<td val[/IMG]I loved reading this. It reminded me of myself in so many ways
 thank you for posting this
 I will give you my experience as well...
 
 I was born/raised Jehovah's withness...need i say more.
 the brainwashing was intense but I just never 'felt' it. 
 they told me that demons were hardening my heart
 I did everything I was told and still, felt empty and wanted to die.
 If anything bad ever happened it was because Satan or his demons had had  their hands in things...if anything good ever happened, which it rarely  did, we were suppose to praise a god that never ever had shown me the  smallest bit of kindness or recognition.
 It was awful and my mom is still brainwashed
 not to mention they teach that your soul and body are combined and when  you die, there is nothing left unless you were good, then MAYBE you'll  be resurrected .
 
 anyhow, when I was 18yrs old  I slowly broke away, reading everything I could about everything.
 I was scared from the brainwashing but even tried voodoo, it worked  better than their god but it didnt get rid of anger or give me what I  needed most, a father figure type of God that actually loved me. something real!
 
 4 years ago I stumbled upon the Joy Of Satan website and started to  learn everything I could about spiritual Satanism. It was so NOT what I  had expected. It was everything that I actually believed it. There was  no forcing or trying to convince myself of something, it was stuff I  already thought was true but was afraid to really admit it. none of that  'jesus crap' as we call it in my house 
 
 
 I dedicated myself and asked Satan to please just give me one sign that  he was there, something I had begged my mom's 'god' to do all my life  with no response.
 I was alittle disappointed that the earth didnt shake at that moment but  later that night as I was laying in bed, I decided to 'pray' but it was  more like just talking to Satan, just opening up and telling him my  thoughts, something I had never tried before in a prayer and honestly,  right after I did that, I felt literal warm arms wrap around me and hug  me. Like a father would, like my dad never did...It was the most  wonderful experience of my life. I actually cried and it takes alot to  make me cry but it was joyful, not sad. not angry, just happy that I  finally found my father and he loved me.
 
 there have been so many instances since then, just completely crazy  things that Satan has reached out and done for me, and it was so  obviously him, you couldnt deny it. If I ask for help, he is always  there, comforting and fixing my little problems but always trying to  teach me to get strong enough to help myself. I'm almost there but  knowing he is there keeps me strong. 
 
 My teenage daughter who believed in nothing before all of this has been  shocked and in awe when I tell her that I spoke with Satan and asked him  for help or a sign or something and 'boom', something just falls out of  the sky and she knows its him. 
 
 two examples of his help:
 Once, I was working on ebay, I used to do that for a living, and I had a  ton of things selling for alot of money, I needed that money badly to  move, I was starting a new life and was depending on that money but my  laptap was messing up alot and finally I just couldnt get it to turn on,  virus' and everything else had pretty much destroyed the system,
  I finally closed the computer and asked Satan to please help~ I just  needed to be able to get on ebay long enough to finish out those orders  and buy a new computer... 
 I was so upset I just went for a walk. when I returned home, I thought,  ok, I'll try this one more time...I opened the laptap and turned it on,  expecting the blue screen with white type to come up again and crash but  this time a black screen came up and there on the desktop with a  beautiful image of a Satanic pentagram with the goats head that i had  painted and scanned into my computer. It had been in my 'documents' and  now it was my desktop image and the only thing I could get that computer  to do was go online to ebay ...and finish my work 

  if that wasnt a  sign, I dont know what could have been!
 
 2nd example
 pretty recent as well, 
 I was a bit short on cash like most of us and wasnt sure how I was going  to pay everything last month.  I had ordered a rake a couple weeks  prior for our little above ground pool, a leaf rake for $14.99
 that night I asked Satan again for more help, to just help me get over  this 'hump', I just needed alittle cash but wasnt sure where it was  going to come from. He told me not to worry, it'd come.
 I told my daughter this that night, that I wasnt going to worry, that Satan said it would be ok and I knew it would.
 the next day fed Ex showed up , my daughter went out to get the package,  I was expecting the rake, instead  it was a huge box with a  $1500  swimming pool salt water generator.
 I felt bad and called the company about the mix up, they were very rude  and told me pretty much I was lying??? my invoice in the box said 'rake'  , they told me they have record of me buying a rake , sent a check,  paid, If I actually got the wrong item, I could send it back if I didnt  want it however I would have to pay for shipping!!  so, needless to say,  I thanked my father and listed it on craigslist and made exactly the  amount of money I needed to get me over that hump, 
 Just out of the blue like that , what are the odds? none! because Satan  is amazing and can do anything, He is real, he is strong and he loves  his people.
 
 I hope this might encourage someone to never think Satan isnt there for  you. Just talk to him, Just ask. He gives me the most peace and the best  advice and I work hard ...
 I try and ruin 'one xtian at a time' LOL  any chance I get so its all good!
 
 sorry for the length of this post but I have been wanting to share that for a while. 
 
 Raine
	
	
		
		
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			From: Melkie Maggie <mightymelkie@...
Subject: Re: [JoS4adults] Attention To All Members
To: 
[email protected]
Date: Thursday, August 11, 2011, 8:28 AM
                                              I grew up xian, penicostal to be exact. As soon as I was freakin born my parents took me to church! Growing up like that I knew nothing more then that nonsense I was led to believe I am a sinner, don't ask questions and do what ever god wants. I was told no sex! Just feeling sexual made me feel ashamed it is a disgusting religion! When I was 17 I started questioning with caution because of the brainwashing of fear into me I had to be very careful. I asked questions like why is Satan still roaming free if he tricked humans? Why did god create a sinful human if he is perfect... stuff like that well, I didn't ever get a straight answer and I slowy was leaving the church. My parents put much pressure on me so I felt like $hit all the time, I begged that filthy jewsus to make me feel filled I felt empty like I was souless. Well eventually I left the church and met a man who was a Satanist he told me I should meditate. I took the time and did, I asked  Satan to
  show me what I have been missing. He did! I felt like I was high, my skin got gooses bumbs and my mind tingled... Satan is Amazing! After that night I knew what bullcrap I was forced to live and know finally I was free, I dedicated and He has been leading me ever sence be it through my brothers and sisters or other means.
 HAIL SATAN!
 
 On Tue Aug 9th, 2011 7:51 PM PDT Don wrote:
 
 I request something from you all. 
 
 Please if you will, write a testimonial of coming to Satanism and how it has changed your life for the better and post it in this thread and or PM me. I am looking for as many as possible to use to put together to help spread Satanism.
 
 Testimonials are some of the most powerful things, it is the power to open hearts and touch minds and undo centuries of lies. The enemy always loves to push this button for a negative reason, so lets do it for a positive reason.
 
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