What I believed to be a petty argument, caused me to get kicked out of my home. I know I will be ok and this will make me stronger, but I am genuinely very salty against my family. I have worked my ass off for years to get out of this homeless predicament, worked hard to pay my bills for over 3 years, and they think its ok to just kick me out because im "changing", that im "brutally honest", that im bringing conflict into the house.... When this is the exact opposite of my goal, to support my family.

I feel like, they are attempting to break my wings when I am ready to fly away, like my own family is intentionally causing me harm, I am ready to be my own man, and they are too "scared" of the MAN that I have become...
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This situation although at first caused me to experience some terrible pain I have never felt in my life. But I also realized, I really dont need anyone, they have broken my beliefs in being a "family man", I want to be wealthy and strong and I dont care whos shoes get stepped on, Spiritual Growth is the only Truth in this world.

 

[Blitzkreig [JG]]

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This sounds karmic, like something negative attached to your Natal Moon or Transiting it, or to your 4th house.

Yes, you can be strong, but one aspect of our soul is harmony, both in your communications and in relationships. Those with Libra influence are able to be diplomatic in their actions and words. Ansuz or Wunjo can be used to facilitate positive communication and harmony, respectively.

Of course, they have a responsibility in this, and you likely have other burdens besides fixing your family. However, I don't want you to cast off the "idea" of a good family entirely, or have other negative thoughts, due to some unfortunate circumstances.

I hope this gets resolved in time. Good luck.

 

[Flowers of Adonis]

They might be influenced by the enemy against you.

I think it is the absurdity of the situation that bothers you more than other elements of it.

Don't let this get you down. Everyone here is together in support for one another as we create a world where we belong and the enemy does not.

There will be resistance to us, and we have to keep pushing forward.

Everyone against you now will one day be thanking you and celebrating you in their souls.

For now, carry on.

 

[Power of Justice [JG]]

I had a black friend relate a similar thing to me. I believe it is a mental thing and comes from a lower understanding. Often times the people closest to you will be the first ones to drag you down to their level. They are afraid you might actually accomplish something by taking a risk or working hard, changing yourself for the better. These are all things that take courage and tremendous effort, things that most never even attempt.

As for my friend, he grew up in the literal ghetto and clawed his way out of it, all by himself. He dared to believe in himself when no one else would. Upon seeing that he was literally becoming a different man before their eyes, his parents in an absolute display of affection and love did their best to drag him down.

"Who do you think you are? Quit acting phoney, what is the matter with you? You think you're better than us? Oh, you got a fancy house? What's wrong with our house, not good enough for you anymore?"

The list goes on, they said all that shit to him just because he dared dream of a better life for himself. And for accomplishing his dreams they despise him(because if you're born in the hood you have to stay in the hood or some shit). He got over it eventually, he accepted he couldn't change their minds and moved on.

I don't know if you'll take away anything from this post but as bad as it might seem I'd say, don't hate your parents/siblings, I firmly believe this comes from a low understanding of life in general, they might come around eventually, and even if they don't, they are what they are.

Keep moving forward and don't ever let them drag you down so they can feel better about themselves.